he wasnt denied but....

The jjudge's conditions were super extreme and I got a second shock when I was asked to sign somme sort of paper that I didn't understand.
No computers at all! Not just no internet- no COMPUTER of any sort in the house. Not even behind a locked door. That did not make me happy. I left courtroom quickly to go sob in private and then they dragged me back in while still sobbing and handed me a pen and this thick stapled paper thing.
I panicked. Turned into a total sobbing mess. My aunt started in on me right there in the courtroom. The officials who were still there were not amused.
And uncle is not out. Judge was willing but I freaked and was not given time to compose myself and aunt spent the whole ride home (we all carpooled) telling me I'm a waste of life. That I am soooo selfish I can't even see how selfish I am. And that Mom should kick me out.
Can I vent for a second?
Computer, even one without internet, is like the tool of my trade. It is NOT a tool of her retired-and-on-disability life. Furthermore her house is twice the size of mine. She didn't even submit her house for consideration. And why? She didn't want to give up her dog. Nor did she want to babysit her granddaughter at her son's house.. where granddaughter actually lives. And I get the attachment to pets but....
And ofc none of uncle's own kids can take him in. Nooooooo ofc not.
She has been hollering for months about how we much do anything to get uncle out... yet she put her dog above uncle's needs. And yet has the gall to preach at me about selfishness. I. Am putting myself above uncle, yes, but I am a person and not a dog. So obviously the whole family is mad at me. Mom's not kicking me out but every time I turn around I'm reminded that I'm being selfish.
I'll probably still lose my computer for God only knows how long, but at least I won't be held legally responsible for him.

a felon share my house??

Ok "alleged" felon right now but what the fuck ever. How is this even an option did my mom seriously think i'd be ok with giving up internnet and my free time to babysit her dumbass brother? Ok here's the story:
A few years ago uncle was suspected of something and cops seized some of his computer stuff. They did not arrest him, however. So I figured they'd arrest him if it was serious. But when his then-wife. Saw a naked pic of her niece that he took and was told he was suspected of being in some kidporn ring she justifiably freaked. Mom offered to let him stay at her house while the divorce progressed and then-wife moved out of the house. Uncle at least still had his own computer. Tho I hated how he smoked inside the housee, blasted his music to the point where neighbors complained, and he's the bad kind of baptist and is all gays are abominations.
I spent a lot of time on the internet with headphones on. I needed my internet.
So he moved out and lived alone in his place for maybe a year or so? I was just happy to have my house back. To not have to deal with his equally judgmentals sons too.
Few weeks ago the feds actually broke into his house to arrest him. They charged him with something about child pron. I can't get ddetails but given the stories I'm hearing maybe he's charged with helping make it? Taking the pictures? He is hugely into photography and I do remember some tales about him leaving the country once in a while because he got hired. And now I'm wondering what those trips were. I think his stuff was seized when he was returning to USA? I don't remember.

Anyway the point is once again mom wants him to live here. Only this time I would lose all internet for as long as he's here! and he'd have to be supervised, whatever that means. So I would have to stay home all the damn time and babysit him plus I have no internet?! Fuck that! I hate this! Given what he's accused of I hope he gets denied. He'd stay here until his trial and I have no idea when that is. But some officer person is coming here day after tomorrow to check the house out.
Did I mention I am not happy? Cuz I'm not.