@ peri....a wise people have a saying...."the needs of the many outweigh the needs of the few"
:p. :)
Sucks about your nana. But "medication" suggests there was a doctor?
Anyway, there's also lotsa bulimics who sometimes seriously need potassium infusions. There's also lotsa peeps who need help to counter the high salt in our food. I really want to go low-carb, but trying to find low-carb potassium sources is driving me bonkers! Sure are lotsa low-carb sodium sources tho *headdesk*
@baby sis...wow I'm showing up on all sorts of search engines. Should I be worried? Hmmmm how to take advaantage.....
dear Samantha Ronson,
You are too adorable. Please marry me :)
There....proper advantage xD
Yay fasting! Hope I can make a humble 24 hours! Maybe I should try for 30. I dunno...it was really hard last time and I have to work on the 1st.
Liquid fast ofc....my protein powders. Must protect the muscle.
Today thus far I've lived on cheerios (eaten dry) and that last box of fiber one. Am also finishing up an old bottle of Green Envy. I'm pretty sure I opened it a few months ago and forgot about it, so it does need to be finished off.
I also painted my nails an old Revlon color called Ink. It's a real dark blue. I think of Peri's blue hair and baby sis's blue streak everytime I look at my nails.
And wet nails aren't good for stuffing face.
I have found my old rainbow cross and ofc Mich's heart necklace never had a chance to get lost. It sleeps on my bedside table. Friendship, eds, and jewelry!
I'm off to do laundry. Had a female accident while wearing work pants >_<
Note to self......always change as soon as you get home....sleepy crashes happen unexpectedly! Here's hoping the pants can be saved. The soaking in bio-kleen has me hopeful but. Still see faint lines.
.I hate hate FUCKING HATE PERIODS!
Saturday, February 26, 2011
Friday, February 25, 2011
Dear Self,
The Piggy McBingey thing is *over* dammit. Cramping is done with, the painful part is over. Fatigue does suck, but how about napping instead of eating? I got the next couple days off.
....
....
....
And that's what I've done. Slept the day away. Lots of weird dreams, from watching the Virgin Mary argue about how Jesus wanted to be born to a poor family (Joseph was concerned about his ability to provide) and at some point my brain wrote a Voyager episode (wish I could remember it) and then thinking about Samantha's pierced belly button. I was wondering if it was still pierced. Don't they heal up closed if they're not maintained? But I can't think about piercings for long. They make me queasy.
Been looking over my finances. Yikes and more yikes. Even with giving up WoW (sob!) Things are tight. I'm just not getting enough work hours. I average 16 hrs a week now. I guess vacations are done for awhile. Ouch. Much as I hate that job, money is necessary. R suggests I try to drum up more mary kay. But I'm not sure how.
Pros:
I know the product line very well.
I've used it myself since I was 14.
I am regularly assumed to be a good 10yrs younger than I am, so my own face can be used to advertise mary kay line.
I do have a website.
I can process visa, mastercard, and discover.
Cons:
I live in an area of the Rust Belt that was hit pretty hard by the recession.
Mary kay is not cheap.
I don't drive, so I can't go visit customers or deliver their orders.
I can't process american express. (Not without paying an additional $50 a month.)
Hmmmmm.
Foodwise...I slept mos the day. I finished off the half-bag of turkey jerky and had a jolly rancher hard candy and a mini twizzler. Mom is on season 7 so the Voyager obsession will only help me for another day, maybe two. I best take advantage.
I went ahead and got some potassium bicarbonate from amazon. It's not pills, but the reviews show other people were using it as a dietary supplement. Turns out US law forbids pottasium supplements to have more than 99mg per dose. That's a problemt because 99mg is barely 3% what you need each day. I've done prunes and bananas etc before....they tend to go bad before I finish them, especially the prunes. I was looking for something shelf-stable, that won't go bad for awhile. And preferably doesn't require refridgeration.
My drugstore.com and Gnufoods.com orders are going to have to wait. Sadly. I still haven't paid my phone bill for this month and that must come first.
Being poor sucks.
Ok...so I'm broke. How can I turn this into an advantage? I still have some carby things to finish up 3 Nature Valley granola bars (yummy!) And that entire box of fiber one oats & chocolate (uber yummy!) Once those are gone I'll have the safe foods and the chocolate stockpile (must not touch)
And my drink mixes. Have a lot of little Aria cans from that sale before xmas..and still have a can and a half of my Body Fortress. Also have 2 boxes of the glucosamine/chondtrotin drink mix and a handfull of things I wanted to try like a One-a-Day vitamin powder drink mix (not bad) and a vitamin drink mix aimed at diabetics (haven't tried it yet, but is very low carb) I also have a few small cans of lightly salted almonds.
And I just found a box of cheerios.
Yes it's annoying to haave no cup-a-soups and to be low on power crunch. But seriously I should be able to deal. There's a problem with my brain if I can't make it work on what I have left.
The Piggy McBingey thing is *over* dammit. Cramping is done with, the painful part is over. Fatigue does suck, but how about napping instead of eating? I got the next couple days off.
....
....
....
And that's what I've done. Slept the day away. Lots of weird dreams, from watching the Virgin Mary argue about how Jesus wanted to be born to a poor family (Joseph was concerned about his ability to provide) and at some point my brain wrote a Voyager episode (wish I could remember it) and then thinking about Samantha's pierced belly button. I was wondering if it was still pierced. Don't they heal up closed if they're not maintained? But I can't think about piercings for long. They make me queasy.
Been looking over my finances. Yikes and more yikes. Even with giving up WoW (sob!) Things are tight. I'm just not getting enough work hours. I average 16 hrs a week now. I guess vacations are done for awhile. Ouch. Much as I hate that job, money is necessary. R suggests I try to drum up more mary kay. But I'm not sure how.
Pros:
I know the product line very well.
I've used it myself since I was 14.
I am regularly assumed to be a good 10yrs younger than I am, so my own face can be used to advertise mary kay line.
I do have a website.
I can process visa, mastercard, and discover.
Cons:
I live in an area of the Rust Belt that was hit pretty hard by the recession.
Mary kay is not cheap.
I don't drive, so I can't go visit customers or deliver their orders.
I can't process american express. (Not without paying an additional $50 a month.)
Hmmmmm.
Foodwise...I slept mos the day. I finished off the half-bag of turkey jerky and had a jolly rancher hard candy and a mini twizzler. Mom is on season 7 so the Voyager obsession will only help me for another day, maybe two. I best take advantage.
I went ahead and got some potassium bicarbonate from amazon. It's not pills, but the reviews show other people were using it as a dietary supplement. Turns out US law forbids pottasium supplements to have more than 99mg per dose. That's a problemt because 99mg is barely 3% what you need each day. I've done prunes and bananas etc before....they tend to go bad before I finish them, especially the prunes. I was looking for something shelf-stable, that won't go bad for awhile. And preferably doesn't require refridgeration.
My drugstore.com and Gnufoods.com orders are going to have to wait. Sadly. I still haven't paid my phone bill for this month and that must come first.
Being poor sucks.
Ok...so I'm broke. How can I turn this into an advantage? I still have some carby things to finish up 3 Nature Valley granola bars (yummy!) And that entire box of fiber one oats & chocolate (uber yummy!) Once those are gone I'll have the safe foods and the chocolate stockpile (must not touch)
And my drink mixes. Have a lot of little Aria cans from that sale before xmas..and still have a can and a half of my Body Fortress. Also have 2 boxes of the glucosamine/chondtrotin drink mix and a handfull of things I wanted to try like a One-a-Day vitamin powder drink mix (not bad) and a vitamin drink mix aimed at diabetics (haven't tried it yet, but is very low carb) I also have a few small cans of lightly salted almonds.
And I just found a box of cheerios.
Yes it's annoying to haave no cup-a-soups and to be low on power crunch. But seriously I should be able to deal. There's a problem with my brain if I can't make it work on what I have left.
Tuesday, February 22, 2011
Late last night the monthly bleeding started. It's early. I wondered why my willpower was being drained so quickly. I wasn't doing anything strenuous. I was barely restricting. And what little restricting I did do was thrown to the wind at lunch today. At least I know why.
Got Star Trek: Voyager playing. I always did adore Janeway. And I adore Seven of Nine, and not just for her hotness. She's got a brain and that uber-Zen thing going on that amuses me so much. I still prefer T'Pol but Seven is such a close second that sometimes they are neck and neck. Hmmmm that's a nice image.
Not really sure what else to say here....brain not exactly fully functional. And the current Voyager episode is some time travel thing....I hate time travel storylines. And this one in particular one is very annoying. Already Seven has died. The episode is called Relativity and I do not like. Apparently she gets "recruited" several times. Ugh and ugh.
My cat senses I don't feel well. Or maybe she's curious about Mom's chili. Which is very spicy btw.
T'Pol and Seven also have strong loyalties to their captains.
Episode over. The cuteness of the Janeway-Seven interactions made it bearable. I'm with Janeway...I hate the very idea of time travel.
In room now. Very tired. Damn period.
Got Star Trek: Voyager playing. I always did adore Janeway. And I adore Seven of Nine, and not just for her hotness. She's got a brain and that uber-Zen thing going on that amuses me so much. I still prefer T'Pol but Seven is such a close second that sometimes they are neck and neck. Hmmmm that's a nice image.
Not really sure what else to say here....brain not exactly fully functional. And the current Voyager episode is some time travel thing....I hate time travel storylines. And this one in particular one is very annoying. Already Seven has died. The episode is called Relativity and I do not like. Apparently she gets "recruited" several times. Ugh and ugh.
My cat senses I don't feel well. Or maybe she's curious about Mom's chili. Which is very spicy btw.
T'Pol and Seven also have strong loyalties to their captains.
Episode over. The cuteness of the Janeway-Seven interactions made it bearable. I'm with Janeway...I hate the very idea of time travel.
In room now. Very tired. Damn period.
Sunday, February 20, 2011
I weighed myself at the gym yesterday, when no one was watching.
167. It hurt. I deserved it.
Even knowing that weight, even with my aim to post regularly again...it still took the whole day to start dragging myself back into control. I finally stopped eating at 7. It is only 10:30 now. I'm just starting to deal with hunger pangs. I am willing to have a small 100cal can of tuna. I want my cat in here tho first ^_^
And speak (type) of my baby, she's meowing at my door.
I have got to redo this bed. The mattress topper has slid over so much I think my electric mattress pad might crease to the point of damage. And besides...unpacking my mary kay order yesterday...I think I'm a bit allergic to the new packing material, and some got on my bed. My nose just won't stop itching. It's very annoying. The packing material had been crushed to powder in the corners of the box, and the powder was on some of the products and some flew out. Oy.
Miserable itchy nose. At least my eyes aren't itchy anymore.
To distract myself when Sims was not enough, I started to dig through this disaster of a room and gather all my perfumes together. I also have a cologne, like a proper gayelle ^_^
And various body sprays. I haven't found all the body sprays yet. But I've almost got all the perfumes together. 3 more left to find I think. No idea how many body sprays left to find.
Hmmmm...strange how I love Bumblebee's premade tuna salad but I'm not a big fan of their plain tuna. I wish their tuna salad came by itself, tho I do like the crackers they use. But those lil tuna salad cans in those kits are just too expensive for what little you get. Think I'll hit google and see if it exists alone.
Well it doesn't exist alone. Best I can hope for is someone out there came up with a recipe that tastes similar. Blah...I bet walmart is cheaper than my work. Even with my discount. I seriously need to drive. Sigh. Meijer is cheaper...their website is saying 12 boxes for 15 dollars. Dunno why walmart didn't have a shopping result in my google search. I've been in the walmart grocery and they not only have the bumblebee tuna w crackers box, but they also have a bumblebee tuna w crackers and peaches and a cookie box! They call it something like complete lunch to go.
Still hungry.
Fuck.
Must ignore.
Still have over a box of the atkins peanut fudge granola...tasty tasty. I thinkn I'll treat them as my candy bars. And oh dear I still have a whole box of fiber one bars left...must not eat them now. They gotta wait til I have nothing to do the next day. Those things are addictive. I will probably eat all 5 at once.
Food review!
I need to get more Gnu bars. They're soft and chewy and uberyummy and yet somehow they're not as addictive as fiber one. They're also less processed than fiber one. I get them at gnufoods.com I remember when they only had 4 flavors and they sent me a free peanut butter bar for feedback. It was very good btw.
These Gnu guys make kickass bars, I'm assuming they haven't changed since I last ordered and adored gnu bars. My fave flavor is the chocolate brownie, I also like the banana walnut and the peanust butter and the cinnamon raisin. The only reason I didn't like the orange cranberry is because I don't like cranberry. These guys do a kickass job of making their bars taste good.
They have added some new flavors since I last ordered. Oh! And yay they also made a sample pack option! I remember suggesting that. I bet I wasn't the only one ^_^
Oh! And gnu bars have 4g protein vs fiber one's 2g. And a bit less sugar... and whoa! Gnu has 12g fiber vs fiber one's 9g.
What the hell am I doing? Read it yourself:
http://gnufoods.com/shop/compareus/#compare-cereals
Hmmmm that link isn't the bars page? Eh you'll find your way from there. I was looking at the bars and I got my fiber one box right here and the website was telling the truth about the fiber one so I assume the rest of the info is true too.
Gnu is more expensive. I can get a box of fiber one for like $3. Here's how I justify getting gnu...
I seriously cannot eat just 1 fiber one bar. I sometimes eat the whole friggen box in a single sitting. And they're 140cal each! So while fiber one is cheaper per bar, if I'm eating multiple bars that price difference becomes irrelevant. With gnu I am happy with just one bar. It's kinda like milk chocolate and dark chocolate. Gnu has a dark chocolate taste and fiber one is more milk chocolatey.
I don't want to knock fiber one, because they do make good products. Their oats & chocolate bars are seriously yummy! Too yummy! Which is why I just think gnu is better suited to my needs.
Gah! I need to either go to sleep or go looking for my address labels. I actually got a mary kay order to send off and since I only have like 2 customers I do need to keep them happy.
Hmmmm....flickering lights... fun. Let's charge the phone while awake. No going to sleep with sensitive electronic plugged in.
167. It hurt. I deserved it.
Even knowing that weight, even with my aim to post regularly again...it still took the whole day to start dragging myself back into control. I finally stopped eating at 7. It is only 10:30 now. I'm just starting to deal with hunger pangs. I am willing to have a small 100cal can of tuna. I want my cat in here tho first ^_^
And speak (type) of my baby, she's meowing at my door.
I have got to redo this bed. The mattress topper has slid over so much I think my electric mattress pad might crease to the point of damage. And besides...unpacking my mary kay order yesterday...I think I'm a bit allergic to the new packing material, and some got on my bed. My nose just won't stop itching. It's very annoying. The packing material had been crushed to powder in the corners of the box, and the powder was on some of the products and some flew out. Oy.
Miserable itchy nose. At least my eyes aren't itchy anymore.
To distract myself when Sims was not enough, I started to dig through this disaster of a room and gather all my perfumes together. I also have a cologne, like a proper gayelle ^_^
And various body sprays. I haven't found all the body sprays yet. But I've almost got all the perfumes together. 3 more left to find I think. No idea how many body sprays left to find.
Hmmmm...strange how I love Bumblebee's premade tuna salad but I'm not a big fan of their plain tuna. I wish their tuna salad came by itself, tho I do like the crackers they use. But those lil tuna salad cans in those kits are just too expensive for what little you get. Think I'll hit google and see if it exists alone.
Well it doesn't exist alone. Best I can hope for is someone out there came up with a recipe that tastes similar. Blah...I bet walmart is cheaper than my work. Even with my discount. I seriously need to drive. Sigh. Meijer is cheaper...their website is saying 12 boxes for 15 dollars. Dunno why walmart didn't have a shopping result in my google search. I've been in the walmart grocery and they not only have the bumblebee tuna w crackers box, but they also have a bumblebee tuna w crackers and peaches and a cookie box! They call it something like complete lunch to go.
Still hungry.
Fuck.
Must ignore.
Still have over a box of the atkins peanut fudge granola...tasty tasty. I thinkn I'll treat them as my candy bars. And oh dear I still have a whole box of fiber one bars left...must not eat them now. They gotta wait til I have nothing to do the next day. Those things are addictive. I will probably eat all 5 at once.
Food review!
I need to get more Gnu bars. They're soft and chewy and uberyummy and yet somehow they're not as addictive as fiber one. They're also less processed than fiber one. I get them at gnufoods.com I remember when they only had 4 flavors and they sent me a free peanut butter bar for feedback. It was very good btw.
These Gnu guys make kickass bars, I'm assuming they haven't changed since I last ordered and adored gnu bars. My fave flavor is the chocolate brownie, I also like the banana walnut and the peanust butter and the cinnamon raisin. The only reason I didn't like the orange cranberry is because I don't like cranberry. These guys do a kickass job of making their bars taste good.
They have added some new flavors since I last ordered. Oh! And yay they also made a sample pack option! I remember suggesting that. I bet I wasn't the only one ^_^
Oh! And gnu bars have 4g protein vs fiber one's 2g. And a bit less sugar... and whoa! Gnu has 12g fiber vs fiber one's 9g.
What the hell am I doing? Read it yourself:
http://gnufoods.com/shop/compareus/#compare-cereals
Hmmmm that link isn't the bars page? Eh you'll find your way from there. I was looking at the bars and I got my fiber one box right here and the website was telling the truth about the fiber one so I assume the rest of the info is true too.
Gnu is more expensive. I can get a box of fiber one for like $3. Here's how I justify getting gnu...
I seriously cannot eat just 1 fiber one bar. I sometimes eat the whole friggen box in a single sitting. And they're 140cal each! So while fiber one is cheaper per bar, if I'm eating multiple bars that price difference becomes irrelevant. With gnu I am happy with just one bar. It's kinda like milk chocolate and dark chocolate. Gnu has a dark chocolate taste and fiber one is more milk chocolatey.
I don't want to knock fiber one, because they do make good products. Their oats & chocolate bars are seriously yummy! Too yummy! Which is why I just think gnu is better suited to my needs.
Gah! I need to either go to sleep or go looking for my address labels. I actually got a mary kay order to send off and since I only have like 2 customers I do need to keep them happy.
Hmmmm....flickering lights... fun. Let's charge the phone while awake. No going to sleep with sensitive electronic plugged in.
Saturday, February 19, 2011
Ana Regzig is the author of kickass blog Dying to be Thin. The blog is abandoned...I'm guessing cuz Regzig got caught, poor thing. Anyway it's located at anaregzig.blogspot.com and I still read thru it sometimes.
Also....is it me or is this Bree changing her blog a LOT? Is someone constantly reporting her? Cuz I have gotten long comments a few times now that were basically announcing a new blog. And when I checked it, 3 entries and the 2nd one, the one w the pics, was VERY familiar...like copy-pasted kind of familiar. I don't get it? Is there a backstory here that I don't know about?
Sometimes I think about banning myself from blogger until I get my shit together .... then I realize that not blogging is a huge reason why my shit is not together.
Went to a party at a buffet restaurant tonight. For $10 a plate. So yea....I stuffed myself.
Ugh ugh...just breathing feels tight right now.
I did go to gym beforehand. My bro showed me what he does. And he's done 2 triathlons, so he must have some idea what he's doing.
Ugh I am so stuffed. This level of fullness is really uncomfortable. I definitely understand why some purge it out.....I just can't. The very idea makes me green in the gills. I have always hated throwing up. Painful, disgusting.... I do everything I can to avoid it. If I feel even slightly sick to my stomach, I will not eat. Of course when the feeling-sick comes from being so hungry it turns to nausea, I get into a fun little loop. I don't want to die though, so after the nausea goes away, I'll ttake a bit of milk or something light and gentle like that.
I know milk doesn't go well with everyone's stomach but it seems to calm my stomach.
Currently listening to Vienna Teng song My Medea...or at least that's what it's listed as on youtube. I find the song entrancing. Does Vienna Teng have CDs out? CDs, not itunes. I HATE itunes... or any other "protected" format...here's why.
When my computer crashes/gets infected/ otherwise fucked up...the music doesn't transfer. I had realplayer for a long time but when that computer finally died and I transferred evverything over to a slightly less ancient computer...none of my realplayer files would play. And some of the CDs i'd taken those songs from had been lost or stolen over the years. The realplayer, my backup, was designed to NOT function as a backup! So thanks to "antipiracy software" it is ILLEGAL for me to recover/copy over files that I made from my bought CDs. What the flying fuck.
So when I found this comic, I wholeheartedly agreed:
http://xkcd.com/488/
Ofc I don't actually know enough computer stuff to really pirate....but when a new song shows up in the shared music files, I don't complain..
And now whenever I buy a new CD I have uncle rip it. He knows how to strip the "protection" away and stripping that shit also shrinks the file.
Musicians make their money by selling their music, either as CDs or live performances.
Live performances are bought and paid for per performance, per concert. That's fine.
But when I buy a CD I only want to buy it once. Period. End of discussion.
A CD is not a live performance.
Also....is it me or is this Bree changing her blog a LOT? Is someone constantly reporting her? Cuz I have gotten long comments a few times now that were basically announcing a new blog. And when I checked it, 3 entries and the 2nd one, the one w the pics, was VERY familiar...like copy-pasted kind of familiar. I don't get it? Is there a backstory here that I don't know about?
Sometimes I think about banning myself from blogger until I get my shit together .... then I realize that not blogging is a huge reason why my shit is not together.
Went to a party at a buffet restaurant tonight. For $10 a plate. So yea....I stuffed myself.
Ugh ugh...just breathing feels tight right now.
I did go to gym beforehand. My bro showed me what he does. And he's done 2 triathlons, so he must have some idea what he's doing.
Ugh I am so stuffed. This level of fullness is really uncomfortable. I definitely understand why some purge it out.....I just can't. The very idea makes me green in the gills. I have always hated throwing up. Painful, disgusting.... I do everything I can to avoid it. If I feel even slightly sick to my stomach, I will not eat. Of course when the feeling-sick comes from being so hungry it turns to nausea, I get into a fun little loop. I don't want to die though, so after the nausea goes away, I'll ttake a bit of milk or something light and gentle like that.
I know milk doesn't go well with everyone's stomach but it seems to calm my stomach.
Currently listening to Vienna Teng song My Medea...or at least that's what it's listed as on youtube. I find the song entrancing. Does Vienna Teng have CDs out? CDs, not itunes. I HATE itunes... or any other "protected" format...here's why.
When my computer crashes/gets infected/ otherwise fucked up...the music doesn't transfer. I had realplayer for a long time but when that computer finally died and I transferred evverything over to a slightly less ancient computer...none of my realplayer files would play. And some of the CDs i'd taken those songs from had been lost or stolen over the years. The realplayer, my backup, was designed to NOT function as a backup! So thanks to "antipiracy software" it is ILLEGAL for me to recover/copy over files that I made from my bought CDs. What the flying fuck.
So when I found this comic, I wholeheartedly agreed:
http://xkcd.com/488/
Ofc I don't actually know enough computer stuff to really pirate....but when a new song shows up in the shared music files, I don't complain..
And now whenever I buy a new CD I have uncle rip it. He knows how to strip the "protection" away and stripping that shit also shrinks the file.
Musicians make their money by selling their music, either as CDs or live performances.
Live performances are bought and paid for per performance, per concert. That's fine.
But when I buy a CD I only want to buy it once. Period. End of discussion.
A CD is not a live performance.
Wednesday, February 16, 2011
Me: this binge hangover is driving me bonkers. I'll have another chocolate binge to fend it off.
Body: What the flying fuck?!? I just...I just got all the shit out... literally the shits... wtf ..I JUST CAN'T WITH YOU! WHY ARE YOU DOING THIS TO ME YOU EVIL PERSON WTF DID I EVER DO TO YOU!
Me: omnomnom
Body: seriously want to give up but giving up=death and sadly the human body is wired to survive as long as possible. I hate evolution.
....
Yanno valentine's day was easy... it's the day after when all the yummy chocolate goes on sale...that's my problem. Oooo yummy chocolates in pretty boxes for half off!
Diabetes is gonna be fun. Hmph.
So I've been binging and crashing. Just now starting to catch up on blogs.
Working over valentines was....fun... too. All the last-minute shoppers bitching about "not much selection"
Well gee dumbass, if you'd gotten your shopping done earlier you'd have had a better selection. Early bird and all that. I hear the same shit on xmas. If you wait til xmas fucking evve then don't bitch about what's left.
And don't do the waiting-for-it-to-go-on-sale bitchfit either. If you REALLY want it, you'll pay full price. That's what the lady who actually bought it up did. So she got it instead of you. Fucking deal.
Retail is perhaps not a good match for me.
Speaking of that demon...I got 3hrs before I need to put my work face on and be a good little wageslave. Possible 3 and a half hours if I push it.
Wow my sleep pattern is fucked.
Night.
Body: What the flying fuck?!? I just...I just got all the shit out... literally the shits... wtf ..I JUST CAN'T WITH YOU! WHY ARE YOU DOING THIS TO ME YOU EVIL PERSON WTF DID I EVER DO TO YOU!
Me: omnomnom
Body: seriously want to give up but giving up=death and sadly the human body is wired to survive as long as possible. I hate evolution.
....
Yanno valentine's day was easy... it's the day after when all the yummy chocolate goes on sale...that's my problem. Oooo yummy chocolates in pretty boxes for half off!
Diabetes is gonna be fun. Hmph.
So I've been binging and crashing. Just now starting to catch up on blogs.
Working over valentines was....fun... too. All the last-minute shoppers bitching about "not much selection"
Well gee dumbass, if you'd gotten your shopping done earlier you'd have had a better selection. Early bird and all that. I hear the same shit on xmas. If you wait til xmas fucking evve then don't bitch about what's left.
And don't do the waiting-for-it-to-go-on-sale bitchfit either. If you REALLY want it, you'll pay full price. That's what the lady who actually bought it up did. So she got it instead of you. Fucking deal.
Retail is perhaps not a good match for me.
Speaking of that demon...I got 3hrs before I need to put my work face on and be a good little wageslave. Possible 3 and a half hours if I push it.
Wow my sleep pattern is fucked.
Night.
Monday, February 14, 2011
Wanna know someting funny? I had no idea today was valentines day until y'all started posting about it. Without those posts my first clue would have been going in to work tomorrow and seeing the valentine candy half off.
Well my present to myself was eating hell of a lot LESS than I have for the past few days. And unless that hot cocoa and the latte are considered junk...then I didn't have junk. I did eat like 8 single pieces of candy corn. I am still working thru the same candy corn bag I've had since Christmas. Can't binge on candy corn. Yay for safe sweets!
I've had no carbs since 7pm. Had a can of tuna at 9. Let my cat clean out the can.
Been sleeping a lot. The junk bige-a-rama of the past few days caught up with me. I swear I alternated between having the shits or being constipated all day. Felt sick most of the day.
Mom shares my addiction to sugar. We're talking about giving up junk food for Lent.
She also tried some of my remaining Lipton Cup a soups. She likes them. They're nice for when you want soup but a can is too much. She asked what I paid per box and I pay $2 per box, usually 4 packets in a box. One type has 3 packets in a box. Well she thinks she can get them cheaper at grocery store. So I might not have to buy those anymore.
Though I probably still will just so I can always have my faves around. I do actually like them all equally. But I feel I really want to keep the spring vegetable one around as it has the lowest calories. I don't fully remember how many calories but I think it's like 40cal a packet.
And I'm down to my last box of power crunch. So making an order within the next 10 days would be a good idea. Gotta allow for shipping time. Tho if I didn't have a power crunch for breakfast every day I could make the box last longer....
But no power crunch breakfast tends to equal junk food binge.
Haven't had a bar since I sent the gilr that email...and my eating definitely got worse.
Wow my spelling sucks tonight. Side effect of the fatigue probably. I also get hunger pangs on and off....they go away once their consistently ignored. But ignoring them and pushing through them can be very hard. Willpower is a finite resource. I guess my long weekend as Piggy McBingey shored up my willpower reserves again.
Wow I'm tired. Here's to dreaming about lovely bosoms ^_^
Well my present to myself was eating hell of a lot LESS than I have for the past few days. And unless that hot cocoa and the latte are considered junk...then I didn't have junk. I did eat like 8 single pieces of candy corn. I am still working thru the same candy corn bag I've had since Christmas. Can't binge on candy corn. Yay for safe sweets!
I've had no carbs since 7pm. Had a can of tuna at 9. Let my cat clean out the can.
Been sleeping a lot. The junk bige-a-rama of the past few days caught up with me. I swear I alternated between having the shits or being constipated all day. Felt sick most of the day.
Mom shares my addiction to sugar. We're talking about giving up junk food for Lent.
She also tried some of my remaining Lipton Cup a soups. She likes them. They're nice for when you want soup but a can is too much. She asked what I paid per box and I pay $2 per box, usually 4 packets in a box. One type has 3 packets in a box. Well she thinks she can get them cheaper at grocery store. So I might not have to buy those anymore.
Though I probably still will just so I can always have my faves around. I do actually like them all equally. But I feel I really want to keep the spring vegetable one around as it has the lowest calories. I don't fully remember how many calories but I think it's like 40cal a packet.
And I'm down to my last box of power crunch. So making an order within the next 10 days would be a good idea. Gotta allow for shipping time. Tho if I didn't have a power crunch for breakfast every day I could make the box last longer....
But no power crunch breakfast tends to equal junk food binge.
Haven't had a bar since I sent the gilr that email...and my eating definitely got worse.
Wow my spelling sucks tonight. Side effect of the fatigue probably. I also get hunger pangs on and off....they go away once their consistently ignored. But ignoring them and pushing through them can be very hard. Willpower is a finite resource. I guess my long weekend as Piggy McBingey shored up my willpower reserves again.
Wow I'm tired. Here's to dreaming about lovely bosoms ^_^
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