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Guess what started last Monday?
Fucking womanlies!!!
And it was HEAVY.

I managed to get the "special pants" on.. then crashed all frigging day Monday ..... and Tuesday -_-

Was awake enough to drink some water, have a bit of chocolate or jerky, pee, and then more crashing.

Got up and finally went downstairs and Mom says "Wow, you're alive!"

I had no clue it was 2am on Weds morning.

Feck.

Bled all over the damn place too.

Good thing I had those pants on... went thru the pants, stained my sheets, when i sat on my desk chair for a second to change the music... got on the chair too.

Beyond annoying. Sheets can be bleached but what the fuck am i supposed to do about the off-white cloth covering the chair? (It was white, back when i was in 5th grade... more a gray now.. with a yucky brownish spot where i tried soo hard to blot the mess up.)

And then i still had to go right back to work on Thurs... I worked Thanksgiving... and i worked a full shift Fri (my birthday) and then had a fucking TEN HOUR SHIFT on Sat and then worked again yesterday (Sun) so i've been either working or eating or sleeping.

So i failed yet another class, cuz i fail. And exams are coming fast. Like the 2nd week of Dec.

And my car is fecked. Check Engine light is coming on for ME now... after about half an hour of driving. No idea what's up. I don't have money. Temperature gauge is sometimes going just over the halfway mark but is that really the cause?
At least it doesn't come on right away? So i can still drive to and from work instead of risking my life by walking over the busiest street in my area and where pedestrians apparently do not get Right of Way.

But even if it doesn't come on right away... isn't it bad that it comes on at all?
I'm wondering how high a car's temp gauge should go. Is it getting hot when it goes over the halfway mark? Not saying the temp causes it.. just that's what I'd noticed last time it happened. Since i rarely drive for longer than 10 mins at a time, the Engine Light hasn't come on since Thurs.
But how the hell could an engine overheat in this cold weather? That can't be it.

I don't know but I'm not happy. The glorious Internet says Autozone has a machine that can read the "Error code"  and give me some idea what's wrong. Maybe then I'll decide if I need to take it in ASAP or i can limp along til i get some more money (hah fucking hah)

And ofc since i'm broke I bought myself some birthday presents. JCPenney had the Ronson sweaterdress i want for half off... tho they didn't have the gray one, just the brown. So my second dress (so I could get free shipping) was a pretty sleeveless silver/black deal that was the same size, and also the I <3 Ronson line.
then i hit Sephora and got Charlotte's "Masquerade Set" (2 mini-lipsticks and an eyeshadow palette and a bag) and the Bumble and bumble hair tonic spray.
And since it was my birthday Sephora threw in a 6oz Philosophy body wash for free. Which was why i wanted to order that day. Also getting a lil 1oz Bb thickening hairspray. Getting quite a few freebies actually. ^_^

And i also got the Amazon mp3 version of Samantha's new album for myself. She promised on her twitter that an actual CD would be available soon but I'm impatient. Altho I'll probably get the CD too eventually..  considering how much $$ I've thrown at Charlotte for her stuff... i can throw $20 at Samantha.

I like it. It's a more complicated work than her earlier songs, and she gives a lot of variety and a lot of layering. Her voice is a little more autotuned in some than in others, which annoys me a little because I like her voice, but it does fit in with the songs. Each song is different.

And I know she's gonna be crucified for it too. All the insane lilo-stans are already all "this is about lindsayyyyy!!!!"  And ofc those same stans totally overlook blohan using Samantha for a number of things.
But anyway... Samantha's debut album Red (never fully released) was damn near all about her ex-boyfriend Happy Massee.
And can anyone name me a single artist who writes a love song who was NOT inspired by an actual relationship?

Right then... had to get that out ^_^

Chasing the Reds is the title of the album and of the first song. Samantha describes her style as "kinda poppy rock" and this one does show that. Her voice is very electronic in this song and it seems to be more a club song. It's a fun one.

Tuesdays- the opening actually made me think of the old Sonic games for a second. Her voice is less electronic here, and sometimes i think i hear her voice clearly. And these lyrics, the ones i can hear anyway... this is where someone might wonder... "I'm falling into what i don't exactly know." "I won't let myself believe that I'm not what you need." "I know I drink more than I should. I know I lied but for your own good."  "We both know you don't believe I'm not what you need." "But I'm just who you need"
The bounciness of this song seems to belie the hint of heavy meaning here.
Damn thing is.. if this is about what some people think.... she's probably right. Samantha was the one person willing to stand up to lindsay's spoiled entitled princess act. Samantha was willing to put her foot down, and yea blohan did need that. And we all see how it ended. Some people just don't want help. At least Samantha tried. She tried hard.

Skyscrapers- this is the one Samantha did with her brother Mark, and as soon as i learned that the very different style made total sense. Mark's style is all over this, but doesn't completely take over. It's a very interesting blend of their two styles. My hunch though is that the lyrics are mostly hers. Mark can blend disparate sounds well, but Samantha seems to be better with words. She's the poet.
This is another fun one, I think. She even raps for just a tiny bit, and it's actually kinda cute. Her voice is softer and more girlie than you'd expect. She's also speaking clearly, doesn't do the exaggerated breath thing that i hate so much.
i remember when she appeared on Mark's radio show way back when they were first floating this song, and she actually said, when she learned he was gonna preview Skyscrapers she said "hope it's not the part where I'm rapping" and he laughed and made no promises. And as he went for a break she quipped about how hearts get broken on his show.

Summer of Sam- I have no idea of the story behind this one.... i do have vague memories of Courtney Love saying a song of hers wasn't about Samantha. Anyway this is a fun one too, and it features some dude named Wale (sorry, i live in a cave and have no clue about this guy) and he does the sort of rap that i hate, that exaggerated breathing and spitting the words, slurring consonants and often dropping letters off all together.
She also goes a bit higher than normal here. Nice to hear a soprano actually using her range. Her voice is layered over itself, sometimes autotuned and sometimes not. So other than the rap, this is a fun one.

Love Song- Samantha got to work with her idol, Slash, (yes, THAT Slash.) for this one. This is the most different song on her album, being a simple solo with soft piano/guitar accompaniment, with a guitar solo at the end. This is a sad one.

Sometimes When You Win, You Lose-  The clublike start here really belies the seriousness of the lyrics. "We don't change, the fights, all the same, we're both to blame" The song as a whole i think is superbly structured.  The strong beat makes it seem like a dance number, and if you ignore the lyrics, it could be a dance beat. There is progression and she loves her vocal harmonies. I even hear what sounds like a small orchestra at times, but it's probably a synthesizer. But the spots where the song suddenly goes a bit minimalist gives a poetry to it, like she's telling a story. maybe it's her pain, and when she first started to find herself and to come back from the brink.
I also like how I can understand her here even though at times she does the weird breathy thing in the middle of a word.
"We hold on to our last chance, pretending we can make it last."
"I just wanted to find some peace with you. You needed the noise as proof and we started this war on the same side and now I feel like I'm a hostage in the room. But I'm just trying to find a way out alive. Breathe in, breathe out. I don't want to fight. There's no prize to choose. Sometimes when you win, you lose."
Working her emotions out. And the ending is soo smooth, seems like it's intended to connect directly to....

Promise- this song makes me SOB. I hope i never know the kind of pain that inspired this. Cuz damn this is a sad one. i think it's the most powerful one on her album. it does make me think of someone in love with an addict. I'm lucky that i've never known that pain, i've only seen it from a distance.  And frankly, when an addict just fucking doesn't care and doesn't want help and doesn't want to change... there is nothing to do but walk away, no matter how much that hurts. It's like the addict becomes a vampire.. everything that person once was is gone but the body is still walking around wanting drugs. A demon wearing your lover's face.
"i saw a picture today when you were someone i knew, someone i thought that I'd know forever."
"i thought i saw you today, heard your voice, but the face, the face melted into a stranger's"
As fast as i smiled did the tears fill my eyes, cuz i know i'll never know you again."

i don't think Promise was ever performed live. I'm not surprised... i cry just hearing it. Imagine actually knowing what inspired it and feeling it at that level?

Until It's Yesterday-  this is a gentle, sad, pretty song that also stands out because she has some kids singing the chorus with her. Reminds me of Toy Soldiers a little bit. it also sounds kinda simple at first. i didn't realize how many layers of sound she had until i started to break it down to adapt for my viola. I'm not good enough. I want to hug her when i hear this one. "i won't sleep, no, i won't dream until it's yesterday"
Promise is the most powerful one, but i actually think this is the prettiest. It's my fave.

Half Awake (Meltdown)- how can anyone be just half awake when this loud guitar-filled auditory concoction is playing? Ok ok.. I'm still focusing on hearing the lyrics, it seems to be her 1984 type song. "Follow a leader we can't see, left, right, left, right." Anyway it's a fast song. Good workout song ^_^

Don't Want You- umm.. wow this totally makes me think of sex. yea.. we're skipping this one. i have enough issues about sexual thoughts, especially concerning the Littlest Ronson ^_^

Captain Jack- I have no clue what the hell this one's about. it's interesting to me just for that reason. her voice is very computerized here. it's an interesting song. It's also kinda sad.
i'll call you Captain Jack
and leave you anonymous
as i found you out tonight, out to forget
the man you almost were."

Perhaps someone less naive than me would like to chime in?

Anyway... I gotta go sleep. Gonna actually show up at that failed class... and then i go right back to work. Fuck retail
And then maybe start playing with youtube videos. Dunno...
It would keep my fat hands out of the candy, I think....

Slept in my makeup last night....and it survived. Some came off on my oil blotting papers this time but eh, don't care. Pat a little more on and go cuz I overslept thru church and I work in 10 mins.
Later....
Ok it's later. Am at work now. I forgot blush so I look pale as death. This foundation does match my neck tho.... just when the red shows thru it looks weird. Damn it must find my creme.
Anyway the thanksgiving/black Friday salspaper is in my hands and a makeup kit from a brand I've never tried (profusion) is going 60% off in that sale. Thinking I'll put one aside for myself. Just one kit in all the kits. Even tho I looked at all the makeup I had last night and I got soooo much. It's a brand I've nevver tried! And it's a combo kit...has lip and eye and blush and even some nailpolish. And I'm sooooooo curious!. $6 for like 30 eyeshadows and 6 lipglosses and 4 blushes... and I'm curious!

Someone tell me to get going on my class? Please?
Tell me I don't need to be scared?
That guilt spiral Hyperbole talked about...where she's afraid of emailing someone back cuz then she'll just remind them about their email, so they see how long she took to respond and then they get disappointed in her.....
Yea that's where I am.
In addition to fear of graduation.
Wonder if my school still has free counseling for students?

Tell me no one will care if I reappear in class?

2pm and I want candy. Chocolate. Badly. The chocolate up in the do-not-touch cupboard is calling me. "Eaaaattt uuussss!"
Grrrrr.
Still failing..... cal counts still to high. All I can really claim is that I'm trying. I dig into cereal instead of chocolate. Hard candies instead of soft ones, hard candies take longer to eat. I actually had a Go Greens drink yesterday...but I also added some honey and cinnamon to it. My sweet tooth is demanding constant attention. It's like sugar is a drug. And I'm just trying to go the lesser of the evil sugar roads here.
I go work at 4 and not much to do til then... don't binge again....
Avoiding the only class still...doing the guilt spiral thing Hyperbole described in her "this is why I'll never be an adult" post.
Ok...distraction. I've already eaten too much today...even had 4 iced sugar cookies. Ok what makeup experiment do I wear to work? Sunblock on..ran out of Day Solution so my current sunscreen is Banana Boat sport spf50. A thin layer of mk mattifier (use it up) then let's finally use up this one liquid foundation sample. Turns out i'd also put the liquid on too thick that one day. The little sample says "one application" but apparently it holds more than one. K dot a lil on the red nose and let dry...then try another all over face resulting in 2 layers on my jolly red nose. Think I'll skip the colored powder, gotta make doubly sure the problem was the powder. Markwins eyeliner..they actually are decent eyeliners, for cheap drugstore shit. Maarkwins makes wet & wild and I hate the name but their eyeliners are soft and 99 cents where I live. I don't like their lip stuff tho. They make decent eyeshadows too, but I don't like their foundations or mascaras. Or their cream blushes. So I guess they do powders and pencils well ^_^.
Also got a cheapass eyeshadow a relative got me...I think itss actually from the dollar store. It's....kinda crappy...decent pigment at first but fades fast and makes my eyes itch after a few hours. I usually put marykay's eye primer under it. Still fades but doesn't itch as fast. Old tinted lipbalm for both blush and lips... and the all-nighter spray...just for fun... and cuz I want to practice aiming with my eyes closed ^_^ it's hard.

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And i forgot to hit Post earlier... again. am now home at 4am on sunday morning... Work on sat night is soooo damn busy. I hope i get a saturday off sometime soon. I never get up for church sunday mornings when i get home late and need calm-down time. And then go "ooh shiny" on the internet.

I still fail... avoided binging before work... but even at work i was fail. The visiting manager got hungry and wanted pizza so he shared. Made us all happy.
Then I get home and Mom ordered pizza too.
So I've had about 5 slices of pizza all told... and 8 sugar cookies. And milk.

I fail.
So since I fail... let's be distracted by the cute pics at this story:
http://www.dailymail.co.uk/usshowbiz/article-2063044/Samantha-Ronson-plays-happy-families-new-girlfriend-Erin-Foster.html

Ofc you know I gotta save these pics... so cuuuuute.....and probably post my faves here, but I'm too tired to do that right now.
wow... too tired to go awwww over such cuteness. I need sleep.
I am annoyed at how daily mail just HAD to talk about lilo in there. Samantha is with Erin now, damn it! Stop bringing up the crazy ex who staged teddybear pics and broke Samantha's windows!
And i should go to bed, or at least turn off the lights.
My phone died the other day.... and the very nice tech lady was on the phone w me for half an hour walking me thru how to get it working again.

Oh... makeup still fully in place... except for lips ofc. Once again the oil was squeezing through the liquid makeup but not taking the makeup off. And my forehead didn't turn funny colors so yea.. that fuckup was either just the powder, or a combo of the powder and too much liquid foundation. I was applying it like a creme. oops.
Still not sure this is my right foundation color though. It makes me look so pale... but it also matches my neck! Maybe it only seems off because my radishy skin peeks through. Liquid isn't as opaque as creme-to-powder.
I really need to find my creme-to-powder and test with that. Seriously.
Night ^_^

update & boring stuff

I was good and went to class yesterday. Trying to psych myself up to log in to the class website before the next class...tomorrow (technically today, is nov 17 now where I am)

Today (meaning nov 16) I took R's girl out driving again. And once again the Check Engine light turned on and stayed on after about 30 mins. So we stopped & turned car off for a few minutes, then since I wondered if shifting back and forth (practicing manuverability) was doing it...
So I actually took her out on the roads a bit. Yup she drove the road. There was some major roads between the parking lot and the neighborhood, the idea was she did not go into reverse at all.
And Check Engine light can on again after about 20mins.
Pull over, popped hood, checked oil, all good.
.I take over driving.
Go to mall, few turns in parking lot, stops and starts and tight turns getting around in there...
No Check Engine light.
I drive her to her place...all good. I drive myself home and still all good.
I am at a loss.
What the hell is going on?
Does my car just not like her?
There was one thing...... sometimes when she hit the brake the gearshift shuddered and clicked into place...so maybe she wasn't always fully in gear?

Also did another makeup practice. I got a lot of marykay samples I want to use up, and also full size products.
I think my oil mattifiers got old or something. I used the usual mk matttifier, the same liquid foundation from last time, and an mk pressed powder sample (instead of Closer) and the all-nighter setting spray.
Well something went wrong cuz within 2 hours my face, esp forehead and nose, looked like someone had swiped multicolored wet sand across my face. Wtf?
I rubbed the worst of it off on a napkin in my car, and later made a beeline to sephora for a sample of urban decay's oil control primer. (Also found Mom's Christmas present...at dillards. Seems only they carry 5th Avenue. Oh well....it's been years since I got Mom anything and it's definitely the only present she's getting from me.) Since I like their all-nighter spray...
Hmmm... I just now buffed a too-dark powder on to check my application methods. Looks smooth. Looks like a sunburn on me ^_^
But it was buffed onto mostly-bare skin. Hmm...wow the oil is peeking thru already..
Well I'll keep playing. It helps keep my hands out of food. Binging still bad but getting better. My cal count today was actually on the high end of "normal human adult" range. Rather than superbinge range. Still not where I want to be but getting there.
And when you sign up to sell marykay you get a "starter kit" full of full-size liquid foundations in several shades. So just like you'd use a tinted self-tanner I can check my technique by using a darker color. I have enough of them. Paint on..wash off.. paint on...wash off...
Can't stuff face while painting face ^_^

Eta: recreated the problem.. the colored powder reacted to the oil & darkened. Well duh. Right?

i fail.. so gaze at these instead

I fail... Piggy McBingey out full force and i have no idea why nor do i seem able to stop. I fail. I have reached a new high, did i mention i fail?

I'm slacking off on my class too, sabotaging myself yet again..

I am afraid of graduating. It's like... if I get the damn degree.. well then what? It's like great things are expected of a college degree holder... and I'm scared of that... that I'll fail yet again at getting a "real job" with said degree.
And what will I aim for if I graduate?
How will I define myself if "college student" no longer applies?

And what of the socializing I do there? My social circle is small, and is either work or school peeps.
And once someone leaves school I seriously do not see them again! The bi girl I'm crushing on is the one exception thus far.
It's depressing.
I'm isolated enough as it is!

How will i define myself?

So I'm lost, and scared, and I'm sabotaging myself yet again because I don't want to "grow up"

Unfortunatly.. I still age. Getting older and growing up aren't the same.

So since i fail...
dietwise... here's a link to some awesome tips by Ana Regzig
She rocks.

And since I'm also broke.. I asked Depth Perfection about the ads on her blog. I do sometimes think about putting a few ads up, see if it helps pay the electricity, and she said that thus far Google hasn't come after her for her blog's content.  But my humble blog, which is nearing 300 posts, only has about 8000 total views and has existed for what.. a year? 8000 views for 300 posts and a year old? Sounds like ads would be silly at this point. Maybe later? Either way i'll keep Hyberbole's rules in mind.. especially about no popups ever.
( http://hyperboleandahalf.blogspot.com/2010/04/someone-should-probably-kill-this-post.html)

and since i want to see something pretty when I'm feeling sad and fail and broke and scared and fat and ugly...

Here's the first Ronster pic I ever found, tho technically they have never confirmed that they're dating.. I can tell cuz i'm nosy *glares at self*...anyway.... Erin is in the middle, I'm sure we all recognize Samantha by now ^_^.. and I'm not sure who the girl on the left is... but she looks familiar.
I should probably know who she is.. ooops.

this next one is cute....

Well at least Samantha is keeping her hands in mostly-G-rated areas here ^_^
I'm betting this pic was mostly taken cuz that's Nicole Richie in the yellow thing kneeling in the middle of the pic.. it's almost like Sam was not even noticed... except by nosy peeps like me... *glares at self again for being nosy*

Here's one from a DJ gig.. in Vegas I think..anyway the casino/whatever she DJ'ed decided to give her a cake.
Fun little sidenote, around the same time Erin made a snarky tweet about feeling left out because of her lack of implants.
Heee..well I think it's obvious Samantha prefers them natural.

This was their first time publicly holding hands, when they knew there were cameras. Unless I missed one?
Anyway this is at the launch party for Charlotte's makeup line at Sephora. Erin's birthday was either on the same day or very close to it.. sooo there was this ^_^
Samantha and Erin actually weren't seated next to each other, as Samantha was at the head table. But she moved for Erin blowing out her candle.
She also led the room in singing Happy Birthday awww ^_^
Also.. Nicole Richie is old-time friends with the Ronson twins. Charlotte even named an eyeshadow palette after Nicole. 

  

And one more.. of Sam trying to get the hell outta the pap frenzy.. I think they were just picking up coffees in this set. They were in Malibu over July 4th weekend at Erin's father's place.
Erin loooves her Starbucks.
Samantha doesn't like coffee. She's a tea drinker, seems to prefer iced tea, at least that's what her drinks tend to look like.
I love the little sneakers on her rearview mirror.


Ok..... I still fail. I still suck and I have a class tomorrow that I am NOT prepared for, and i skipped all last week.
Did I mention i fail?

But these girls are pretty....

Gonna edit before bed (or do new post) but initial impressions are....
Charlotte Ronson A Perfect Mess hair styling spray: I'm like 70% in love with this.... it does give my hair a glorious messy beach windblown effect with volume and yet also adds shine. I have never found a spray before that actually made my babyfine hair look thicker. I really want to love this...
But...
The SMELL is just... it's like Coppertone meet violents & aspercreme!!
Well I'll see how it smells & looks a good 6 or 7 hours from now. See if the volume stays.. if the smell fades. Cuz ugh that smell....

Also taking the Urban Decay setting spray out for a spin. I brushed on a marykay foundation sample I had lying around so the UD spray had something to set ^_^
Did not put usual oil mattifier on as the marykay foundation is made for oily skin and supposedly shouldn't need one. We'll see.... we'll also see if the UD spray helps oil. But I won't blame the spray if my forehead goes greasebucket. I'm sure there's a reason Urban Decay has oily skin sprays separate. Might get annoyed at the foundation tho. It says matte-wear foundation.

UD spray doesn't have much a smell to it. The spray gives a fine mist most of the time but it can spray a limp drippy stream on occasion so spray once or twice into the sink to make sure the sprayer is likely to behave. Also..I did not put mascara on and my "eyeshadow" is Charlotte's summer kiss liquid bronzer from my sample. Blush is an old revlon, and possibly a bit too pink.
Also... the spray gives a slight dewey sheen once it dries. Some like this, I prefer matte, so I followed the spray with a very light brushing of Charlotte's Closer powder. The marykay foundation might be a bit too light but other than that I'm happy with how I look right now.
We'll see how it all holds up!

I am 100% happy with Ronson's Samantha gloss tho. I can actually taste the mint and it is moisturizing and thus far my hair has yet to stick to my lips (big yay) and the Samantha color is practically perfect (oh hai Mary Poppins) on me. Pinky and sheer and very natural, like a neutral almost. Like my real lips punched up a bit.
Omw to daddie dearest's for stepmom's surprise bday party. I may hold a quiet grudge against daddie dearest but the half-sibs are innocent and besides.... that half of the family could be a useful connection for me.... I just have to play nice. *gag* I can do this.

And yea...I know the wrist is different from the lips but on me the wrist is a good indicator of how something will last on my mouth. And inside my upper arm is good for reaction tests. If it itches there it will definitely turn my face red. I promise there's a method to my madness ^_^

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Ok now 10:30 at night... only 5 hours after application....
Hair spray...the smell did eventually fade. Finally! The visual lift stayed put. But my hair did get brushed out so the beachy curl was gone but the lift and texture "grip" stayed. Hair looked airy, if that makes sense. It was also really windblown by the crazy weather here. Pretty shine.
Still on fence about buying it.... but it does let me wear my hair down, which is nice. Somehow I have very few tangles too. Hair is a bit frizzy but it looks deliberatly frizzy.. if that makes sense.
Still not fond of the smell.

UD setting spray.... all makeup except for gloss is still there. But oil is definetly pushing through. That's not the spray's fault. I'm kinda impressed the makeup hasn't slid down the oil already. Nice job, Urban Decay.
I can scratch a bit of foundation off in the really oily parts. And no makeup on my nosepieces either. Usually I get foundation all over my glasses in the nosepads. This time there is some oil but no foundation. There are some bare skin spots where I kept scratching my nose.
I'm thinking this foundation is not for me. The blush did fade a bit but still there.
Oh well I own the spray anyway....will be trying it w my creme-to-powder later. And maybe I should not put powder over it? And def put mattifier under it?
Eehhh.... I am happy with the spray. It did make the liquid foundation last longer...usually liquid is melting & sliding off or pilling on just 2 or 3 hours... it's why I use creme foundation or just don't bother. Oh...and I didn't shake it well beforehand oooops I missed that part. So I will definitely continue my experiments cuz I didn't even give the spray a chance to show off!

Maybelline lipstain......doesn't stain much.
A lady returned maybelline lipstain in plum flushed cuz she didn't like it.
So since it was gonna get tossed anyway, I put a small swipt on my wrist by thumb.
It vanished under a bit of water. I just rinsedthe spot to test it.
Second tril I drew a small bunch of grapes on side of my wrist, going over the spot a few times, layering the stain. 10 mins later I just rubbed the spot. About half of it vanished just from rubbing. Put under running water & gently rubbed with paper towl... and it's gone now. I can kinda see the ghost of a spot.
So I'm thinking this stain would not last thru kissing or eating and certainly not thru wiping a napkin avfter eating.
So why does this matter?
Cuz I really thought the point of a lipstain was that it STAINED the lips and had to be taken off w makeup remover at the end of the day.
My cover girl outlast is harder to take off than this "lipstain" so yea.
Just a product review from a makeup junkie. Also...I'm still at work so I should probly go now.
My 1st sephora order is on track to arrive late tomorrow. So excited! And the 2nd will be here by fri I think. Yay!
Ofc gotta wonder how I'm supposed to do the mary kay thing if I use sephora makeup. Heh bad salesgirl :p
But marykay doesn't have all the colors I like...they're good products. Just...want my colors...
Still sticking w/ marykay skincare tho... now I'm back on it in just 3 days had vast improvement..porcelain skin and from 6 pimples to 3, and one of them is a clusterpimple w twin yellow heads. Cuz I went a week without fully washing my face right. My bad. The other 2 are already fading. This stuff works, I'm just lazy.
Should probably get back to work now :p ^_^

Gah! More shopping! Someone slap me!
Clearly I cannot be trusted on the damn computer. I shop instead of catching up on schoolwork fuck fuck.
Got another sephora bunch coming. This time I got Charlotte's bronzer, which I do like..and a lovely lilac perfume that I tried in-store and liked. A silver headband (whyyyy did I need that?)
And the reason for placing the order?
A sephora brand all-in-one makeup palette that had gone half-off.
For $7 I'm getting 8 teeny eyeshadows, 8 teeny lipglosses and a blush and a bronzer. Nevermind that I don't need them. I wanted to try sephora's brand of makeup and this thing looked so cuuuute. Who cares it the shadows etc are so tiny that my shirt buttons are bigger?
Sigh.
I have a weakness for cute tiny things.
I was even looking at a ltd ed clinique thing with 6 teeny weeny lip colors and a wristlet and keychain. 2 teeny lipsticks that probably don't even twist up..and 2 styles of teeny glosses...bad bad me... but I did refrain from buying it...for now anyway.
Now I go to bed before I get in anymore trouble.
And to hide the damn reeses chips ahoy mom bought tonight. They're unopened and taunting me. Maybe fighting that temptation is what blew my shopaholic problem.
And ofc I got freebies... various fragrances again. I do like to play with fragrance. Smells affect my mood so yea..... it's like a drug ^_^
Dammit! Bed before I make a thinkgeek order! I keep thinking how I should get that loud alarm that shakes the bed since I keep sleeping thru my current alarms.
Sigh.

shopping post- makeup musings

Confession time.. last night I made the sephora order.. even tho i'd also dropped $7 for half-off halloween candy at work.
I ordered the Closer powder, a sifter jar, the Samantha lipgloss, and the Urban Decay All-Nighter setting spray. For my freebies i requested 3 teeny perfume samples (versace pour homme edt, kate walsh boyfriend, lolita lempicka si lolita) and a "deluxe sample" of YSL cleansing water .. this thing:  http://sephora.com/browse/product.jhtml?id=P295204

I don't even know what a "deluxe sample" is but once it arrives you KNOW i'm gonna do a shopaholic post.

and while bopping around, i jumped over to beauty.com only to find that it was being more honest now and using the drugstore.com address, because it is really part of drugstore.com.

Anyway.. anyone who thinks drugstores are cheaper.. guess again! I looked up a few gift sets on sephora.com and drugstore.com/beauty and guess what? The prices are identical. Seems the price is set by the manufacturer or something.  
I offer some proof:
Urban Decay's Book of Shadows IV eyeshadow set... $64 in both places
http://sephora.com/browse/product.jhtml?id=P295205

http://www.drugstore.com/urban-decay-book-of-shadows-iv/qxp376409?catid=25362

The Urban Decay setting spray i bought.... here's the one i ordered from Sephora (I got the 4oz version, once you see the prices vs ounces you'll see why)
http://sephora.com/browse/product.jhtml?id=P263504

http://www.drugstore.com/urban-decay-all-nighter-long-lasting-makeup-setting-spray/qxp266350?catid=172533

Stila Dream In Full Color holiday palette: $39 both places

http://sephora.com/browse/product.jhtml?id=P295202

http://www.drugstore.com/stila-holiday-dream-in-full-color-palette-366-value-dollars/qxp362322?catid=25362

Same price..... so why would you go to a drugstore to get a dept store product? you're not actually getting a price break.
And actually i'm starting to wonder why a dept store product is even showing up in drugstore places. Remember how some "salon-only" shampoo people get all fussy and their ads say "only in salons" even tho you see the bottles in drugstore and big-chain grocery store shelves? (looking at you, Paul Mitchell and all your fussiness)
What the hell is this "gray market" I'm hearing about?

But anyway.. my point is there is no price break, so just go to Sephora cuz they got better freebies and a better customer loyalty system. it's called Beauty Insider and you can get full-sizes for free every so often. You get 1 Beauty Point for every dollar you spend, (excluding tax, shipping and gift cards) and you just accumulate points. And once you get enough points you can redeem these Beauty Points whenever you want tho the choices you have can be limited. But they carry over from what i read. And the carry-over is what I want to point out.
you also get a present on your birthday, tho i think they choose the present for you.
their info: http://sephora.com/beautyinsider/index.jhtml

drugstore.com does have it's own system, and they call it drugstore dollars and you basically get a percentage of your order total put in your drugstore bank..(again excluding tax, shipping and gift cards and a few other things)  i think it's like 5% of the total right now.. and each quarter you get those drugstore dollars as a store credit on that month's order. You'll get an email telling you when your drugstore dollars become available to you. But you do have a certain time period to spend them in, and then they go away. They don't carry over.
Their info: http://www.drugstore.com/drugstore-com-dollars/qxc33476

I do not know if drugstore dollars from beauty.com can be combined with the ones from drugstore.com main site.. i think so but i've never tried.

The lack of carry-over is what pisses me off the most. i don't like being told when to shop. If there's nothing i need that month then I either get something I only kinda need or i forfeit the credit.

Ofc my Go Greens and Aria and a few other things I like seem to only exist on drugstore.com right now so not like I'll abandon that site permamently. I just think they're being pretentious by having that "luxurious beauty" sub-site.
But seriously.. if you're looking at something by Stila or Urban Decay or another big name then skip the fake shit and just go to sephora. It's the same price anyway, and a better selection, and Sephora has better freebies.