oh hai PMS

Pain and cramping and unending Piggy McBingey were finally explained today as traces of red showed up. Ugh... already? Oh wait... it's been about 25 days so yea I'm kinda due. i swear my cycles are only about 23 to 26 days long. So annoying!

I was 189 still when i woke up today (today meaning feb 28 as it's now 6am on March 1st cuz bad me) which is actually amazing considering all the hormone-urged pigging out i did the past like 3 days running now.

In a sad attempt to keep my mouth away from chocolate, i pulled up the old fashion swagvids... they got some Spring 2013 runway vids now.
And I promptly got really mad at the designers....

armani prive haute couture ready-to-wear spring 2013 in paris i think... holy hell those models are anorexic! i can tell by the very pronounced shoulder bones. fuck you armani for insisting on those poor models being so thin! you refused to hire anyone who wasn't dying!!

Elie Saab models don't look quote so bony. some do, but it still isn't jumping out at me quite as much. still insanely thin but it also looks like some of them could just be really young girls who are doing the whole rapid growth spurt thing where your metabolism really is just that fast. I was once that thin, and after the abusive situations finally went away and i started eating normally.. i was still very thin for a few years. teens to early 20s can be that thin and still be healthy. wish i had enjoyed those years more. Too bad i was so ashamed of my looks and my body back then. i looked pretty good for a twisted spine and glasses and braces. So thin! Pixie like.

Sooooo sad about Alexander McQueen. When he died, his label basically went with him. I would never have worn anything of his anyway, but I could still see a strange beauty in his pieces. Like something a fabulous villain in World of Warcraft would wear.
Now? Now the whole label either copies something vaguely Gaga-esque or tries to be "inspired" by some slightly horror-movie-ish clip. Bees? Flies? Ugh.

Miu Miu has me thinking of overdressed doctors trying to impress. But the "music" sounds like club meets attempt-at-classy-on-mushrooms. I am confused.

Louis Vuitton Spring 2013- Oh look! It's Kerli's Playhouse! and yea this does make me think of Kerli. Very strange but kinda innocent-strange. Also... escalators? On a runway? Where was this set up?
Paco Rabanne spring 2013- clubwear. even club music. and holy crap that model is all bone.
This is the world that poor Ana Regzig works in. is it any wonder she has an eating disorder? i think it's required in fashion. ugh!

Vivienne Westwood-... what.. the .... hell.... i don't get it. in what universe is this "ready to wear"? is this supposed to be a hot mess version of different ethnic groups? Why the black paint on black models and white paint on white models and don't get me started on that HAIR! And damn these girls are bony. Walking skeletons. Oh look... the "designers" who demand stick thin models but are clearly fat themselves. That pisses me off. Designers should be forced to be as small as the models they hire. This is fucking insane. it would take about 8 models to fit in just one pant leg. Maybe if designers had to wear their "designs" we wouldn't have models dying from eating disorders!

Valentino- not bad. Kinda like some of the dresses. the music is kinda pretty, doesn't sound like club crap. The girls don't all look ready to fall over.

Saint Laurent- yet another clubwear look with club soundtrack. i guess "edgy" is in vogue again? or is this guy trying to poke fun at witches and androgyny?

Jean Charles De Castelbajac spring 2013- club music again. and more clubwear, right down to the makeup. Club clothes meets resort? some pieces look interesting, but nothing looks all that comfy or timeless.

is it me or has fashion, at least in some ways, (or maybe it's just some "designers")become just about being disposable? You buy clothes and wear them for a few months and that's that. Where is the "vision" in that? Why would you identify with a collection if it's meant to be thrown away? What happened to the concept of good quality clothes that last for years? Why would anyone want such a disposable way of living?

Chanel- i like the little cropped jacket things, well they look like cropped jackets but maybe they are just visual tricks. I have a little cropped jacket i got from a Fair Trade organization called Gypsy Rose a few years back. I like that look of a cropped jacket over a longer sheath. it seems to minimize my deformities. But what is up with those clear Frizbee hat things?


And I'm bored..... skipping to New York Fashion Week Spring 2013.... where is New York.. I see Milan fashion week vids.. wow Cristiano Burani has some damn bony models too.. didn't Milan ban anyone below 18.5 BMI from being on a catwalk? I see that didn't last long. ... .... ok.... i see more movie sh*t... ok some New York... where is Charlotte Ronson??? I know she presented.... she's not in the swagvids... what the hell? And now London vids? WTF??? I'll have to find her on one of the big fashion sites where everything loads so damn slooowwwwww for me. Crap.

off to browse at sephora.com then cuz I'm broke so of course I want to buy yet more makeup that I totally don't need. Oh hey Charlotte's line has two new sets. Oooo and the sets are of full-sized items. I bought her Perfect Nude set, even tho i've only tried the lipgloss (pretty color, so now i have 2 of her glosses and like both) and now she has a set with yet another gloss that i don't have, and the 3x a Charm luminizer/blush/bronzer thing, plus the usual eyeshadow (tho again one I don't have) and eyeliner (don't have) so yea here I am wanting it. Cuz I totally need it (no i don't)
The other set has her cream bronzer, which i have & love, and her Closer powder (also have & love) and the hair spray I tried and was  mostly in love with cuz it did give my hair such good texture. But the nice beachy smell in the bottle turned weird & old-lady-flowery on me. Which is weird, because the matching rollerball fragrance worked great on me when i tried it in store. It smelled like my old childhood beach visits, one of my few happy memories being with Mom and Bro and mom's friend (who was like a crazy loveable aunt to us) on a beach on a big lake and the rollerball was all sunscreen and salt water and happy associations. So i dunno why the hair spray doesn't smell right on me.
And i'm thinking of getting that set too. i know i'll like 3 of the 4 items for sure so... i dunno.
Gah! Bad Honor! I AM POOR I NEED TO STOP DOING THIS!

I need to go to bed!