my poor dog!

yea i'm gonna keep using that pic until it no longer applies.

I did not get my ass to the bank today. Instead i had a continuous argument w Mom over the dear dog. I love that mutt, and i feel sorry for her. She's sick, and because she's kinda old (at least 12, could be as old as 15) Mom is like "maybe it's time to put her down" and I'm all "NO not yet!"

Here's why...
all her symptoms could be explained by a single thing.. something caught in her throat. Her random coughing and choking when she hasn't eaten anything, her difficulty breathing, and her difficulty eating. Unfortunatly this developed while i was working my ass of in retail hell and i was just too tired to notice exactly when she stopped eating her hard food.
She DOES EAT soft food! But in very small amounts. We're talking like 1/4 a can at a time. She drinks a lot of water. She's very weak right now because she was skin and bones by the time i had enough brainpower to see what was happening. I know she needs a vet visit but I'm afraid the stress of the visit will give her a heart attack.
Here's why that bothers me...

i <b>hate</b> the idea of her last experiences on this earth being in a place she doesn't like, being poked with needles. Of being scared.

Why can't vets do house calls?

And i hate the thoughts of just giving up on her. Because she does respond to my attempts to help her. She took in a bit of plain unflavored yogurt yesterday and she always eats a little each time I put some warm canned soft food in front of her.
if she's still trying, then i want to try too!
Yes, she has hip dysplasia.
She's also had that hip issue for the past 4 years and was fine with it.
A few years back she even blew both her back legs. At the same time! She had surgery and recovered and went back to being a happy dog.
So it's not like these hip problems are new.

She still eats, however little, and she is still going to the bathroom.

i don't want to give up on her yet. i just don't.

in other news... dear peri has pointed me to bodyrock.tv and i think i'm going to have to spank her later. This stuff looks hard. But hard workouts are good, right?
Looks like they require computer for viewing tho, but i could probably watch a few times & put notes on my phone.
I have to go to retail hell later today (is like 6am) so i should really sleep so I can try to feed the dog before i go. Mom & i are both sick, but I'm recovering faster, probably due to my relative youth.
Also, i actually bundle up when i go outside. That crazy lady was walking around all day without a hat outside! Then she complained about the cold! DUH!
I've said before that I often doubt her intelligence. She's a sweetheart but in what universe is it smart to go outside in below-freezing weather, <i>while sick</i> and without a hat & gloves, or even buttoning the damn coat!?
i wore hat, gloves, hoodie, and a coat and boots.
I still fell on the ice (ouch!) but i seem mostly ok for now anyway.
I hate winter. Autumn is nice, the leaves smell good to me and it's mildly chilly so I can wear layers, but no ice to slip on.  But i hate winter.

I think I'm gonna low carb it for the winter. The burning-hot side effect might help me feel more comfy in this cold weather. Tho right now there's pizza and lasagna leftovers to eat up. Ugh. Mom's been saying the pizza isn't as good lately. Here's hoping that translates into not bringing pizza home anymore. you can bet i don't buy it!

Soo gotta get back on the get healthier bandwagon. And yea that means weight loss. Dunno if that's triggering or not.. because i want to get down to a <i>healthy</i> weight. I am medically overweight, and might have crossed that line into obese. I've said before that I'm not all that concerned with the numbers on the scale so long as the mirror has something i like.

Yes, that is still my fave pic. i do have others that i very much like but they're buried on my hard drive somewhere and this one was already uploaded & therefore easy to find.

 There's another nice one... Samantha in a dress! I like little surprises like that.