brief rant, found something interesting..and hair blather

I've got a backdated entry I did in my bedroom when Blogger fell while i was on my phone. I'm still having issues with my phone soo.. here i am on the internet computer when I'm not supposed to be.
It was just a long rant i did when i had a bad headache... about the senority bitch who took over cos and she does nothing but ring people out.. so ofc she's all "look at my sales" and thus far the idiot managers in charge are falling for it. Sadly the smart managers have less power. isn't that how it always works? Anyway she's not facing or cleaning the women's bathroom, or the breakroom, or putting away the truck delivery every week. she sure isn't doing resets. Just sales sales sales. Then she threw me under the bus by saying I just stood there. When i have nothing to do I do stand behind my counter so people know I'm available and where to find me. Otherwise I'm doing resets and those other maintenance chores.

The night i typed that entry in a fury i had a splitting stress headache.. i'd been fighting with a hellacious reset for 2 days in a row. The entire shave/deoderant section is being rebuilt. i had to figure out how to uninstall a lockbox and move it, then reinstall it in its new location, after taking it apart further to adjust the doors. A number of shelve were removed and new basket-shelf fixtures were installed instead.
And i did all this by myself.

In short.. i am not happy.
I am trying to turn this unhappiness into motivation to do more creative work... but how well do anger and frustration translate into creativity?

Right now i have a half-finished 3rd comic on my bedroom computer. i wasn't particularly inspired.. I was just following the doodles in my notebook, which were drawn at a happier time.

i also entered a bunch of Allure and Lucky magazine giveaways... for fun? I did the Allure giveaways last year.. I won a cream blush. Heh... in August Allure has a massive giveaway... every weekday in that month. And i won one item.. oh well, better than nothing. To quote an episode of Angel, "Gotta play to win"

To my dear Peri- Yes, Buffy the Vampire Slayer was a cool TV series. Damn cool, I think. The movie sucked though. Damn studio hijacked Joss Whedon's vision in the movie.. he had more freedom on tv.

Meanwhile.. I've been following the art of benign neglect on my hair ^_^
Haven't washed it in almost a week, but i have faithfully put a bit of coconut oil on the bottom and brushed it slowly with a Conair boar bristle brush. I do love my Conair brush... I actually have 3 of them that i cycle through so I always have a clean one. Sometimes my brush is cleaner than my hair. I also have been spraying my Bumble & bumble Tonic lotion on it. Tonic's 2nd ingredient is tea tree oil.(1st ingredient is water ofc) followed by peppermint oil and various other oils and extracts... so B&b Tonic is basically diluted tea tree oil with a few extras. And a bit of amodimethicone waaay down the ingredients list. My hair actually likes the lighter silicones. The ones that have "cyclo" in their names are the best, amodimethicone comes next.. and straight up dimethicone makes my hair very sad, it's too heavy. And my dear Got2be Oilicious hair oil that smells sooo good has full dimethicone in it.. sob! My hair looked good for like the first 2 days i used it.. then got stringy and dark and almost sticky. Sigh. My skin loves dimethicone though, especially my dry legs. So i guess I'll use it up as a skin oil.

I'm reading through the archives of the hair forum and found this: http://www.nytimes.com/2007/09/06/fashion/06locks.html?pagewanted=1&_r=2
Please excuse me for being very pissed off at:
"We hate throwing it away but ultimately we have to clear the place out,” said Greg Taylor, the president and owner of Taylormade. “There is a disparity between the hundreds and hundreds of braids and ponytails and the number of hairpieces we’ve produced.”
Mr. Taylor sells the wigs wholesale to Locks of Love for less than $1,000. Since the charity began in December 1997, it has provided about 2,000 wigs to recipients for free or a reduced price. "

This article was published in 2007. So somehow, in ten f^%$ing years.. only about 2,000 wigs were distributed.

Now go a bit further down and notice that Beautiful Lengths, a Pantene program, distributed 2,000 wigs in the space of one year.
Pantene Beautiful Lengths, started in June last year, [...snip...]distributed 2,000 wigs to women with cancer, said Seth Klugherz, the North American Pantene brand manager.

If Locks of Love hasn't SERIOUSLY fixed how fucked up they are... oh I'm going on the warpath. Why are they complaining that they don't give wigs out? Why are they basically throwing the blame with the whole "But many alopecia sufferers seem unaware that they are the group’s main priority; only about 10 apply for a wig each week, Ms. Coffman said."
Ya know what? It's their job to say "hey! We have wigs for you here! Come get one!"
They have major publicity for getting donations but not for giving the finished product out. Hmph. that's on them.
page 2 also points out how longhairs can even get berated and attacked for growing our hair long for our own enjoyment. That is not cool! And the long-hair interviewed was a forum member... here's the archived thread where she talked about being interviewed.. http://archive.longhaircommunity.com/showthread.php?t=70043&page=2

Anyway.... my other pisspoint about the forum is whenever a heartbroken long-hair cries about a terrible terrible experience with a haircutter.. the other haircutters on the forum play the persecution card "You can't say we're all like that how dare you" and then blame the victim "perhaps you weren't clear enough about what you wanted" blah blah blah.

Some hairdressers are shitheads. Deal with it. And shorn longhairs have a right to complain.

Still... lots of useful stuff there thus far and it would be nice to talk strategy with other longhairs. I can always block the stylists ^_^

Anyway back to my hair... amazingly my head does not itch at all. i chalk that up to the tea tree oil in the B&b Tonic. My ends are silky (coconut oil) and my hair, usually a rat's nest, has been almost tangle-free. It does look different. What's weird is it doesn't look oily, possibly because the oil is evenly distributed. Nor does it make my hands greasy. it looks like I have some sort of shag spray on it all over. Like i put a shag spray on wet hair then went clubbing all night or something. And I can use hairsticks, so long as they are light. My hair still falls out after a few hours but it used to fall out in a few seconds!
you know you're a long-hair when you have your hairtoys sorted according to how clean your hair can be without falling out of the toy! ^_^
unfortunately, my hair also looks much thinner right now. Being squeaky clean, even though it makes my head itch, also makes my hair look thicker.
I'm going to try an experiment. Mom wants to go shopping tomorrow and she hates how my hair looks, but I think I can get it to look decent if i put it in a high bun rather than at the nape of my neck, like I do for work. My work bun just looks gelled back so i know the high bun will too... only i'll try to add a few braids. My hair is really well behaved right now. But there's one more thing i also wanted to try...Tonight I'll do a water wash, meaning a gentle but thorough scalp massage under running water (basically washing w imaginary shampoo) followed by my usual coconut oil and B&b Tonic. i don't think a water wash will do anything bad and if all else fails, I can just put more coconut oil on. But I want to see what a waterwash will do.

I want to avoid washing as long as possible because the hair-stash-busting project is going to start with the stylers. Like mousse and sprays. I kinda like the effects those stylers give me, but after reading the ingredients i don't want the stylers on my bare hair. I figure some oil will act as a shield. I also have some texture pastes, though i'm not as worried about those. if I ever get around to cutting my Pride & Prejudice style bangs, a bit of texture paste might help the curls hold. The pastes don't have anything much worse than a bit of wax and polyquats, and bangs get trimmed much more often so I'm less worried about damage.

At some point I will have to use actual shampoo again, obviously. To remove the stylers if nothing else. And I think amodimethicone might eventually build up on my hair. Many longhairs on that forum swear by "washing" their hair with conditioner. And i have a lot of conditioners and deep conditioners and detanglers and leave-in conditioning sprays.

Wow.. I seriously have a challenge to bust the hair care stash.

Other quick update.. the day 1 and day 3 of the 3day fast were good, but day 2 was a total disaster. The stress from work + Mom wanting pizza = total badness. it was sad. I'm gonna try again with this next 3day work stretch.

Also.. I'm still not using the selftanners after finding ones that worked for me. Since i don't fit into any of my shorts it feels like a waste to faketan. Wich is bad thinking.. cuz doing the selftan keeps me too busy to eat, reminds me of my size (motivation) and helps me remember that some things about my appearance are in my control. there's nothing i can do about how thin my hair is or my tisted spine.... but i can do some things.. so why don't i?

ETA at 5am... http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tNmpzG3BAcM and similar videos on rare genetic issues... I am suddenly feeling a surge of gratitude that a moderate case of scoliosis (double curve w rotation in lower) and bad eyesight are my only issues.
I actually have it pretty damn good.
And Mom is totally going to have to drive for shopping cuz I'm gonna be too sleepy to safely operate a motor vehicle.
Good night.. good morning?