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Thursday, September 29, 2011

GRRRRRRRRRRRRR FUCKING HELL WHAT THE FLYING FUCK IS BLOGGER DOING ?!?!

Guess later tonight I'll have to try "the updated blogger interface" preferably on comp... but after I get some idea what to expect I'll have to update on my phone too...

CUZ BLOGGER DASHBOARD FUCKING REFUSES TO LET ME SCROLL damn fuck shit.... I can't see my blog list and I only have the slow-loader blogs like Mich and Peri bookmarked cuz I can't have two windows w their blogs or phone browser crashes.
Which means right now I'm basically locked out of ever other blog except theirs. Cuz I can't get to my blogroll!! Grrrrr!

Why can I scroll down other pages but can't scroll down the dashboard? Fucking hell!!

So I'm behind on blogs...:( sorry. *cries*
And eating has been shit. Still bleeding...am annoyed. Least the pain is gone.

Gonna take a chance on my health...I found 4 birth control packs i'd forgotten about. They cost me $35 each so I figured I can use em up and be normal for a few months. I don't think they expired....and what's the worst that can happen?

Sleep schedule is fucked too.

So cats hate citrus eh? Hmmm do I need actual citrus oils or is a strong citrusy scent enough?
Heehee *evil grin* my stairs SHALL be mine once again.

Tuesday, September 27, 2011

Blech! Womanlies kicked up about 3am on sept 26 and it's a heavy month complete with big cramps. Haven't taken 2 motrin at once for awhile. Slept all day Sunday and on and off all day Monday. At least I was awake long enough to get into the 'special clothes'.
I am not happy. The pain is over but my sleep schedule is fucked, I feel messy in general...and smells like a cat just took a shit on my stairs yet again and I am fucking tired of cleaning that up!
It is 7:30am and I've been awake since 7pm last night and couldn't go back to sleep. Today is going to be hell.
I should have gotten on computer and hunted down AIM.
But reading Underwood was good too.

Oh and btw just to be sure FUCK YES I'll read Fairy Queen!! GIMME GIMME GIMME *checking inbox obsessively*

Ahem..moving on I also need to get on comp so I can save the latest cuteness from Samantha and Erin, and definitely save the lated Sam in bikini pics (I'm so bad...she's gotta find that invasive)
Hope she can forgive me. I know she hates the paps and I know me saving pics feeds into the pap stalking...I like looking at her...... I don't need to made-up stories the gossip sites create...but does that really matter since it's the taking of pics that is so invasive?
Sigh....
I need to charge my phone and possibly nap before class.
And really brush this rat's nest on my head.

Sunday, September 25, 2011

fashion fail

Well the fashion show was bust.. by the time i was able to try to order tickets online the order form had been replaced with a "please buy tickets at the gate" message... which is really just sales-speak for "we're technically sold out but there's always people who don't show so if you show up with $20 cash and we can fit you in then we will"
I didn't want to play that game.
If i hadn't failed about ording the tix online on tues like i should have then it would have been ok.
oh well... $40 I got to keep. They did this last year and this year and i think they hope to do it next year too.

So I'm up way to damn late again (I should seriously find and install AIM so me and Mich can chat like the insomniacs we are) and I'm going thru the swagvids.. because the Spring 2012 fashion videos have arrived yay!!
Sadly the swagvids are loading as slow as ever so i got 2 swagvids tabs up and my blogger in another window.
Thus far i am not impressed.. there seems to be a little-girl metatheme going on? I've checked out Thakoon (this is considered Ready to Wear??) and Marc Jacobs (saran wrap skirts or something?) and just finished Jeremy Scott.. which really made me think of a little girl theme. Even his heels were done to look like little girl saddle shoes from way back when, and the girls were in crazy pigtails with curlycues on top of their heads.
And again... THIS is considered Ready to Wear? New York City and London must count as their own alternate universe.
I'm guessing Proenza is going for a tribal/primal thing by their music choice, and I kinda see it in the clothes... but I like the 3 forest-y pieces better. Eh.
I don't get fashion i guess.
I'm not gonna bother mentioning specific names unless something really sticks out, either good or bad.
Things in common thus far.. ever notice that they're always throwing around words like fresh, sexy, young, nubile, always the same. "Simple yet sophisticated" and "done but not too done" are phrases i hear season after season.
And my pet peeve... "like...like...like.. wearable... like.. for everyone (even tho it's only for anorexics, i swear)... like.. just... you know... like....."
"Texture" also gets thrown around a lot.
Fashion goes in cycles. I think the main reason I feel so compelled to keep old fashion mags around is because I'm always tickled to find an old trend resurface... but then I want to go hunt up the last time i saw that trend.
Aquascutum.. I see the saran wrap finish again, looks like thin plastic floating around. And it does float and flow, perhaps the idea there is a silicon lake? i dunno but I'm annoyed at it. Other than that the shapes were a bit more flattering... oh.. female designer, yea that makes sense.

I really think that female designers will produce at least slightly more wearable fashions, simply because she's more likely to actually wear her creations... whereas the male designers just play Dress up Barbie with the models.
Perhaps i should start trying to see if there's a relationship between having a male designer and if the models tend to be skinnier than with a female designer. I mean all models are skinny. But I think it was the Ralph Lauren shows that had those super-bony models that made headlines back when the Size Zero uproar really gathered steam? Feel free to correct me. My mags were all thrown out by a well-meaning R who was trying to get me floorspace.

here's another clue if a fashion designer tends to prefer anorexic models: boxy shapes. Boxy silhouettes will only ever look good on a super-skinny person.

I think Burberry Prorsum Spring 2012 is mislabeled.. I'm seeing coats and sweaters. Someone messed up? At least no saran wrap.. or maybe i missed it while blogging?

Ok I've seen this glorified fanny pack thing in a couple shows now... WHAT THE FUCK?? Dresses and skirts and blouses that include this puffed out flap in the stomach area.. really?
Again someone's aiming for the anorexics cuz no one of a normal weight will look even remotely good in that. They seriously look like a fancy fanny pack sewn onto the clothes. A belly flap. Seriously?

Theysken's Theory also has the saran wrap, tho it's a tighter fit. Ok so... shiny and mesh and see-thru is the spring trend.. I've seen it many times now.

Todd Lynn is weird but different. Ahahah Singing in the Rain!

Oscar de la Renta has some drool-worthy gowns. I liked most of that.. very easy on the shine.. yay! One gown seriously looked like she was swathed in foaming milk or something, that was an interesting effect. The other gowns were simple and lovely. And yes i liked the shorter dresses too. Looked like ivory lace in my vid.. pretty pretty and hints of old-fashioned. Too bad i have no place to wear such things.. assuming I could afford them ^_^

Looking for something fancy for you time out on the beach? Check out Mark Fast, where straw and cheesecloth and crochet were the main theme... as were clearly visible nipples. Perfect for all your exhibitionist swimming needs!

oooo Erdem was rather ladylike, old-fashioned. I can even ignore the shiny pieces, at least they weren't totally see-thru.

There's a cute pink-haired model i first saw in Charlotte's Fall 2011 runway back in ....February?.... Anyway I don't know her name but i recognize her.. seems she still has the pink hair ^_^ and I've seen her a few times now. Yay! And yay for the designers not making her change her hair. Or maybe it should be a YAY for her refusing to change herself that much for a designer? Or has she started a trend? I don't remember the show name now but one show had 2 pink-haired models! Unless somehow her outfit was changed? Would a single model do two different looks on a runway? doesn't seem like there'd be enough time?

Is it me or do most fashion shows seem to use & share the same trance-club-techno type soundtrack?

And it's 4am again... well if I'd gone to that show, which was slated to end at midnight, I might not have gotten home til now anyway what with all the traffic trying to get out of there XD

4:31 am bad bad me... am i even gonna go to church tomorrow? i should.. I only intended to watch the new fashion vids.

awww now at a Charlotte backstage vid.. Annabelle's adorable...."I get butterflies because... (gets really soft) ..I'm not a real model.." Awwwww and i love how Charlotte and Samantha actually have similar movements and mannerisms yet they're so different. And this is the first time i've ever heard Annabelle's voice. She even sounds like the twins a little bit. Definitely sisters ^_^
It's weird but in some ways Annabelle sounds more like Samantha than Charlotte does.. i bet it's because both Samantha and Annabelle smoke.. and Charlotte does not smoke.
Smoking doesn't just destroy your lungs.. it changes, and eventually ruins, the voice.

Damn it Samantha! Ninja-kick the fucking marlboros!!!!!!!
*growls*
Moving on... hey lookie it's 5am now. i need to finish the new vids, just the new ones, I've seen the old vids sooooo many times...
Just finish the new vids, add a few to get the swagmeter filled and kick over.. then off to a brief nap i guess.

I'll be trying one of my many dry shampoos I guess.
And the swagvids are doing something very strange now.. time to top this off and be done. I saw Charlotte's work, and i lust after that blue skirt even more now that i've seen it in motion.
5:20am and i'm calling it.
Heh... we'll see if i get my lazy ass up tomorrow ^_^

Thursday, September 22, 2011

Fuuuuuck can't fit in to my jeans. Granted haven't bought any jeans for like 5 years so my jeans are for fitting a skinnier me, about 140 version of me. Yea.
So R found where I get the tickets at, since that list on the website was actually the sponsor list and not the buy-tix-here location list.

Oops.

Did I mention I'm a total noob at actually attending a fashion event of any kind?
Closest I've ever come before is watching the youtubes.

So I feel dumb, and I'll have to call tomorrow to find out what to do....find out if I can even still go.

Either way I'm fat.

R's gf gave me a coat of hers that she can no longer wear. As her weight went up... her cup size did too and she can't wear the coat. I carry my fat in the belly and she carries hers in her bra. I really think she's a DD now. So now I have a black dressy coat, even tho it may be just on loan I still have a black dressy coat, free of charge :D
So now since I have a coat and the jeans don't fit, maybe I'll go with the black dress pants and soft pink button-up with this coat...
Assuming I can still go. For some reason I thought R was gonna get the tix. Again w the oops.

Oh well...if I don't go then that's $40 that I didn't spend.
And if I do go then I get a peek at live fashion shows..even tho it's definitely not New York. Could still be fun ^_^
Ok...after eating cake and cupcakes at R's house I got the usual crunches and leg lifts.
My eating went to shit again...and my boobs are sore. Fuuuuuck

Wednesday, September 21, 2011

Mon night (well actually @ 2am tues morning) R found a local fashion event that's happening this Saturday night. This is a big event for my blue-collar hometown. Peeps go all out. And everything is local, the one mall in town that does have some big name stores (for the rich half of town) and there are models and I found some pics from this event last year and it looks pretty damn couture. What do I wear to an event advertised as couture but is also advertised as an indoor/outdoor event and to dress for the weather? And is taking place inside an airplane hanger?
General admission tix are $20 each. I don't mind covering R's ticket since I'm basically hiring him to play bodyguard for me. I DO mind if he's expecting me to cover more than 2 tix. I can cover me and him. Not cool if he's getting other peeps to come by telling them the tix are covered. My credit card is damn near maxed out. And I've gotta replace almost every tshirt I own cuz they went yellow from sitting in drawers against the raw wood. I have unlined drawers! Fuck! At least it's getting cooler and no one cares if my hidden undershirts are discolored.
I'm freaking out about what to wear. Weather forecast is rainy with a high of 61 degrees. Plus being maybe outdoors? Doesn't sound like dressup weather to me. I'd much prefer to copy Samantha Ronson's style for this. At least i'd be warm and comfy. I know she doesn't appear on any "best dressed" lists but does that really matter? She's happy and is being herself and that seems to get a kind of respect from the fashion crowd.

Ofc I'm also freaking out cuz I'm too fat for most of my clothes. Slight problem there. I've had about 600 cals since being told about this event and the chocolate cravings are *fierce*. Keep telling myself I only gotta last til Sunday. Totally slept thru tues from the sudden calorie drop, slept right thru class oops. Gonna try to sleep some more, tired again, then try to crank out that paper. Maybe I'll reward myself with a thinkgeek order after I email the paper in.

What am I gonna wear?????
Could go buy a dark suitcoat to go with my black pants.

Oh thought...since this event is so close, wonder if it sold out?
Is it wrong that i'd be a little relieved?
Best not to spend any $ just yet... just try to shrink down as much as possible.

What am I gonna wear???
Ok..sleep time.

Karolina: this blog was just named after her because if how much I admire her. She last updated very briefly on Easter last year. I flipped. I hope she's ok. I still reread her old entries, and am still always inspired. By her willpower, her strength, her faith, her obvious intelligence. You didn't miss anything...I'm just being Ana Regzig's fangirl. ^_^

Sunday, September 18, 2011

Underwood ftw!!

Guess what?
The gift card code arrived! Ofc there was also a 19 cent price hike on my chai latte but it's still cheaper than Ana Regzig's Starbucks habit ^_^
Ahhh I miss her. I want her back!

Also..... Underwood is on its way!!!
So excited!

I wanted multiple copies but I couldn't do that and get the chai and I neeeeed the chai the way Regzig needed her Starbucks. It is getting COLD here too!
Next order? Let's hope.

Does amazon allow more than one giftcard to be used on a single order? Anyone know? Cuz there is no $10 giftcard in the sb redemption list. There's $5 then it jumps right to $25 and I rarely need an order that large. But a $10 would be perfect for me.

Oh well.....at least I have my Underwood copy.

Too bad I still fail at controlling my fat face stuffing.
Tomorrow's protein shake is all ready and waiting in fridge.
As Samantha Ronson once sang:
Tomorrow is another day.
And another song...
Tomorrow always comes

(Granted she was singing about broken hearts and healing from a breakup, but sometimes I feel like I've cheatted on myself and broken an agreement with my body. This weight is making me sick, literally. And in pain. Wtf is wrong w me that I can't do this?)

Night! <3

Saturday, September 17, 2011

I got like 5 mins to dash a quick note cuz I'm working like a beast this week. Lotsa peeps taking their vacations but hey more hours = more $$
Once this busy streak is over I get my vacation yay!
Also got a paper due thurs that I haven't even started. Fuuuuuuck.
Vacation ofc starts AFTER the paper is due.
Blah...gotta go be a good wageslave.

Also oops on me taking a set of work keys home. They were in my back pocket & fell out when I was driving. Didn't know I had them lol.

Diet has been fail..mom got pizza and reeses chips ahoy last night. I suck.

Gotta go!

Tuesday, September 13, 2011

many pretty pics makes diet thoughts nice :)

I've got a small pile of comments to go thru that I swear I'll get as soon as I'm off the computer. I know I'm being paranoid here but the blank blogger post creation page is nice and bland and easily ignored.. people's usernames might not be.

Hiiiii!!! I'm back! Sorry i vanished there... thinking about sad stuff like genocide attempts got me really fucking depressed. First there was binging, then a good 30-35 hours where i only took in 500cals total then sunday night the stuff-face started again.

I have also been shamelessly hitting on that gay coworker i think is so cute. I'm not sure if she's honestly interested or if she just finds me amusing. But we seem to be connecting on some level because when i was wandering the chocolate aisles (again!) and being frank about my chocolate addiction and how my dad and i joke about building our potbellies, she asked very softly "wait.. you want to be fat?" and i confessed that no, I don't, but weight loss is so hard and i do love my chocolate. And that's when i found out she is actively trying to slim down, but ofc she's going the healthy route. She works out gently almost every day and we talked about workouts and biking and weightlifting. She doesn't like being fat. And to be fair she is probably very close to the morbidly-obese line, but she's one of those types who knows how to dress so sometimes i really don't notice just how big she is. And hell.. the first girl i ever dated was nearly 300lbs.

Isn't it funny how we can be so much more forgiving of others than of ourselves?
I'd totally do her if she wanted it.

But she and I both need to drop a few. She may need to drop more, but she carries her weight well. Me?

I'm a fucking moron who is carrying a potbelly on a twisted, deformed spine which therefore keeps me in near-constant pain.

it's still a happy shock to me when coworkers ask "how do you stay so thin?" because really I'm not thin. I'm a good 30 or 40lbs over what i should be but because it's all in my stomach and i still have model-thin shoulders, i can hide it.

I can't call myself anorexic, not at this weight. Having the thinking patterns resurface at times isn't the same as being actively ana.

At least.. I don't think it is.

Isn't it fun how medical definitions don't really leave room for human vagueness?
Maybe that's the point?

Ugh.

Anyway here I am blogging in between fashion swagvids cuz for some reason they are taking FOREVER to load! My phone loads them faster! Blah!

Fashion Week is going on right now.. Charlotte's show was Saturday.. and ooohh if only I had money.
Not that I'd look good in her stuff right now anyway.
But even tho many of her pieces are very body-conscious, there are also longer pieces that Quasimodos like me could wear. And other's I'm sitting here going "Charlotte..umm.. what the hell were you thinking?"
But even the WTF pieces are visually interesting.
i only saved the pics of my favorites.
Ah fuck i should go back and get Annabelle's pic. i don't wear blue very much (depends a lot on the shade) and she was in blue so i didn't save it, but she's so damn cute that i should have saved the pic for that reason alone. Feck.

(cmon people, let's make Feck appear in the oxford dictionaries!! Use it use it!!!)
(Hi Mich! ^_^)

Speaking of the lovely Mich.. I just saw that Underwood is now on the main amazon.com site! Woot! Still waiting for my electronic gift card to arrive in my inbox.. then that book and a nice supply of my fave Chai is MINE. I'll be all ready for cold weather with cozy hot drink and a good book.

Anyway the whole point of managing to get computer time is pics!
Yanno maybe one of these days i should go for traditional thinspo? But the pics i have posted are inspiring to me..... soo......

anyway.....

This one is probably my biggest fave, even though I wish the shirt was less blocky and more smooth ombre transition like the skirt. Cuz I ADORE that skirt. it's soft and swirly and transparent and mermaid-y like it's made of sea foam or something. love it!
Does look a little too sheer for me. But then.. if I had her body hell let's show it off!
dammit i once was that thin.. twisted spine or no, i was still that thin and feck me for not enjoying it more!! When i looked good I hid! Now i look terrible and flabby and i want to not hide! But even if i get down that far again.. I'm sooo much older now it won't look as good!

Enjoy it while you can, kids! Aging is a BITCH!

This one is my second fave. i sure like the ombre thing don't I? Anyway this one is also kinda sheer but it seems just loose and floaty enough around the waist to allow for slightly uneven hips, perhaps not as uneven as mine but still, it's a forgiving cut that way. The fabric kinda floats around the hips rather than clinging and showing quasimodo-proportions.

Next is an old pic from her last show that i just thought was too damn cute:
Charlotte: "Oh no you did NOT!"
Samantha: "Oh yes I DID!!!"

That's what it looks like to me anyway.. like they're in the middle of a playful argument.

The Ronson twins are plotting something!!
Also.. there's one of Samantha's many pairs of fingerless gloves. Those ones are obviously one of her longer pairs and cover her teeny tiny wrists.
here's a shorter pair:

Samantha seems to love Jack Skellington. What's up with that I wonder?
Ok to be fair.. he was a pretty cool character even if you're not skinny enough to be compared to him. Nightmare Before Christmas is still one of my all-time faves!
And yes, those are her hands, her nails. Told you she's a girly-girl. It's just all in the details.

Honestly the first thing that attracted me to her was how she's like the poster child for us girls who want to be girly but don't like skirts and heels and dresses and thin blouses etc all the time. i rarely doll up to that extent. it's fun when i'm in the mood but I'm just not in the mood very often.
Even though I live in a blue-collar city i still like the idea of taking off and wandering the woods and i want to be dressed for that!

One of the few Ronster pics:

And yes, Samantha's shoes are studded here too. So now she's got studded shoes (they look kinda like oxfords?) and studded boots.
what's with her and studs? Ouchie! Those things are a weapon! Or is that the point?

here's a cute one:

Erin: "See Samantha? It's not so bad..."
Samantha: "Don't drop the baby don't drop the baby don't drop the baby..."
Erin: "You're not gonna drop the baby."
Samantha: "Don't drop the baby why is baby squirming so much don't drop the baby..."
Erin: "Oh boy.."

xD

I'm currently coming up with a basic meal plan that will keep me in low cal and super low carb ranges but still try to avoid the dizzy spells and try to protect my muscle and heart and still get most nutrition covered. obviously vitamins are gonna be a big star here, as is my protein powders. Turns out i was miscounting them. 1 scoop Body Fortress and 1 scoop Aria is actually only 180 cal, 33g protein and 6g carbs. i was thinking i was getting 200cal and 40g protein. oops. The Aria serving size is 2 scoops, not 1. Body fortress has values listed for both 2 scoops and 1 scoop.

I also saw a swagvid that was basically an "infomercial" for Ensure where the "expert" (Read: Ensure seller) said we should have 25g of protein at each meal.
Fucking hell???
Meanwhile my beloved Body Fortress says the 26g from 1 scoop counts for 52% of the daily requirement if you're eating a 2000cal a day diet.
Methinks someone wants to sell Ensure. Especially since only one Ensure formula has that much protein in a single bottle. The other formulas tend to be in single digits!

My problem is getting protein on the run. Kinda hard to take my shakes on my walk to school and on campus, they won't stay cold for one.. and for another who wants to hear me shake up the blenderball in there before every sip?
So back to the power crunch bars and the turkey jerky and plain water bottles.
I've been making notes where to find stuff i want, mostly the notes are on my phone. Wow i love my phone... so glad i got it. Totally worth the price. It's my external memory. Not a good idea to shop from my phone tho.. none of my discounts or bonuses carry over in mobile shopping. Oh well that just means i can't shop as often, which is good considering I'm flat (and fat) broke.
yup got more junk food after work sunday, just before the binging started. Whoooops.
i may have to make the drastic choice of leaving my wallet behind. I'm always nervous about having my car break down or run out of gas or something and me having no money to get myself home. Blahhh.... Nevermind that's I've driven my car once since i finally got it back (yay I have drivingness again!)
Be sensible Honor! I leave my wallet behind during class all the time. My books, keys, phone, water bottle and snack are all I leave the house with.
I am thinking of getting a folding cane. So i can still walk to school but have help for that leg if I need it. You don't lose weight riding on a bus.
And a folding cane would fit in my bookbag when i didn't need it. Don't wanna carry a cane all over campus! Yes, I'm vain that way. It's different out on the trails than it is on campus.

Ok... post, brush teeth, finish this swagvid set, then bed. I got one of the old acai powder drink mixes (yes i still have some left.. and they don't go bac til 2012) already mixed up and chilling in the fridge. That's breakfast. An Atkins bar in my bag, that's lunch.
Water bottle! Going to find....found, cleaned, ready to be filled. it's one of those small-mouth reusable aluminum ones.. so just water, no mixes, or it'll smell funny. So glad I have my blenderbottles.. they're much easier to clean!

Go to bed, dammit!
(or at least get off the computer and get closer to bed!)

Tuesday, September 6, 2011

medical ethics

I flunked the summer online class but found out I didn't need my fall class so I switched it out and am retaking the summer class, only in person,. A classroom, new prof, and it's a 3-4 month class rather than cramming all this info into one month.
Today we covered clinical trials and the importance of consent. And then the ultimate no-consent "clinical trial" came up: Holocaust.
The strict rules for clinical trials weren't written until after WWII, when all the horros of the campps came out. Nuremburg trials. Prof said that any neuroscientist student in the room actually owed a lot to the suffering of innocent Jews who were alive when their skulls were drilled open and their brains were poked at.

Then prof asked the question I knew was coming....is it ok to use nazi research?
Ofc if neuroscience is already using it the question is kinda moot, but anyway....
I'm kinda uncomfy with the idea. I mean I can see both sides here. Using that research...there's a scene in Angel season 5 after Amy dies but Gunn is still in hospital bed, and he doesn't want to use his legal knowledge, and Angel says "we paid a high price for what's in your head". And I do get that using the research might kinda make those innocent Jewish deaths a little less in vain.

But I'm really afraid of legitimizing what those asshole nazis did. Does using their research mean we approve? Would we be setting a dangerous precedent that inhumane means can be forgiven if the resulting knowledge saves lives? I don't want to do that! Using people as things, as a menas, treating them like they're nothing......that is never ok! Never ever ok!

I'm gonna go cry now.

Thursday, September 1, 2011

Well the womanlies started. Ugh and yuck. So I slept all day and feck the diet. I want my painkillers and my chocolate. Haven't bought any fresh tho...but found another stash i'd forgotten about. All set on that front. Car still in shop. Think I might have to take my wallet out of my purse to keep from spending. Tho since I'm probably not gonna drive tomorrow why would I carry a purse anyway? Class was cancelled so I just have work. Probably won't even need my keys. And even if I did drive I have license attached to keys so unless I don't have pockets I don't really need a bag ever. Well ok maybe something to hold my sunscreen and water bottle and bug spray. So yea, even Samantha Ronson has been seen carrying bags sometimes.
But it might be a good idea to carry less money. My willpower is shot to hell during womanlies. Not that my willpower was high to begin with. But it's definitely shot right now. Only reason I'm not stuffing my face now is cuz I've already pigged out on eggo cereal and wonka chocolate. Opened a bag from that stash and it's mostly gone. I'm too tired to finish it. Ha!
Will get tall glass of cold water once I finish this milk I think.
Got the swagvids on again as I blog on phone. I found my vanilla chai latte on amazon so I want the $5 credit to go for that. Mmmm a full 6 10oz cans of my fave hot drink mmmmmm.
Also gotta get Mich's book but while Createspace is affiliated w amazon I'm not sure if orders from the 2 sites can be combined. I'm still totally getting the book, but do I need to make a new account to get it?
Maybe my procrastination on my fanletters can be used for good....now I can include the book's website :)
Gotta defend my laziness ^_^
Blahhhhh I feel full. Which is uncomfy...but also kinda good. No more urge to stuff face.
Also feel very tired physically. But can't really sleep. Annoying.
Had two motrin already. Well actually had 2 of the walmart knockoff of motrin. Seems to work, as far as killing pain goes. Don't think motrin makes me lethargic tho. But that could also be the sugar binge and crash. Either way blahhhhhhhh
Ok leftover chocolate hidden infridge and cold water in my glass.
Minecraft up...made yet another world, no doggie yet but I did see a wild one running around. Pretty new world. I'm trrying something new...an open strip mine. Went to the waterline then a few squares back and just started digging. There's a few tiny holes in the walls where I followed iron but most of the mine is open to the sky. Lotsa daylight. Heh torches going all up the wall as I add another the deeper the open mine gets. I guess once I hit bedrock I'll fill the mine in with all the cobblestone and wood I don't need. Especially wood..since it's basically an infinite resource if you arre a good tree lover ^_^
Wow... using some coal to make glass and coal burbns a long time. This is cool. Better go get more sand.each coal burns enough to make like 7 or 8 glass!
And I'm working on the 3rd floor in my new house. I'm gonna try for a slanted roof, cottage style. With a few roof beams that I can have chests on or something.
3am again. Probably because I slept all damn day. Just better make it to work. Need $
Ok...at some point I should turn the baddies on and make sure they don't spawn in my house. That slanted roof makes it dark. Maybe I should put in a skylight!
4am and I feel slightly ill. It comes and goes tho. Could be too much chocolate or it could also be the heat.
Wtf am I gonna do with all this cobblestone? Start building bridges to connect my land masses I guess. I don't thin they're islands...too big. Can't find where water surrounds them. So yea..bridges sound good. Could always do a Tower of Babel too I guess.
I just really like this stripmine idea. Takes forever but in many ways it's less frustrating because there's no dissapointment of the "oh I found a cave!... oh wait it's just my tunnel again" sort.
NOOOOOOOOO this FUCKING EVIL OPTIC MOUSE!! I go to minimize window and fucking mouse hits Close!!
Oh Hallelujah minecraft has an autosave. Whew! Fucking mouse!
Mining mining..... running vids when minecraft is nightime. Nearly 5am now. Getting tired. Had a few handfuls of eggo cereal. Swagvids running slow. Think I'll maybe go once this set of 10 is done?
Built a 3lane bridge across the river. Was fun. There are some random snow patches over here... and it snows rather than rains too. How weird. A block of winter weather in the middle of this landmass. Oh well, yay snowballs.
You know what would be nice? Cars. Like minecraft has boats but no cars. The trains are nice enough but I want a land ride that I can actually direct. The trains would still be useful. We even have both in the real world.
And the hard thing about trains is that you fuel the "engine" in the direction you want to go...but the engine can only push. So you gotta be quick to get into the cart.
I also want a way to take my dog along!
Doesn't that sound nice? A directable land-boat that doesn't need rails and has room for the dog?
Ok closing minecraft. Let's finish this set of vids, then bed.