Awwwww Mich <3 <3 <3
Can I publish your comment tho? It's got your email in it!
Hugs to baby sis.
I called off yesterday and today. Fuck this, I gotta get better! Or at least up to functioning. Mom had this before me and she's saying I should be nearing the end.
Had a temperature of almost 102 yesterday. I used one of those old mercury thermometers. I took my temp after I woke up feeling like I was having hot flashes. Feels like my temp is lower now, but still got sore throat w cough. Slight wheeze. Feel kinda warm. Have been on mostly liquids cuz my throat is that sore. My ensure knockoff cans expire in feb 2011 so I figured what the hell? Need to get them gone anyway. Got 9 cans left now. Mom sweetly bought me soups and nyquil. I've been using the nyquil but only one soup. Just not hungry much. Plus the usual hurts to swallow thing. Bleh. I hate being sick. It's uncomfy and it's boring. I'm actually looking forward to that 10hour shift now. I need money! I have now called off 3 days in a row! Ugh!
Gonna drink my food can, take more nyquil, and back to bed!
Thursday, December 30, 2010
Tuesday, December 28, 2010
Looks like blogger is back to normal. Sadly I can't say the same about my poor body.
I am sick. Runny nose, cough, sore throat, and the hoarse voice that tends to come with, and the occasional pounding headache. I actually called off work today. I almost never call off. I need money. Needing $ = work as much as possible. Blahhhh... don't suppose anyone's in the mood to buy some mary kay off me? I do have a website....ofc that website is connected to my "real-life" account. Hmmmm maybe best to stay anon. And I'm not sure I can legally ship outside the USA. Oh well, it was a nice thought.
So I'm here sucking down the cough drops and the Chloraseptic spray. Store manager was not happy... I chose to take that as a compliment. I do work hard. Hate my job but work hard anyway. Any money is better than no money.
Fuck I feel awful. My poor nose is raw from all the blowing. Being sick sucks.
I actually don't get sick very often. My immune system is pretty strong. My digestion is what's delicate. I can get food poisoning easy but things like colds and coughs rarely get past the sniffles stage. I'll have constant sniffles but rarely anything more serious. Which is probably good cuz work only gives us 6 sick days a year. And as far as I know they can't be banked.
Gonna take the tomato cup a soups down and eat em so I can take some nyquil without throwing up. Then it's back to bed.
Cheers.
I am sick. Runny nose, cough, sore throat, and the hoarse voice that tends to come with, and the occasional pounding headache. I actually called off work today. I almost never call off. I need money. Needing $ = work as much as possible. Blahhhh... don't suppose anyone's in the mood to buy some mary kay off me? I do have a website....ofc that website is connected to my "real-life" account. Hmmmm maybe best to stay anon. And I'm not sure I can legally ship outside the USA. Oh well, it was a nice thought.
So I'm here sucking down the cough drops and the Chloraseptic spray. Store manager was not happy... I chose to take that as a compliment. I do work hard. Hate my job but work hard anyway. Any money is better than no money.
Fuck I feel awful. My poor nose is raw from all the blowing. Being sick sucks.
I actually don't get sick very often. My immune system is pretty strong. My digestion is what's delicate. I can get food poisoning easy but things like colds and coughs rarely get past the sniffles stage. I'll have constant sniffles but rarely anything more serious. Which is probably good cuz work only gives us 6 sick days a year. And as far as I know they can't be banked.
Gonna take the tomato cup a soups down and eat em so I can take some nyquil without throwing up. Then it's back to bed.
Cheers.
Sunday, December 26, 2010
Edit...I am on verizon. So perhaps it's a verizon issue.... suddenly glad I didn't pay the whole bill. What are those fuckers doing?
Fun sidenote....samantha ronson is also on verizon (I was on it first, I didn't choose verizon she was one it :p) and she's been tweeting up a storm about how pissed she is at them.
Sigh....maybe I should switch.
Is anyone else having some serious issues with Blogger?
Maybe it's cuz I'm on my phone but comment boxes on other blogs do not load. I go to moderate comments and I get big wall o text.
Buttons don't show up. Even Dashboard was just a big wall 'o text earlier.
Even google isn't working very well. For several hours today whenever I pulled up my phone's browser (a mini version of Safari I think) the google homepage didn't load and instead my phone kept downloading something called m.gif or was it m.jpg?
Some blogs won't even load for me. I'm very annoyed. And the blogs that do load have no comment boxes.
Am I the only one with this problem?
Here's hoping this posts.
Fun sidenote....samantha ronson is also on verizon (I was on it first, I didn't choose verizon she was one it :p) and she's been tweeting up a storm about how pissed she is at them.
Sigh....maybe I should switch.
Is anyone else having some serious issues with Blogger?
Maybe it's cuz I'm on my phone but comment boxes on other blogs do not load. I go to moderate comments and I get big wall o text.
Buttons don't show up. Even Dashboard was just a big wall 'o text earlier.
Even google isn't working very well. For several hours today whenever I pulled up my phone's browser (a mini version of Safari I think) the google homepage didn't load and instead my phone kept downloading something called m.gif or was it m.jpg?
Some blogs won't even load for me. I'm very annoyed. And the blogs that do load have no comment boxes.
Am I the only one with this problem?
Here's hoping this posts.
Can't watch the vid on phone but the write-up and comments...it sounds like a sweet tearjerker.
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Christmas was kinda nice. I slept most the day, got fed by stepmom (good cook) and watched an adorably silly movie called scott pilgrim vs the world. Spent most the time over there with the siblings, who are very sheltered and think "pissed" is a swear word.
And yet they can watch a vid like scott pilgrim. But the gay references were more comedic than sexual so I guess that makes it ok?
Anyway half-sis got me a pair of fuzzy fuzzy warm pajamas...just like hers. I'd seen hers and they looked so warm I asked where they came from. So she got me a pair, only in soft pink :) and stepmom probably paid soooo...I dunno.still angry at daddie dearest but it's not like I'm angry with everyone in that house. The half-sibs weren't even born when the shit was going down.
But I am still mad at him. He didn't just reduce my mother to poverty and beat her...he also stole from her. There's a mixing bowl in that house I recognize as my maternal grandmother's. He also took her dining room table and chairs, which the court specifically awarded to my mom. He also took a bureau that matched mom's china cabinet.
He also took mom's wedding ring. He claims that mom pawned it but that's bullshit. My mother still has the love letters from her 6th grade boyfriend. That's right, sixth fucking grade. She's that sentimental. So when she said he took it...I believe her story over his.
So yes I am mad at him. And all I want is the stolen items returned. Especially the ring and the bowl, cuz I've got some sentimental value there too. A girl inherits her mom's rings...and I remember grandma using that bowl. I'd happily take money instead of the furniture. Current house has no room for the furniture :)
Moving on, mom's side of the fam sent their presents over since mom stayed home sick. Grandpa sent $50 cash and aunt sent a lovely shirt and a bath set..along with a gentle note that I have a BO problem. Yeah, I strongly suspect my rotting shower stall (literally rusting and rotting out) may have something to do with it. I wish I wasn't so poor. My bathroom really needs to be redone. The shower door opens less than halfway cuz it hits the sink. And the toilet is right next to shower facing the sink. I should draw a picture sometime. I have a scar on the top of my right foot from getting caught on that damn door. The shower is one of those all-in-one units that you basically just pop in and hook up the water. Think it would at least be possible to somehow get the damn door off and replace it with a simple curtain and rod? The door is rotting. Rust and rot.
Haven't wweighed yet. Judging by my clothes I may well be back to the old starting weight. Eeks. Got tomorrow's menu and jan 1st but haven't drawn up the menus to connect them. The idea is to step down to jan fast (aiming for a humble 30hrs again) and I know if I just up and cut cals I'll get ill and then binge. And that's just not a fun road to go down.
Ok I go back to work tomorrow (well...today now heh) so sleepytime for me.
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Christmas was kinda nice. I slept most the day, got fed by stepmom (good cook) and watched an adorably silly movie called scott pilgrim vs the world. Spent most the time over there with the siblings, who are very sheltered and think "pissed" is a swear word.
And yet they can watch a vid like scott pilgrim. But the gay references were more comedic than sexual so I guess that makes it ok?
Anyway half-sis got me a pair of fuzzy fuzzy warm pajamas...just like hers. I'd seen hers and they looked so warm I asked where they came from. So she got me a pair, only in soft pink :) and stepmom probably paid soooo...I dunno.still angry at daddie dearest but it's not like I'm angry with everyone in that house. The half-sibs weren't even born when the shit was going down.
But I am still mad at him. He didn't just reduce my mother to poverty and beat her...he also stole from her. There's a mixing bowl in that house I recognize as my maternal grandmother's. He also took her dining room table and chairs, which the court specifically awarded to my mom. He also took a bureau that matched mom's china cabinet.
He also took mom's wedding ring. He claims that mom pawned it but that's bullshit. My mother still has the love letters from her 6th grade boyfriend. That's right, sixth fucking grade. She's that sentimental. So when she said he took it...I believe her story over his.
So yes I am mad at him. And all I want is the stolen items returned. Especially the ring and the bowl, cuz I've got some sentimental value there too. A girl inherits her mom's rings...and I remember grandma using that bowl. I'd happily take money instead of the furniture. Current house has no room for the furniture :)
Moving on, mom's side of the fam sent their presents over since mom stayed home sick. Grandpa sent $50 cash and aunt sent a lovely shirt and a bath set..along with a gentle note that I have a BO problem. Yeah, I strongly suspect my rotting shower stall (literally rusting and rotting out) may have something to do with it. I wish I wasn't so poor. My bathroom really needs to be redone. The shower door opens less than halfway cuz it hits the sink. And the toilet is right next to shower facing the sink. I should draw a picture sometime. I have a scar on the top of my right foot from getting caught on that damn door. The shower is one of those all-in-one units that you basically just pop in and hook up the water. Think it would at least be possible to somehow get the damn door off and replace it with a simple curtain and rod? The door is rotting. Rust and rot.
Haven't wweighed yet. Judging by my clothes I may well be back to the old starting weight. Eeks. Got tomorrow's menu and jan 1st but haven't drawn up the menus to connect them. The idea is to step down to jan fast (aiming for a humble 30hrs again) and I know if I just up and cut cals I'll get ill and then binge. And that's just not a fun road to go down.
Ok I go back to work tomorrow (well...today now heh) so sleepytime for me.
Monday, December 20, 2010
Soooooo tired right now. Retail xmas sucks dirty baboon balls. Today was one of my few days off and I just slept thru the entire friggen day. No one cooked so I munched some of my carby foods and candies that aren't on the jan food list. Then slept some more. I let the wrappers pile up so I had some idea what i'd eaten. Brain still tired. Pain in feet is finally gone..and I go to work at 8am tomorrow.
I also have a 10hour shift on dec 23 and another 10hour on jan 1 and the rest of my many shifts are technically 8hour bt have a tendency to go over.
Soooo tired. Have repeatedly crashed in makeup and with gross teeth. My poor gums.
Judging by the wrappers I had nature valley granola bar, Odwalla bar, and 6 Lindt truffles and glass milk.
The Odwalla was good. Odwalla Original Bar- Chocolate Chip Peanut. 230cals (whoa) 70 fat cal 33g carb 4g fiber 14g sugars 7g protein but it tasted good. Like a soft oatmeal-gingerbread cookie with chocolate chips and peanuts. Actual solid peanuts, not just peanut flavoring.
The Lindt was this super yummy mix they're doinng for Christmas where they use the milk chocolate shell but put the white chocolate creme filling inside mmmmmmmmmm maybe it's a good thing the don't make thosse all year.
After seeing how little healthy I ate today I had one of the plum organics babyfood tubes I still had around. Am actually thinking of getting some more...it's an easy way to get some veggies in.
My hair hasn't been washed in almost a week. Haven't dyed it. Haven't even prepped for dyeing it. Sooooo tired.
Back to sleep. Another long workday tomorrow.
Sigh. I hate this job.
I also have a 10hour shift on dec 23 and another 10hour on jan 1 and the rest of my many shifts are technically 8hour bt have a tendency to go over.
Soooo tired. Have repeatedly crashed in makeup and with gross teeth. My poor gums.
Judging by the wrappers I had nature valley granola bar, Odwalla bar, and 6 Lindt truffles and glass milk.
The Odwalla was good. Odwalla Original Bar- Chocolate Chip Peanut. 230cals (whoa) 70 fat cal 33g carb 4g fiber 14g sugars 7g protein but it tasted good. Like a soft oatmeal-gingerbread cookie with chocolate chips and peanuts. Actual solid peanuts, not just peanut flavoring.
The Lindt was this super yummy mix they're doinng for Christmas where they use the milk chocolate shell but put the white chocolate creme filling inside mmmmmmmmmm maybe it's a good thing the don't make thosse all year.
After seeing how little healthy I ate today I had one of the plum organics babyfood tubes I still had around. Am actually thinking of getting some more...it's an easy way to get some veggies in.
My hair hasn't been washed in almost a week. Haven't dyed it. Haven't even prepped for dyeing it. Sooooo tired.
Back to sleep. Another long workday tomorrow.
Sigh. I hate this job.
Friday, December 17, 2010
(Edit to say Mary Kay is a makeup and skincare brand...and they market to mostly old ladies which pisses me off cuz I've used mary kay since I was 14 and dammit I like it. Using mary kay is not just for old people grrrrr )
Grr grr wtf with me spending money?!? On the bright side I won't be running out of hair dye any time soon. Yup, I'm gearing up to go red. I loves being a redhead. I do have a little natural red but like I said my bro got most of it. I use Natural Instincts-Cinnaberry to bring my red up to his. And since my natural color is a lighter brown than the Cinnaberry was made for...the color stays around for months. I still need to stop spending $ I don't have tho!
Drugstore.com order arrived :) and the Blue Waltz perfume is sooooo cute! Adorable little glass bottle that reminds me of my mom's old Barbie dolls (I liked her Barbies the best...always have) and the perfume's scent is strangely calming. It gives me this odd almost-memory of hugs and cuddles and being rocked to sleep. Maybe someone wore it when I was little.
The rest of my order amuses me. Even in the midst of Christmas feasts there is *something* on my mind. I got more Aria (the 1/2 off sale ends just after Christmas) a couple Green Envy (small sale there) and 2 bottles of magnesium citrate oral solution saline laxative, aka store-bought saltwater flush. I find laxatives a bit painful, I don't like the cramping. But when I do succcessfully lowcarb it I do get...stopped up. And customer reviews were often saying about the lack of cramping. A single dose is the entire friggen bottle. So per dose they ain't cheap. But I hate how I feel when using laxies soo I intend these for when the stopped-up outweighs the pain of laxing(no pun intended heh heh). I could get the magnesium citrate cheaper at work ofc...but then peeps would know I'm buying it. Yet the drugstore.com peeps know I'm buying it. Why does not buying it in person matter so much? Weird how that works.
Also bought 3 more boxes of those uber yummy South Beach peanut butter bars.
Ofc I could just get the damn sea salt and make the saltwater but....I'm lazy. I dont wanna measure the water, heat the water, then measure it again (evaporation) then measure out sea salt (and that's assuming I can find sea salt) and then wait for the salt to totally dissolve and the mixture cools down...I'm lazy and impatient. I am paying $ for the convenience of being able to take a water bottle to my room, crack the citrate open, and just down them.
And besides...if something goes wrong with a store-bought product (or online-bought) I totally have someone to harass :)
Grr grr wtf with me spending money?!? On the bright side I won't be running out of hair dye any time soon. Yup, I'm gearing up to go red. I loves being a redhead. I do have a little natural red but like I said my bro got most of it. I use Natural Instincts-Cinnaberry to bring my red up to his. And since my natural color is a lighter brown than the Cinnaberry was made for...the color stays around for months. I still need to stop spending $ I don't have tho!
Drugstore.com order arrived :) and the Blue Waltz perfume is sooooo cute! Adorable little glass bottle that reminds me of my mom's old Barbie dolls (I liked her Barbies the best...always have) and the perfume's scent is strangely calming. It gives me this odd almost-memory of hugs and cuddles and being rocked to sleep. Maybe someone wore it when I was little.
The rest of my order amuses me. Even in the midst of Christmas feasts there is *something* on my mind. I got more Aria (the 1/2 off sale ends just after Christmas) a couple Green Envy (small sale there) and 2 bottles of magnesium citrate oral solution saline laxative, aka store-bought saltwater flush. I find laxatives a bit painful, I don't like the cramping. But when I do succcessfully lowcarb it I do get...stopped up. And customer reviews were often saying about the lack of cramping. A single dose is the entire friggen bottle. So per dose they ain't cheap. But I hate how I feel when using laxies soo I intend these for when the stopped-up outweighs the pain of laxing(no pun intended heh heh). I could get the magnesium citrate cheaper at work ofc...but then peeps would know I'm buying it. Yet the drugstore.com peeps know I'm buying it. Why does not buying it in person matter so much? Weird how that works.
Also bought 3 more boxes of those uber yummy South Beach peanut butter bars.
Ofc I could just get the damn sea salt and make the saltwater but....I'm lazy. I dont wanna measure the water, heat the water, then measure it again (evaporation) then measure out sea salt (and that's assuming I can find sea salt) and then wait for the salt to totally dissolve and the mixture cools down...I'm lazy and impatient. I am paying $ for the convenience of being able to take a water bottle to my room, crack the citrate open, and just down them.
And besides...if something goes wrong with a store-bought product (or online-bought) I totally have someone to harass :)
Tuesday, December 14, 2010
Had to get up at dark o'clock in the morning cuz I opened at work today. And today was truck day so I needed something for strength. So I tried some Body Fortress in milk with crushed vitamins.
I guess I need to try it with Aria..cuz Body fortress takes soooo long to dissolve.
The other problem was the pills. My new pill crusher works great...turned those pills into a fine powder quickly and easily. I didn't strain anything while working the crusher.
The problem is the crushed pills did not want to dissolve!! Grrrrr!
It's possible some of the pills did dissolve and it was just hard to see in all the Body Fortress clumps. I dunno. I'm also thinking I need to dig out the old blender....assuming we still have one.
Found a Christmas treat I really like. It's possible they're available year-round but I never saw them before. They arrived with the rest of the Christmas food items. We also only got the one shipment in. So yea...I think these are a seasonal item. Maybe that's a good thing...cuz I adore them and would have a hard time saying No if they were around all the time.
Liberty Orchards Fruit Delights.....yummmmmmm. they are basically fruit jellies with chopped nuts and rolled in powdered sugar. They are sweet but not too sweet, not hugely sweet. I don't get a hard sugar crash off of them either. Liberty Orchards also has something called Aplets and Cotlets but I don't like those so much. The Fruit Delights tho... mmmmmmmm.
And I seriously need to chop up my credit cards. Wtf with the buying? I now have yet more hair stuff, more Green Envy on ots way... drugstore.com had a lil perfume called Blue Waltz that I was curuious about so I ordered that too. In the past 4 days I've dropped nealy $200 on stuff I want but don't need. I even got tiny lights for my mini tree. And that was after i'd bought two Christmas necklaces that light up thinking i'd use those for my tiny tree. So now I have 2 light-up necklaces and 2 tiny light strands. Festive little tree, no?
And on top of that the new Mary Kay magazine arrived and I'm looking at all their new Christmas launches. Some is limited-time only, some not (tho Mary Kay does discontinue stuff often enough to make me think nothing is forever) Yes, I use Mary Kay, laugh at me later :p I also joined the sales force like 5 years ago so I could get my stuff at a discount and get advance warning when something I love got discontinued :p so yea... laugh at me later :p I especially love their creme-to-powder foundation cuz it does not freeze. I coat my face in it and I do not get wind chapping anymore. Ever. Now if only I could stop falling asleep while still wearing it! It's not meant to be slept in dammit!!
So yea...I've been acting like I'm made of money. I am annoyed at myself. My debt is growing faster than my waistline. Now I'm gonna clean my room and take this box of Whoppers that I found downstairs and share it (read: hope the fam finishes it off..whoppers are a year-round candy item and thus forbidden to me right now)
Must stop shopping! I am broke dammit!
I guess I need to try it with Aria..cuz Body fortress takes soooo long to dissolve.
The other problem was the pills. My new pill crusher works great...turned those pills into a fine powder quickly and easily. I didn't strain anything while working the crusher.
The problem is the crushed pills did not want to dissolve!! Grrrrr!
It's possible some of the pills did dissolve and it was just hard to see in all the Body Fortress clumps. I dunno. I'm also thinking I need to dig out the old blender....assuming we still have one.
Found a Christmas treat I really like. It's possible they're available year-round but I never saw them before. They arrived with the rest of the Christmas food items. We also only got the one shipment in. So yea...I think these are a seasonal item. Maybe that's a good thing...cuz I adore them and would have a hard time saying No if they were around all the time.
Liberty Orchards Fruit Delights.....yummmmmmm. they are basically fruit jellies with chopped nuts and rolled in powdered sugar. They are sweet but not too sweet, not hugely sweet. I don't get a hard sugar crash off of them either. Liberty Orchards also has something called Aplets and Cotlets but I don't like those so much. The Fruit Delights tho... mmmmmmmm.
And I seriously need to chop up my credit cards. Wtf with the buying? I now have yet more hair stuff, more Green Envy on ots way... drugstore.com had a lil perfume called Blue Waltz that I was curuious about so I ordered that too. In the past 4 days I've dropped nealy $200 on stuff I want but don't need. I even got tiny lights for my mini tree. And that was after i'd bought two Christmas necklaces that light up thinking i'd use those for my tiny tree. So now I have 2 light-up necklaces and 2 tiny light strands. Festive little tree, no?
And on top of that the new Mary Kay magazine arrived and I'm looking at all their new Christmas launches. Some is limited-time only, some not (tho Mary Kay does discontinue stuff often enough to make me think nothing is forever) Yes, I use Mary Kay, laugh at me later :p I also joined the sales force like 5 years ago so I could get my stuff at a discount and get advance warning when something I love got discontinued :p so yea... laugh at me later :p I especially love their creme-to-powder foundation cuz it does not freeze. I coat my face in it and I do not get wind chapping anymore. Ever. Now if only I could stop falling asleep while still wearing it! It's not meant to be slept in dammit!!
So yea...I've been acting like I'm made of money. I am annoyed at myself. My debt is growing faster than my waistline. Now I'm gonna clean my room and take this box of Whoppers that I found downstairs and share it (read: hope the fam finishes it off..whoppers are a year-round candy item and thus forbidden to me right now)
Must stop shopping! I am broke dammit!
Sunday, December 12, 2010
Edit: totally forgot to mention the Winter Weather Advisory in effect for most of today. Serious snow from late afternoon til damn near midnight. When I got off work my dear coworker who gave me a ride needed to almost dig her car out! I tried to help much as I could. There was only one ice-scraper so clearing the windows was still all her.
I'm dreaming of a White Christmass.....
I said my intake would be crap, and it is. Christmas truly just takes me over. But I am using a mini-intermittent Fasting idea.... I eat once a day. And only once. All my calories (well, about 99%) have to be taken in within a 4 hour window. That's 4 hours in a row..not 1 hour here and another there. So I'm alternating 20hr fasts with 4hr Piggy McBingey. I am not gonna lose any weight on this plan, but it will keep the gains small while still letting me indulge in all the Christmas goodies. I even went back to using half-scoops of my protein powder with half packets of Go Greens. So my liquid 20hr fasts don't go over 70cal for the whole 20 hours. And the extra water I'm taking in is good for me.
This is how I'm gonna cope with all the extra food that's around during the holidays. I know I can drop the weight...but I dearly love Christmas and I want to enjoy the ride. So that's how I'm gonna cope. And so far it's working well. I don't have to burn willpower for days on end. Just for a few hours. "I'll eat it later today" has saved me many times. And when that 4hr window comes omnomnom but I still don't eat *all* the foods that I said "I'll eat it later today" about because I get stuffed before I eat it all! So it goes into tomorrow's food pile. Repeat: I am not losing weight right now... I am gaining... but... the gains are very very slow and I still get to partake in a lot of the Christmas fun. So this crazy plan works for me right now. Maybe I could lose on this plan if I ate less during those 4hrs? I dunno...probably. maybe I'll try it later. Right now I just want to enjoy Christmas without doing a lot of damage. I know I can drop these small gains once I knuckle down. Especially now that my body is even more ana than I am xD
Me: ooo chocolate! Omnomnom
Body: wtf? Have some diarrhea!
Me: oh fuck! *runs to bathroom*
Me: ooocarbs! Sugars! Omnomnom
Body: seriously? This is like burning air.
Me: ooo I'm energetic and happy!
(30 minutes later...or less)
Me: uunngh I feel sleepyyyyyyzzzzzz
Body: carbohydrates... big overture, little show :)
Another question about ketosis. Yea I never claimed to be a good teacher ^_^ so let's try again.
We're all familiar with fasting, right? Aka starving to lose weight? How many of us have heard "oh you don't want to do that or your body will go into survival mode!" Or how many of us have been told to avoid "starvation mode" at all costs?
Guess what? Starvation mode = ketosis. Survival mode = ketosis. Ketosis is why people can survive without food for so long. Ketosis is how a starving person stays alive on just water for so long.
There is only one big difference between starving and eating low-carb:
When you are starving, the protein used to make sugar comes from your muscles.
When you eat low-carb, the protein used to make sugar comes from the protein you eat.
Does that help? I can try to go more in depth but I'm reaching the limits of my knowledge here. As far as leaving ketosis...simply eating a lot of carbs will take you out of ketosis.
About the Twistted bar... it's basically the protein bar version of a chocolate covered pretzel sitting on a thin sheet of caramel and peanut-flavored nougat. The 15g protein is kickass. These bars do what they say... I've just learned I prefer pretzles and chocolate to stay separate. If you like chocolate covered pretzels Twisted might be a good match for you. I just don't like the taste all that well.
Wow I wrote another essay. I just don't know when to shut up. It's like 3am here so I need to get a new water bottle and head to bed. Zzzzzz
I'm dreaming of a White Christmass.....
I said my intake would be crap, and it is. Christmas truly just takes me over. But I am using a mini-intermittent Fasting idea.... I eat once a day. And only once. All my calories (well, about 99%) have to be taken in within a 4 hour window. That's 4 hours in a row..not 1 hour here and another there. So I'm alternating 20hr fasts with 4hr Piggy McBingey. I am not gonna lose any weight on this plan, but it will keep the gains small while still letting me indulge in all the Christmas goodies. I even went back to using half-scoops of my protein powder with half packets of Go Greens. So my liquid 20hr fasts don't go over 70cal for the whole 20 hours. And the extra water I'm taking in is good for me.
This is how I'm gonna cope with all the extra food that's around during the holidays. I know I can drop the weight...but I dearly love Christmas and I want to enjoy the ride. So that's how I'm gonna cope. And so far it's working well. I don't have to burn willpower for days on end. Just for a few hours. "I'll eat it later today" has saved me many times. And when that 4hr window comes omnomnom but I still don't eat *all* the foods that I said "I'll eat it later today" about because I get stuffed before I eat it all! So it goes into tomorrow's food pile. Repeat: I am not losing weight right now... I am gaining... but... the gains are very very slow and I still get to partake in a lot of the Christmas fun. So this crazy plan works for me right now. Maybe I could lose on this plan if I ate less during those 4hrs? I dunno...probably. maybe I'll try it later. Right now I just want to enjoy Christmas without doing a lot of damage. I know I can drop these small gains once I knuckle down. Especially now that my body is even more ana than I am xD
Me: ooo chocolate! Omnomnom
Body: wtf? Have some diarrhea!
Me: oh fuck! *runs to bathroom*
Me: ooocarbs! Sugars! Omnomnom
Body: seriously? This is like burning air.
Me: ooo I'm energetic and happy!
(30 minutes later...or less)
Me: uunngh I feel sleepyyyyyyzzzzzz
Body: carbohydrates... big overture, little show :)
Another question about ketosis. Yea I never claimed to be a good teacher ^_^ so let's try again.
We're all familiar with fasting, right? Aka starving to lose weight? How many of us have heard "oh you don't want to do that or your body will go into survival mode!" Or how many of us have been told to avoid "starvation mode" at all costs?
Guess what? Starvation mode = ketosis. Survival mode = ketosis. Ketosis is why people can survive without food for so long. Ketosis is how a starving person stays alive on just water for so long.
There is only one big difference between starving and eating low-carb:
When you are starving, the protein used to make sugar comes from your muscles.
When you eat low-carb, the protein used to make sugar comes from the protein you eat.
Does that help? I can try to go more in depth but I'm reaching the limits of my knowledge here. As far as leaving ketosis...simply eating a lot of carbs will take you out of ketosis.
About the Twistted bar... it's basically the protein bar version of a chocolate covered pretzel sitting on a thin sheet of caramel and peanut-flavored nougat. The 15g protein is kickass. These bars do what they say... I've just learned I prefer pretzles and chocolate to stay separate. If you like chocolate covered pretzels Twisted might be a good match for you. I just don't like the taste all that well.
Wow I wrote another essay. I just don't know when to shut up. It's like 3am here so I need to get a new water bottle and head to bed. Zzzzzz
what little i know about ketosis
Had a question about ketosis. I'll be honest...maintaining ketosis is *hard* unless you live alone. It's especially hard at this time of year. I only managed ketosis maybe 2 days since thanksgiving. I can tell when I'm in it cuz 1. I rarely feel hungry 2. What hunger I do feel is mixed with slight nausea 3. Just a few bites of jerky or sips of my protein shake quell the hunger completely and 4. When I do eat carbs again I'm suddenly ravenous and wanna eat everything in sight.
There are ketosis testing sticks out there, usually sold near the diabetic supplies. They work like pregnancy tests in that you pee on them and check the strip's color. They cost about as much as pregnancy tests too.
The first time I went into ketosis the process had me absolutely miserable. I was nauseated, dizzy, lightheaded, I had gray-outs, and even what felt like hot flashes. I hated it and gave up too soon. But the science i'd read seemed sound, so I kept tryin...and each transition got easier. So if this is gonna be your first trip into ketosis, do it when you can stay home for a few days!
I'm now where the switch is barely felt. There's some carb cravings (which can be hard) nausea and mild headache and I'm in.
How I do it now: 14-20 hour liquid fast (includes time spent sleeping..your body is still burning calories even asleep) then break the fast with something as low-carb as possible. I prefer tuna (0 to less than 1 gram carbs) but have sometimes used an egg.
On day 2 the carbs have to stay below 30grams total. I can eat whatever I want so long as the carb count stays down. I do not count calories or fat, only carbs. I reach ketosis sometime on day 3, usually by lunch but if I lift weights during these 3 day period I can wake up in ketosis on day 3. I should also mention that the liquid used during that liquid fast is my protein powder dissolved in just water (sometimes with a pinch of cinnamon for taste)
Maintaining ketosis is a bitch. Even milk, my fave drink, has carbs. Cheese has carbs. Bread is nothing but carbs. Veggies have carbs. Fortunatly fiber does not count. Total ccarbs - fiber = carbs that your body wil absorb. Starches are carbs. Buh-bye potatoes! And lots of other veggies. Sugar is carb..and a very simple quickly-absorbed carb at that. No candy on this diet. Unless you wanna experiment with fake sugars...I prefer not to. I rarely like them. I was shocked I like that one flavor of atkins bar. I *hate* the sugar-free reeses/hersheys/russel stovers/ etc etc everyone else. I *hate* them! Blech!
You also have to watch the fruits. They have carbs too, usually in the form of natural sugars. Sigh. Did I mention maintaining ketosis was a bitch?
And it sucks when I need to stay in ketosis and mom's making her super yummy stew with meat, yeah, but also potatoes and carrots and egg noodles and it's soooooo yum. Good thing I don't get very hungry in ketosis...ciz I think a ketogenic diet is really fucking boring. I got the protein bars and shakes so I could have some variety. (And to have something quick I could grab and go)
What's more...you gotta maintain ketosis for damn near 2 weeks befoe you see *real* weight loss. Up til then it's mostly water weight. Why? Cuz fat is a fuckton of calories. Carbs are cheap gas, and fats are the super expensive slow-burning high octane stuff. It takes time to burn off a noticable amount. But burn it does.... I can work out while in ketosis. I can't go as fast... but I can still go for a long time. Running makes me dizzy and faint but I can still walk a good 5 miles without a problem. You just have to be willing to work out slowly.
Wow I wrote another damn essay and still didn't get to my intake today. Anyway quick last word..while in ketosis *you*must*eat* here's why.... most of the body is thrilled to run on ketones (what ketosis gets its name from) but some tissues absolutely require glucose. Here's a secret... your body actually makes glucose! Your liver uses fat to power the creation of sugar, and the fat byproducts are the ketones that are used by most of the body as fuel. Fat is your main fuel, and fat is used to turn protein into sugar! Your body can make all the sugar it needss! The body makes sugar by breaking down protein. But your body will only do this if your carb intake is very low (I aim for an absolute max of 40g a day, but lower is always better. The lower, the better!). But if you are not eating protein, then your body has no choice but to break down the protein in your muscles. This is bad! Hearts are muscles. Diaphrams (that thing that runs your lungs) are muscles! Muscle is vital to life! Eat protein! You don't need a lot but you must eat something daily, even if it's just a protein shake! Short fasts are good for you, but when you get to a week or longer... that's starting into danger Will Robinson!
Ok intake...woke up at noon and has a Twisted bar... almost got those damn things gone. Took a 20cal acai energy drink to work (another product I'm trying to finish up..I like the taste but not the texture).
And that was it until I got home from work. Then I fucking feasted on turkey and green beans and chocolate and ofc milk. Yes, Christmas is finally casting its spell on me. I was even happy at work, and I hate retail! I've got my fave Christmas Mannheim Steamroller songs playing right now and I feel high on life. There's even been a dusting of snow outside every morning for almost a week. There were even some moments tonight where I wasn't thinking about the cal counts or my weight. I don't want the new year to come. I love Christmas. It doesn't last long enough.
I think it was Mich who said she also got high on life during Christmas. I remember the cute and funny cartoon, complete with The Snowman. So anyway my intake's gonna be crap... I am just high on Christmas. But I'll still be here, be around.
Maybe I'll just tell silly stories.. or perhaps answer questions? You can see *points upward* that I talk (write) way too damn much to ever really shut up :)
There are ketosis testing sticks out there, usually sold near the diabetic supplies. They work like pregnancy tests in that you pee on them and check the strip's color. They cost about as much as pregnancy tests too.
The first time I went into ketosis the process had me absolutely miserable. I was nauseated, dizzy, lightheaded, I had gray-outs, and even what felt like hot flashes. I hated it and gave up too soon. But the science i'd read seemed sound, so I kept tryin...and each transition got easier. So if this is gonna be your first trip into ketosis, do it when you can stay home for a few days!
I'm now where the switch is barely felt. There's some carb cravings (which can be hard) nausea and mild headache and I'm in.
How I do it now: 14-20 hour liquid fast (includes time spent sleeping..your body is still burning calories even asleep) then break the fast with something as low-carb as possible. I prefer tuna (0 to less than 1 gram carbs) but have sometimes used an egg.
On day 2 the carbs have to stay below 30grams total. I can eat whatever I want so long as the carb count stays down. I do not count calories or fat, only carbs. I reach ketosis sometime on day 3, usually by lunch but if I lift weights during these 3 day period I can wake up in ketosis on day 3. I should also mention that the liquid used during that liquid fast is my protein powder dissolved in just water (sometimes with a pinch of cinnamon for taste)
Maintaining ketosis is a bitch. Even milk, my fave drink, has carbs. Cheese has carbs. Bread is nothing but carbs. Veggies have carbs. Fortunatly fiber does not count. Total ccarbs - fiber = carbs that your body wil absorb. Starches are carbs. Buh-bye potatoes! And lots of other veggies. Sugar is carb..and a very simple quickly-absorbed carb at that. No candy on this diet. Unless you wanna experiment with fake sugars...I prefer not to. I rarely like them. I was shocked I like that one flavor of atkins bar. I *hate* the sugar-free reeses/hersheys/russel stovers/ etc etc everyone else. I *hate* them! Blech!
You also have to watch the fruits. They have carbs too, usually in the form of natural sugars. Sigh. Did I mention maintaining ketosis was a bitch?
And it sucks when I need to stay in ketosis and mom's making her super yummy stew with meat, yeah, but also potatoes and carrots and egg noodles and it's soooooo yum. Good thing I don't get very hungry in ketosis...ciz I think a ketogenic diet is really fucking boring. I got the protein bars and shakes so I could have some variety. (And to have something quick I could grab and go)
What's more...you gotta maintain ketosis for damn near 2 weeks befoe you see *real* weight loss. Up til then it's mostly water weight. Why? Cuz fat is a fuckton of calories. Carbs are cheap gas, and fats are the super expensive slow-burning high octane stuff. It takes time to burn off a noticable amount. But burn it does.... I can work out while in ketosis. I can't go as fast... but I can still go for a long time. Running makes me dizzy and faint but I can still walk a good 5 miles without a problem. You just have to be willing to work out slowly.
Wow I wrote another damn essay and still didn't get to my intake today. Anyway quick last word..while in ketosis *you*must*eat* here's why.... most of the body is thrilled to run on ketones (what ketosis gets its name from) but some tissues absolutely require glucose. Here's a secret... your body actually makes glucose! Your liver uses fat to power the creation of sugar, and the fat byproducts are the ketones that are used by most of the body as fuel. Fat is your main fuel, and fat is used to turn protein into sugar! Your body can make all the sugar it needss! The body makes sugar by breaking down protein. But your body will only do this if your carb intake is very low (I aim for an absolute max of 40g a day, but lower is always better. The lower, the better!). But if you are not eating protein, then your body has no choice but to break down the protein in your muscles. This is bad! Hearts are muscles. Diaphrams (that thing that runs your lungs) are muscles! Muscle is vital to life! Eat protein! You don't need a lot but you must eat something daily, even if it's just a protein shake! Short fasts are good for you, but when you get to a week or longer... that's starting into danger Will Robinson!
Ok intake...woke up at noon and has a Twisted bar... almost got those damn things gone. Took a 20cal acai energy drink to work (another product I'm trying to finish up..I like the taste but not the texture).
And that was it until I got home from work. Then I fucking feasted on turkey and green beans and chocolate and ofc milk. Yes, Christmas is finally casting its spell on me. I was even happy at work, and I hate retail! I've got my fave Christmas Mannheim Steamroller songs playing right now and I feel high on life. There's even been a dusting of snow outside every morning for almost a week. There were even some moments tonight where I wasn't thinking about the cal counts or my weight. I don't want the new year to come. I love Christmas. It doesn't last long enough.
I think it was Mich who said she also got high on life during Christmas. I remember the cute and funny cartoon, complete with The Snowman. So anyway my intake's gonna be crap... I am just high on Christmas. But I'll still be here, be around.
Maybe I'll just tell silly stories.. or perhaps answer questions? You can see *points upward* that I talk (write) way too damn much to ever really shut up :)
Friday, December 10, 2010
Slight binge last night. Ate an entire bag of chex mix. The bold fiesta or whatever that flavor was called. Carbalicious. Calorie chocked. At least it had some iron (surely I'm not still anemic? Period ended a day or so ago!)
And then came chocolate. And then the sugar ccrash. All carbs make me crash, but a sugar crash comes faster and hits a lot harder. Slept in my makeup agaain. Now have 2 pimples to show for it.
And sleeping in makeup also means I fell asleep before I brushed my teeth. Eeeewwwwww.
So my teeth and gums are angry right now too. And ofc the chocolate bingefest had me in the bathroom eariler.
What brought this on? Not enough nutrition? Before I got home from work yesterday my entire intake was a single 140cal protein shake. Which is great for protein but not much vitamins.
I bought a pill crusher yesterday. The PillGlide spray does work but I still hate taking pills. Hopefully I can crush most of them into my shakes or something. Still have to take the omega3 pills by swallowing cuz they're gelcaps. But 1 is better than 4. Why can't a "B complex" pill actually have all 8 B vits? I need a separate folic acid and a separate biotin! Wtf?! At least vit C can come from those Halls Defense drops.
Currently trying to get a Twisted bar down. Yup I *still* am working on that one little box of Twisted food bars I got...I don't remember how long ago. Not a fan of these bars. Not getting them ever again!!
Today is Eat day...tho considering last night's fuckup... I dunno. Gotta keep metabolism from freaking out. Still got cup a soups... can eat an entire box of those without doing much damage and they fill me up.
Acka has a kickass diet plan over on her blog. I'm soooo stealing that idea. Gotta figure out how to adapt it. Can't decide if I wanna stick with calorie cycling (which did work for me) or just lowcarb it (which keeps me from feeling hungry) I wish I could figure out how to do both. I've managed to get into ketosis a few times and I was actually quite comfortable. I just wasn't losing weight. Sigh.
Edit: ma just txt that we have pizza tonight. Pizza on an Eat day...can't remember the last time that happened :)
And tomorrow is roasted turkey..and turkey is keto-friendly. Yay! Hope it actually happens dunno what I'll do about the side dishes tho. But still... yay for this good luck of having Mom's plans actually mesh with mine!
And then came chocolate. And then the sugar ccrash. All carbs make me crash, but a sugar crash comes faster and hits a lot harder. Slept in my makeup agaain. Now have 2 pimples to show for it.
And sleeping in makeup also means I fell asleep before I brushed my teeth. Eeeewwwwww.
So my teeth and gums are angry right now too. And ofc the chocolate bingefest had me in the bathroom eariler.
What brought this on? Not enough nutrition? Before I got home from work yesterday my entire intake was a single 140cal protein shake. Which is great for protein but not much vitamins.
I bought a pill crusher yesterday. The PillGlide spray does work but I still hate taking pills. Hopefully I can crush most of them into my shakes or something. Still have to take the omega3 pills by swallowing cuz they're gelcaps. But 1 is better than 4. Why can't a "B complex" pill actually have all 8 B vits? I need a separate folic acid and a separate biotin! Wtf?! At least vit C can come from those Halls Defense drops.
Currently trying to get a Twisted bar down. Yup I *still* am working on that one little box of Twisted food bars I got...I don't remember how long ago. Not a fan of these bars. Not getting them ever again!!
Today is Eat day...tho considering last night's fuckup... I dunno. Gotta keep metabolism from freaking out. Still got cup a soups... can eat an entire box of those without doing much damage and they fill me up.
Acka has a kickass diet plan over on her blog. I'm soooo stealing that idea. Gotta figure out how to adapt it. Can't decide if I wanna stick with calorie cycling (which did work for me) or just lowcarb it (which keeps me from feeling hungry) I wish I could figure out how to do both. I've managed to get into ketosis a few times and I was actually quite comfortable. I just wasn't losing weight. Sigh.
Edit: ma just txt that we have pizza tonight. Pizza on an Eat day...can't remember the last time that happened :)
And tomorrow is roasted turkey..and turkey is keto-friendly. Yay! Hope it actually happens dunno what I'll do about the side dishes tho. But still... yay for this good luck of having Mom's plans actually mesh with mine!
Thursday, December 9, 2010
Still not much to say. I did start restricting again yesterday. Focused on cutting out sugar. Woke up this morning with less pain. Gina was right, I think. The sugar was making it worse. Still a little stiff. The cold won't help that either. Dinner last night was atkins bar.
Haven't weighed and am afraid to right now.
Depth Perception got her facebook deleted cuz facebook is run by jackasses claiming to be moralists. Ana Regzig had the same happen to her a few times. I won't even bother with an ana facebook account. Facebook just wants control. Only reason my real-name account exists iss to keep in touch with my many far-flung relatives.
Just found out about what's going on with wikileaks. Ooohh wow.
Ok let's do a comparison.
Anyone who wants to fly on an american airline, within USA or to USA or whatever, has to submit to sexual assault by the TSA security teams. It is their job to grope you and do caviity searches and stick their hands down your pants if they don't recognize a tampon string. Rape survivors (and rape-attempt survivvors) will obviously had trouble with a stranger feeling their beasts and genitals. And if you've had any sort of surgery like a hip replacement or anything else which has put metal in your body, expect to be innterrogated and stripped for a good long while.
But we're supposed to be ok with this because innocent people have nothing to hide.
The US government should be just as transparent. They are trying to hide shit frrom We the People. If you're ashamed to let your citizens know what you're up to, then chances are you shouldn't be doing it.
This is bullshit about secrets going up the lines but never down. Cults do that shit. The government has no business making us do anything that it will not do itself.
Too bad I don't know shit about computers. I can only get mad. And never vote republican. Damn repubs are saying wikileaks is a terrorist organisation.
Gotta get ready for work. Go be a slave to The Man.
(Edit: this was my half-awake way of saying Wikileaks Yay. Gov wants to make me tell it everything...then it should havve to tell everything to me. Either we all get to keeps some secrets, or we all be transparent. Same rules for all. Yay wikileaks for trying to keep free speech and a level playing field!)
Haven't weighed and am afraid to right now.
Depth Perception got her facebook deleted cuz facebook is run by jackasses claiming to be moralists. Ana Regzig had the same happen to her a few times. I won't even bother with an ana facebook account. Facebook just wants control. Only reason my real-name account exists iss to keep in touch with my many far-flung relatives.
Just found out about what's going on with wikileaks. Ooohh wow.
Ok let's do a comparison.
Anyone who wants to fly on an american airline, within USA or to USA or whatever, has to submit to sexual assault by the TSA security teams. It is their job to grope you and do caviity searches and stick their hands down your pants if they don't recognize a tampon string. Rape survivors (and rape-attempt survivvors) will obviously had trouble with a stranger feeling their beasts and genitals. And if you've had any sort of surgery like a hip replacement or anything else which has put metal in your body, expect to be innterrogated and stripped for a good long while.
But we're supposed to be ok with this because innocent people have nothing to hide.
The US government should be just as transparent. They are trying to hide shit frrom We the People. If you're ashamed to let your citizens know what you're up to, then chances are you shouldn't be doing it.
This is bullshit about secrets going up the lines but never down. Cults do that shit. The government has no business making us do anything that it will not do itself.
Too bad I don't know shit about computers. I can only get mad. And never vote republican. Damn repubs are saying wikileaks is a terrorist organisation.
Gotta get ready for work. Go be a slave to The Man.
(Edit: this was my half-awake way of saying Wikileaks Yay. Gov wants to make me tell it everything...then it should havve to tell everything to me. Either we all get to keeps some secrets, or we all be transparent. Same rules for all. Yay wikileaks for trying to keep free speech and a level playing field!)
Tuesday, December 7, 2010
I am still here. Very much still here. Just not sure what to say. Can't really defend the way I've been eating. But hey let's talk anyway.
This past Friday I somehow wrenched my back. Every movement hurt. Getting up, lying down, sitting, standing, even just taking a deep breath. I spend all day Sat and most of Sun in my bed trying to avoid making it worse.
And I ate a lot of sugar.
Sugar is definitely a dru. The sweetness was pleasant and helped me forget the pain for a little bit. Then ofc I would move and the pain stab back and I wanted more sugar.
Sunday R dropped by and put my spine back into place. Or as in-place as a twisted scoliosis spine like mine can get. I successfully restricted Monday, but Monday night something wrenched out again. While it wasn't as bad as the weekend, I still had 2 full stength Motrins in me when I went to work today. And ofc it was truck day and ofc the lazy fucktards at the "distribution center" don't give a rat's ass for obeying the 15lb limit. So yea.... I've had a fun few days.
At least I got a food review out of it. I tried a cookie dough flavor Balance bar Monday. And it was pretty good. A wee bit carby at 22g, 17g of which was sugar, but it had 15g protein, at 210cals and had some vitamins added in.
And it tasted pretty good. It was reasonably cookie-dough-like. Mostly soft with lightly crispy bits throughout. And the chocolate coating was sufficiently chocolate-like.
If these go on sale again I will probably pick a few up. I bought them where I work so it's not something I feel a need to stock up on tho.
Ok...motrin time then I'm gonna try to slepp. "Try" being the operative word.
This past Friday I somehow wrenched my back. Every movement hurt. Getting up, lying down, sitting, standing, even just taking a deep breath. I spend all day Sat and most of Sun in my bed trying to avoid making it worse.
And I ate a lot of sugar.
Sugar is definitely a dru. The sweetness was pleasant and helped me forget the pain for a little bit. Then ofc I would move and the pain stab back and I wanted more sugar.
Sunday R dropped by and put my spine back into place. Or as in-place as a twisted scoliosis spine like mine can get. I successfully restricted Monday, but Monday night something wrenched out again. While it wasn't as bad as the weekend, I still had 2 full stength Motrins in me when I went to work today. And ofc it was truck day and ofc the lazy fucktards at the "distribution center" don't give a rat's ass for obeying the 15lb limit. So yea.... I've had a fun few days.
At least I got a food review out of it. I tried a cookie dough flavor Balance bar Monday. And it was pretty good. A wee bit carby at 22g, 17g of which was sugar, but it had 15g protein, at 210cals and had some vitamins added in.
And it tasted pretty good. It was reasonably cookie-dough-like. Mostly soft with lightly crispy bits throughout. And the chocolate coating was sufficiently chocolate-like.
If these go on sale again I will probably pick a few up. I bought them where I work so it's not something I feel a need to stock up on tho.
Ok...motrin time then I'm gonna try to slepp. "Try" being the operative word.
Friday, December 3, 2010
puppy love
Just a lil post with linsk to super-cute pictures for animal lovers :)
Sam's super sweet dog Cadillac is being called a vicuous murderer by an attention whore. I felt sorry for the woman who lost her dog in that dogfight, even tho tiny dogs often are very annoying.
But then the bitch started talking to TMZ and showing a fucking shrine to that tiny dog and is now suing Sam, Empire West as a whole, and the landlord of the complex. Bitch wants over a million dollars and her lawyers are tweeting about it.
Granted this is old new (mid-november) buuuuutt.
But I just now (re-)found these old twitpics of "vicious murderer" Cadillac while Caddy was being watched by a friend while Sam was on business trips. The friend has lil kids and posted these pics of Caddy and kids. And ofc on phone sooo carefully typing them in.
http://twitpic.com/7u6ze
http://twitpic.com/7u75w
http://twitpic.com/7u79z
Please note LeFilthMart's captions. Caddy was very gentle. Caddy was never a cruel dog and this neighbor is just trying to get attention and $$$ bitch!
Sam's super sweet dog Cadillac is being called a vicuous murderer by an attention whore. I felt sorry for the woman who lost her dog in that dogfight, even tho tiny dogs often are very annoying.
But then the bitch started talking to TMZ and showing a fucking shrine to that tiny dog and is now suing Sam, Empire West as a whole, and the landlord of the complex. Bitch wants over a million dollars and her lawyers are tweeting about it.
Granted this is old new (mid-november) buuuuutt.
But I just now (re-)found these old twitpics of "vicious murderer" Cadillac while Caddy was being watched by a friend while Sam was on business trips. The friend has lil kids and posted these pics of Caddy and kids. And ofc on phone sooo carefully typing them in.
http://twitpic.com/7u6ze
http://twitpic.com/7u75w
http://twitpic.com/7u79z
Please note LeFilthMart's captions. Caddy was very gentle. Caddy was never a cruel dog and this neighbor is just trying to get attention and $$$ bitch!
So this is post number 100.
And what do I really want to do?
Have a pissy rant/bitchfit because once again WoW can't start up because the uncle's shit is taking up way too much disk space >:(
I swear...when it was me and mom and my bro we used less than half the hard drive..and that included everything..all our stuff together and the programs operating systems etc.
Then bro got his own computer and took his stuff off ours and it was just me and mom. We used just ofer 1/4 the space.
Now uncle's shit..including pirated movies which has me freaked...and hacker stuff and programmer compilers and other programming stuff (yea he writes programs for a living) and it's taken up all the space. And I'm like why can't he use his laptop?
So still no WoW for me.
He did install what looks like a second hard drive but I guess the drives aren't talking to each other. And WoW likes to keep itself all together in one area.
I can get online...tho am on phone while he tries to free up puter space. Samantha Ronson is now blonde again. I did think she was cute as a blonde the last time sooo I'll wait for some better pics. Turns out he divided the 100Gb drive in half and put documents in one half and the operating systems in the other so if the OS got hijacked by another virus we wouldn't lose our files. Not a bad idea but it does mean that the free space on document side can't be used for WoW.
Turns out WoW is currently taking up some 30 gigs of space. Wish old updates and material could be removed. Oh well. I hear most new computers come with some 300 to 500 GB hard drives.
On the food front...I did wait until after noon to eat. Almost 1pm actually. But I did not low-carb it. Nope...instead I. Had the last 2 slices of that meat-lover's pizza. Sigh. True I am still craving meat and the med student did say a meat craving during monthly bleeding could indicate low iron levels. That sometimes cravings were good and should be followed.
What I really want is a bowl of plain cooked hamburger meat. There was none. Mom did make the spaghetti and I could always be a brat and pick out mostly the meat xD
And now I'm waiting on yet another fucking WoW patch. This is really getting annoying. What's with all the patches? After all this time and all these expansions Blizzard still hasn't figured out how to get it right the first time? Sometimes I do wonder about not playing. The thing is...when the game works it is really fun.
But I am annoyed at the Cateclysm world. Wtf they do to Darnassus? And wtf goblins? Are goblin towns gonna be horde towns now? I dunno...
But can someone find the original Temple of the Moon music? It was so pretty. I want a copy. Any idea how I get it? Wish I wasn't such a computer failure.
And what do I really want to do?
Have a pissy rant/bitchfit because once again WoW can't start up because the uncle's shit is taking up way too much disk space >:(
I swear...when it was me and mom and my bro we used less than half the hard drive..and that included everything..all our stuff together and the programs operating systems etc.
Then bro got his own computer and took his stuff off ours and it was just me and mom. We used just ofer 1/4 the space.
Now uncle's shit..including pirated movies which has me freaked...and hacker stuff and programmer compilers and other programming stuff (yea he writes programs for a living) and it's taken up all the space. And I'm like why can't he use his laptop?
So still no WoW for me.
He did install what looks like a second hard drive but I guess the drives aren't talking to each other. And WoW likes to keep itself all together in one area.
I can get online...tho am on phone while he tries to free up puter space. Samantha Ronson is now blonde again. I did think she was cute as a blonde the last time sooo I'll wait for some better pics. Turns out he divided the 100Gb drive in half and put documents in one half and the operating systems in the other so if the OS got hijacked by another virus we wouldn't lose our files. Not a bad idea but it does mean that the free space on document side can't be used for WoW.
Turns out WoW is currently taking up some 30 gigs of space. Wish old updates and material could be removed. Oh well. I hear most new computers come with some 300 to 500 GB hard drives.
On the food front...I did wait until after noon to eat. Almost 1pm actually. But I did not low-carb it. Nope...instead I. Had the last 2 slices of that meat-lover's pizza. Sigh. True I am still craving meat and the med student did say a meat craving during monthly bleeding could indicate low iron levels. That sometimes cravings were good and should be followed.
What I really want is a bowl of plain cooked hamburger meat. There was none. Mom did make the spaghetti and I could always be a brat and pick out mostly the meat xD
And now I'm waiting on yet another fucking WoW patch. This is really getting annoying. What's with all the patches? After all this time and all these expansions Blizzard still hasn't figured out how to get it right the first time? Sometimes I do wonder about not playing. The thing is...when the game works it is really fun.
But I am annoyed at the Cateclysm world. Wtf they do to Darnassus? And wtf goblins? Are goblin towns gonna be horde towns now? I dunno...
But can someone find the original Temple of the Moon music? It was so pretty. I want a copy. Any idea how I get it? Wish I wasn't such a computer failure.
Thursday, December 2, 2010
Well...success on reaching the 30 hours... feels like I cheated tho cuz I spent most that time sleeping thru cramps with some milk and Motrin in my stomach. Cramping sucks. So I didn't even start feeling hungry til like 11pm. Broke fast at 1:15am with a bit of jerky...which drove my cat bonkers so I put it away and had a power crunch bar instead. Breakfast this morning was the rest of the jerky (after I kicked my cat out of my room..my jerky!) And a bit of milk with another Motrin.
Since then a 15cal greens drink. To be followed by another 15cal greens drink.
Mom's making spaghetti tonight...or so she says. If so I'll be expected to eat a lil at least. I really like being in ketosis...it gets easier each time. So will try to keep portions small (using a small plate can help fool other peep's eyes...as can spreading it out a bit)
Ketosis is nice once your body is used to it. The first time was hell but it gets a bit easier each time. It's nice to have low cal counts and not feel hungry. And my slight headache is actually from the cold. Why does work keep the heat so damn low? I gotta find a way to cover my head while inside.
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9:18pm now....I got home and it wasn't spaghetti...it was worse. Pizza! With cheesy bread! I caved. Piggy McBingey. 3 pizza slices and 4 cheesy breads. Carbalicious. And heath chips ahoy. And chocolate. Gee being fat is fun (body say:no it's not!) Well fuck. Out of ketosis for a good long while now.
Well....I'm not a purger. Just gonna have accept the consequences of this fuck-up. Give myself about an hour and a half to digest and then it's Pilates time. Feet hurt but I got a fair amount of moves that don't require standing.
This is all my fault. I did get hungry @6:30 and it wouldn't fully go away...but I wasn't that damn hungry! My poor overstuffed little body! It's so unhappy right now. Stomach is a hard lump. Too much in there. At least I'm not a pop drinker. I like milk even with pizza...and dairy does keep fat absorption down. So...yea. sigh. Want to buy som control, plz. Anyone have Control for sale?
My shopping today did include some chocolate...damn period cravings.... but yay for getting more safe foods too. Got 2 more Buddy Fruits (the girl who swings my way rung up the sale...she was confused) and I got cans of tuna...no carbs at all if the label is telling the truth :)
So... no more food til noon tomorrow. 14 hours is barely enough for my poor body to work thru tonight's fuckery. If I'm not hungry yet by noon then I'll keep waiting. Then it's back to the low-carbing. If I can behave myself I should be back in ketosis by Saturday afternoon.
Since then a 15cal greens drink. To be followed by another 15cal greens drink.
Mom's making spaghetti tonight...or so she says. If so I'll be expected to eat a lil at least. I really like being in ketosis...it gets easier each time. So will try to keep portions small (using a small plate can help fool other peep's eyes...as can spreading it out a bit)
Ketosis is nice once your body is used to it. The first time was hell but it gets a bit easier each time. It's nice to have low cal counts and not feel hungry. And my slight headache is actually from the cold. Why does work keep the heat so damn low? I gotta find a way to cover my head while inside.
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9:18pm now....I got home and it wasn't spaghetti...it was worse. Pizza! With cheesy bread! I caved. Piggy McBingey. 3 pizza slices and 4 cheesy breads. Carbalicious. And heath chips ahoy. And chocolate. Gee being fat is fun (body say:no it's not!) Well fuck. Out of ketosis for a good long while now.
Well....I'm not a purger. Just gonna have accept the consequences of this fuck-up. Give myself about an hour and a half to digest and then it's Pilates time. Feet hurt but I got a fair amount of moves that don't require standing.
This is all my fault. I did get hungry @6:30 and it wouldn't fully go away...but I wasn't that damn hungry! My poor overstuffed little body! It's so unhappy right now. Stomach is a hard lump. Too much in there. At least I'm not a pop drinker. I like milk even with pizza...and dairy does keep fat absorption down. So...yea. sigh. Want to buy som control, plz. Anyone have Control for sale?
My shopping today did include some chocolate...damn period cravings.... but yay for getting more safe foods too. Got 2 more Buddy Fruits (the girl who swings my way rung up the sale...she was confused) and I got cans of tuna...no carbs at all if the label is telling the truth :)
So... no more food til noon tomorrow. 14 hours is barely enough for my poor body to work thru tonight's fuckery. If I'm not hungry yet by noon then I'll keep waiting. Then it's back to the low-carbing. If I can behave myself I should be back in ketosis by Saturday afternoon.
Wednesday, December 1, 2010
So I turned my phone off before I went to sleep. Cuz it meant no alarm. And I had the weirdest dream.
I was in some sort of compound/commune out in the woods. Men and women both, of varying ages. It was some sort of cult. One of the women there looked like Annette Benning.
Phone use was a privilege that had to be earned by obeying weird cult rules. Somehow i'd snuck my cell in. I had the sensation of being a secret agent sent in to bring the cult leaders down. Once in it was pretty obvious most the members were women and were miserable. Or at least I interacted with women.
And when they did something wrong the cult leader, also female, said Genesis code (numbers I can't remember) and she'd be taken away to isolation or something. The annette benning woman got punished for calling her spouse (male spouse I think) just to let him know she was alive.
I woke up just as i'd plotted the commune on googlemaps thus giving away it's location...and i'd grabbed to leader to make her talk to the feds on the phone. Her commune's landline.
Weird.
Anyway a bit of tmi...I think the period is trying to start. Had a few reddish dots yesterday then nothing. And I'm not skinny enough to lose it so I dunno what's going on. But I told the fam and so they're letting me sleep/be lazy.
Before the pill and some painful-but-needed surgery...my periods made me violently ill. Throwing up, dizziness spells, shaking and pale as death... I could lose 7lbs in a mere 2 days...which of course was all water weight that went back on the next week.
And with body fluid levels going that crazy the electrolytes were often off too. I had heart palpitations.
Yet the fucking *male* gynos didn't think I had a problem. One told me i'd grow out of it and the other said I had endometriosis. He wanted to stuff me full of air and put his tools in me through holes in my stomach. At least the female nurse was able to get me on birth control.
Finally at college I got a good gyno, a female. She agreed that somehow i'd grown too tightly closed. She said it was a rare condition and I was only the 5th girl she'd seen, and she was grandmother when we met. So I got a referral and a female surgeon and posst-op checkup the female surgeon also remarked how odd I was... I had to be very carefully stitched open so it wouldn't "heal" all closed up even tighter! R and I had broken up already (I suffered with this for a loooooong time) band had gone into bff status and he gently took care of me post-op. His gf was pre-med at the time (she's in med school now) and told him I must not be left alone because of that slim chance of bad anesthesia side effects as they wore off...or something. I was just glad to not be alone. My mom always thought I was being silly. She'd had the same problem and had just powered thru it so she expected me to do the same.
On her wedding night...my dad says he thought he'd killed her cuz of how much blood was there.
R at least saw no reason why I should have to power thru that... he really has been my main support for much since I met him...and he was my only support on the surgery issue.
Ofc now that I'm open he sometimes teases that he's up for it if ever I get curious what sex w a guy is like. His gf laughs cuz she knows that I'm just not curious xD sorry R! I wouldn't mind getting lost in her boobies tho *slaps self*
But I was right about my body...post-op I can live without birth control *and* I now have medical proof that I have *never* had endometriosis. That male gyno can fucking suck his own dick!
I do still get tired tho so I'm left alone w no hard feelings :) and I. Will probably sleep more after hitting Post. Even bored with the aria-in-milk I've been slowly working on while typing ...this essay. Lol it turned into an essay!
And the moral of this essay is don't ever feel bad for wanting another doc. Some docs, especially male gynos, tend to have their egos stuck up their asses.
I was in some sort of compound/commune out in the woods. Men and women both, of varying ages. It was some sort of cult. One of the women there looked like Annette Benning.
Phone use was a privilege that had to be earned by obeying weird cult rules. Somehow i'd snuck my cell in. I had the sensation of being a secret agent sent in to bring the cult leaders down. Once in it was pretty obvious most the members were women and were miserable. Or at least I interacted with women.
And when they did something wrong the cult leader, also female, said Genesis code (numbers I can't remember) and she'd be taken away to isolation or something. The annette benning woman got punished for calling her spouse (male spouse I think) just to let him know she was alive.
I woke up just as i'd plotted the commune on googlemaps thus giving away it's location...and i'd grabbed to leader to make her talk to the feds on the phone. Her commune's landline.
Weird.
Anyway a bit of tmi...I think the period is trying to start. Had a few reddish dots yesterday then nothing. And I'm not skinny enough to lose it so I dunno what's going on. But I told the fam and so they're letting me sleep/be lazy.
Before the pill and some painful-but-needed surgery...my periods made me violently ill. Throwing up, dizziness spells, shaking and pale as death... I could lose 7lbs in a mere 2 days...which of course was all water weight that went back on the next week.
And with body fluid levels going that crazy the electrolytes were often off too. I had heart palpitations.
Yet the fucking *male* gynos didn't think I had a problem. One told me i'd grow out of it and the other said I had endometriosis. He wanted to stuff me full of air and put his tools in me through holes in my stomach. At least the female nurse was able to get me on birth control.
Finally at college I got a good gyno, a female. She agreed that somehow i'd grown too tightly closed. She said it was a rare condition and I was only the 5th girl she'd seen, and she was grandmother when we met. So I got a referral and a female surgeon and posst-op checkup the female surgeon also remarked how odd I was... I had to be very carefully stitched open so it wouldn't "heal" all closed up even tighter! R and I had broken up already (I suffered with this for a loooooong time) band had gone into bff status and he gently took care of me post-op. His gf was pre-med at the time (she's in med school now) and told him I must not be left alone because of that slim chance of bad anesthesia side effects as they wore off...or something. I was just glad to not be alone. My mom always thought I was being silly. She'd had the same problem and had just powered thru it so she expected me to do the same.
On her wedding night...my dad says he thought he'd killed her cuz of how much blood was there.
R at least saw no reason why I should have to power thru that... he really has been my main support for much since I met him...and he was my only support on the surgery issue.
Ofc now that I'm open he sometimes teases that he's up for it if ever I get curious what sex w a guy is like. His gf laughs cuz she knows that I'm just not curious xD sorry R! I wouldn't mind getting lost in her boobies tho *slaps self*
But I was right about my body...post-op I can live without birth control *and* I now have medical proof that I have *never* had endometriosis. That male gyno can fucking suck his own dick!
I do still get tired tho so I'm left alone w no hard feelings :) and I. Will probably sleep more after hitting Post. Even bored with the aria-in-milk I've been slowly working on while typing ...this essay. Lol it turned into an essay!
And the moral of this essay is don't ever feel bad for wanting another doc. Some docs, especially male gynos, tend to have their egos stuck up their asses.
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