Such fail. Sunday night was fail (like 8 cookies) and Monday ohhh.....
Monday was stress stress stress. A girl had quit like a week before but dumbass store manager didn't bother to get her shifts covered. I worked 9 hours of high stress cuz of the short staffing. So glad he couldn't force me to work 10. When I finally got home I was stressed and in pain.
Talk about a binge. 3 pizza slices and more maple cookies... and then I finished the chocolate coated ones completely. Was like half the box. And some whatchamacallit bars. And ofc milk. And that was after having a protein shake thru work. Oh hell I didn't scrub my bottle out. It's gona stinkkkkk.....
And tonight was fail cuz of the big spaghetti dinner that Mom got free tickets to.
And now I've been awake in the dark all night cuz for some dumb reason my dumbass brain keeps freaking out about dec 2012 "end of the world" and wondering how I'm gonna save all my pets and my Mom if there's some huge flood or something. Floods scare me....my animals can't swim forever and they wouldn't deal with life jackets even if there were life jackets for pets. And the closest I have to inflatables is some air matresses and how can all my family fit and what about the dog's nails and how will we all sleep if movement can capsize the mattress so easy?
why won't my brain shut up?
I'm so tired. So very tired. Can't sleep. And if I do I'll probably have a nightmare. Maybe I'll read Dlisted for a bit...
so tired

Wow I failed today (refering to sat, as it's now 3am sun)
I behaved most the day but work had calloffs and we were short all damn day. I was with cool manager and we all tried to keep calm but the stress was there anyway.
I bought some junk. Peppermint cookies (the xmas stuff has arrived) and maple cookies and some chocolate coated shortbread. And whatchamacallit bars. And Mom had bought iced soft cookies already. So I had a tv dinner, 2 iced cookies & an unknown number of the chocolate covered. At least I didn't open the others. Didn't touch the whatchamacallit bars. Ugh. Why can't I behave for more than one day? Back to calorie cycling?
Anyway...plan for Sunday is protein shake either before or during work. Then I'll wait until after work, and when Mom comes home if she brings those godiva chocolate covered strawberries again (from someone in her music group) then I'll eat them. If that's all she brings, my dinner can be egg cup soup then the strawberries.
I got a 5hour energy chilling in the fridge too. I'm guessing i'm gonna need it. And protein shake is also already made so the powder can fully dissolve. I also have ginger powder to add! And adding cinnamon and ginger and just a pinch of cayenne it's. Kinda like. A gingerbread cookie taste w just a hint of kick. The kick helps my energy. A few years ago a girl suggested making hot chocolate w a pinch of cayenne since I didn't like coffee. It did help.
Wow I'm tired.

Today I woke up randomly at 5am, hungry. Had protein shake, went back to sleep. Rest of day was also lazy. Had 2 fiber one brownies (90 ea) and some garlic & herb cheddar cheese on melba toast. Not entirely sure of cal count but only the toast had carbs so 15g carbs. The cheese wasn't labeled well, or the Manager's Choice sticker covered up the serving size. Carbs were 0 tho so I wasn't that worried.
And now I'm hungry again. Waiting for my egg cup a soup combo to set. I boiled the water and am now waiting for the noodles to go soft. I think the egg is done alreay.
I work early tomorrow. I thought I went in at 4 but I'm scheduled for noon. I forgot the senority lady is on vacation. Why is it that when she works I have to close Saturday, but when I supposedly have her hours I'm given the midday shift so there is no closer? If I can do midday then so can she, damnit. I want my saturdays back!
Beeen headachy on and off all day. Tried to draw, got headache right behind the eyes.. gonna try again after eating some. Must get comic running. Have so many ideas! Had myself laughing at some of them. But ugh gotta turn these notebook stick figures into jpg comics so I can share them! Even my ana girl is funny (I said I was gonna kinda exorcise) and I really want to get these stories & jokes out there. Mentioning things, making fun of sexist, using humor to express ideas that might otherwise be painful... I'm happier when I'm brainstorming & jotting down notes. But this turning the notebook into a full comic is headachy!
And ofc phone decided to crash right mid-blogging. It went from fully charging to whining it had no power. Figures....
Soo.... I can tell you that adding an egg to my 45cal spring vegetable cup-a-soup is very tasty and even a bit creamy. I boiled the water in a glass measuring cup and poured it into my fave mug with the soup mix & added the raw egg and then put the rest of the boiling water in. Brought the soup & put it on my radiator until the noodles were soft. I'm not hungry anymore, but I'm not full either. There's room for more. Must resist.
Still headachy. Mild ketosis? Attempts to transition? I dunno. Maybe I'll just take a melatonin and go to bed.

oh hai diabetes.....

Did it again. Why am I so weak? Tues was 2 big bowls of ice cream late at night while watching NCIS on dvd. Maybe cuz before the ice cream i'd only had a yogurt and the rest of the chocolate protein lus & some cheese?
But weds...what fail! I mean I knew there'd be some fail cuz weds seems to be the night Mom & Bro go out after church to a small local "greasy spoon" that is actually very good food at low prices. Everything's nice & fresh & their milkshakes are the best in the city.... but their menu is not remotely diet-friendly. So I had my last Power Crunch bar (still have other brand bars to eat up tho) and that was all I ate til the restaurant. Then I. Had a super yummy & huge sandwich they call. The Dagwood (if you'd ever read that comic strip the joke will click. Otherwise google the Dagwood character) and a bigh milkshake... and then lots wonderful talk. My Bro is soooo supportivve of me. If I can't motivate myself to comic for my own enjoyment... maybe I can add on how he wants to see me happy. I need to organize my time just a bit... get into a routine where I do a little comicing every day. My eyes can't take staring at that screen for long. Even when blogging I put the phone down and look elsewhere every couple minutes.
Anyway after dinner I went shopping. Groceries. Got milk and eggs and cheese and bologna, the oscar mayer pre-sliced stuff so i'd have something instantly available that was low carb when I need to stuff face.
Also got some more tiny bolthouse farms c-boost & chocolate protein plus. They don't expire til nov so that can be next womanlies.
Also got a little single serve 3pack of miso soup. It was insanely expensive for only 3 servings but I didn't want to buy a large amount of something I don't know if I'll like. Miso is also very salty it seems.
And I got a pack of glazed donut holes. It was $1 and I love glazed donut holes/donut balls. And yea the donut holes were inhaled with milk while watching Muppet Show dvds. So I've had 2 days of fail in a row. And mon wasn't so great either.
And this is why I'm so sadly overweight.
I kinda want to make some blogger cartoons... cuz I'm dealing with the mess in my head by dramatizing a fight between me & a red skeleton. Cuz yea.... there's a part of me that wants to stop eating altogether. And then the logical side says "you need to take in some nourishment or your muscles will be eaten up and that will wreck your metabolism!"
Right now I'm thinking a protein shake for late breakfast/brunch/lunch and an egg drop-cup a soup combo for dinner. I also got more chobani yogurts. My fave, strawberry, is 20g carbs but 14g protein which is better than I usually see in yogurt.
And I stayed up all night again. Not sure what all to do today (thurs) guess if Mom's here when I go for food I'll have yogurt. Otherwise I'll fix a protein shake and bring it to my room and try to draw a bit while I drink it.
Neeeed to figure out a gym schedule. See work is right between my house & my gym & I'm nervous about being seen & being caught thaat I'm not a student right now. Could I really disguise myself enough? I'd still be recognized from up close but maybe a different coat and I could hide if I'm only seen from a distance? I'm not sure.
I don't wanna carry all my shower stuff tho. And driving such a short distance is bad for my car. Guess I won't shower at the gym so much. It is nice to use my own shower even if it is tiny. It's got all my stuff already set up! Tho I do have shower caps if I change my mind ^_^
Should get at least some sleep....

blugh

Blugh. Major fail today.
Maybe because my willpower was shot after 3 days of fucking retail. The mean tall manager got transferred and the cool one got his old position. But there was still a slot open and a girl I thought would be cool got that slot. And her tiny promotion has totally gone to her head and she's kissing up store manager's ass and trying to get the cool junior managers in trouble and just generally badmouthing everyone. And this brat doesn't have the authority to discipline anyone. The newly-promoted coll manager (now 2nd in command!) Made sure we all knew the brat couldn't write us up or send us home or any of that.
I also got to fight will another horrid reset, this time was tampons/pads section. Wholes shelves were moved and even removed. And this brat decided to "helpp" me for like 10 mins then I had to waste 20mins figuring out what the hell she had done. She put products on half of 2 shelves but didn't finish either shelf. And she didn't place any price tags so I had to check bar codes to see if the right product was in that spot. She was good for moving some shelving & that was it.
So yea... between bratty coworkers & bitchy, stupid customers, my willpower was drained and I binged on cookes and 6 candy bars. Plus milk & I finished the ham and had some chocolate protein plus too. My poor body is angry at me. It's suffering again. I've got that awful sickly feeling I always get when I've had too much sugar. And my stomach is complaining about being overstuffed.
I need eggs. Could also use some more milk, but must get eggs. I'm thinking of adding an egg to my cup a soups. Mom thinks a cup-a-soup is not enough but an egg would make it enough.
I also need to hunt down some batteries for my body fat analyzer. It's just a small handheld and I think it was kinda cheap too but it'll be another tool to add to my waist measurement and the scale numbers. And it's very similar to the heavier handheld my gym uses. Eggs and batteries could be had at walmart, but I prefer kroger's milk over walmart's. My fave milk brand is called Country Fresh tho. Haven't seen it in a while.
Soon my race starts. Sucks that I'm not preparing very well.
Ugh....feel so sick. Why do I keep eating so much junk? My body clearly hates it. Yet I keep doing it. Want to buy willpower.....anyone selling willpower?
Trying to come up with weight goal rewards that are not food related. Am thinking for the first 10lb loss I'll go to a salon in the mall and get my Pride & Prejudice bangs. I've tried cutting them myself & can't get it right. And something special for every 10lbs after that... or as I get closer to 140-145 and weight loss slows, maybe ever 5lbs would be good? I dunno... just that there will be shopping involved ^_^ so long as food is not the reward. With Mom randomly bringing home food, more junk is not what I need.
I'm taking it easy today (tues 4am where I am) and letting my poor body rest after the retail abuse. But I've got to start kicking my own ass here.
I should try to sleep now ^_^

The pain of womanlies is over but the grossness and the fatigue is still annoying me
I'm thinking that 3 month run to drop aas much fat as possible is coming. The idea is to use up my last birth control pills in hopes that they'll encourage my body to burn the belly fat and leave the already-small boobs as they are. I like my current size there. I've taken a few starting stats but and super tired from work today and I want sleep.
Breakfast today was ham (church leftovers, very yummy and keto-friendly so I'm stuffing my face) and half a small bolthouse farms c-boost smoothie.
Didn't get lunch at work.
Dinner was more ham, 3 olive garden breadsticks (leftover from gramps party) the rest of the c-boost smoothie and I cracked open the bigger bolthouse farms chocolate protein plus smoothie. This bigger bottle is like 33oz so it's gonna take a few days.
I'm happy that I had no big junk foods. The breadsticks were kinda non nutrition but sooo good. And my chocolate protein plus is really helping my chocolate cravings.
I think a mouse is trying to build a nest on my air conditioner. I hope he finds a better spot. I won't disturb him ofc... but that spot is far too exposed to harsh winter winds.

terrible way to spend an evening(rant/vent)

Fucking hell! I get blackmailed into showing up at grandp's b day dinner and I love my gramps but guess who all was there?
The homophobic uber baptist cousins, the worst one was bragging about his new girlfriend...
And stepdaddie dearest.
WHAT THE FLYING FUCK!?
At least I didn't have to sit next to him. Mom was next to him & I was next to Mom. But my bro & his sweet girlfriend (we're hoping she's The One!) Were at the other end! As was Gramps. I was stuck next to the homophobes. Ugh. What a waste of an evvening.
After dessert Mom got up to go pee. Everyone was getting up & suddenly it was just him & me in that corner and he just started talking as he stood up. Fortunately there was room on the other side of the table so I could get out without having to go past him but still unnerving.
I don't like that guy. I would be very happy if he dropped off the earth. And now my keyboard has died so good night Cuzco doing this w touchscreen is annoying damn autocorrecr.

grrr! f*cking phone!

My phone is being a sweaty stinky dick! So annoying! I used to love this thing and I want to love it again. I had to delete my history folder one item at a time because trying to delete the whole folder crashed my browser and sometimes crashed my entire phone.
Just now my phone crashed and when I restarted it, it said battery was empty and crashed again. So I came in here (bedroom) and plugged it in and it rebooted and said battery was at 70%.
WHAT THE FLYING &%*$#@!!!
Can a battery be so wonky it loses track of its charge? A fast-draining battery surely needs replacing but this time the battery claimed to be emtpy when it wasn't. What the hell causes that?

Moving on... womanlies have started. They suck as usual. And my eating really sucks. Thus far I had a small box of oreos and a bag of peanut butter m&ms and lots of yummy food Mom brought home. Including good stuff like chicken and ham, but also cake and brownies. I hate to go out and buy more milk. I also bought more peanutbutter m&ms. But in an attempt to be somewhat good, I got another box of my squash soup, more Chobani, and ginger to add to my shakes. I already had the cinnamon & cayenne. I just need to start making up my shakes again.
That reminds me... remember that Alive powder I tried? I'm not a huge fan. It doesn't have high protein but it has extra vitamins and probiotics and powdered veggies instead... and it doesn't taste all that great. It's not very filling either. I'll finish this can but I still haven't picked up more. Someone else bought a can so there was only 1 left last I checked. I dunno.... maybe if it's still there when my can is half gone..... we'll see. It does taste better than the go greens powder.
I also discovered something.... at work a few days ago I redid the perfume case and the 2 cool managers were both there and they were both ok with letting us take discontinued tester bottles home. The fragrances were not gonna be sold anymore and testers were just going to be thrown away so when we asked if we could take them home the managers didn't care. No money was being lost.
Well turns out official policy is to consider that stealing. WHAT THE HELL?!? they're discontinued and headed for the trash bin! Presumptions R Us is not losing any money. And you know I'll search for a place that recycles perfume bottles. They're made of glass so it should be possible.
Anyway....so that day we were ALL playing at the makeup counter because I am very firm about everyone on duty that day getting a chance at the goodies. I believe in sharing. Seems Presumptions R Us does not. So everyone on duty that day got a chance and no one took anything until everyone working that day had a sniff. Most of the fragrances were old ladyish, and in the end only me and one other girl wanted anything. on that day anyway. A month or so earlier I cleaned under the counter and that was when I found all that hair tester stuff. I made sure everyone got a crack at those too, and lots of my coworkers did dig in. Again those were testers and could not be sold. Ugh. If work really wants to fire us "thieves" they'll have to restaff over half the store.
Ohhhh I hate that corporation so much. They are SUCH hypocrites, such LIARS! They claim to be "green" but they use paper ads and won't recycle the leftovers and they. They throw away shameful amounts of food instead of marking the food down like Kroger... and here's something awful: when you check expiration dates you have to pull even as far as 3 months in the future... that means they deliberately throw away items that won't expire for another 3 months. Meanwhile Kroger would just slap a Manager's Choice sticker barcode on it and leave it there, and peeps see the sticker and grab it! Kroger's method is much better for the environment. I wish I had a place to send pics of all the food thrown away. Maybe if public outrage would get up, wasteful businesses would behave better for the sake of keeping their customers. A place where whistleblowers can show how much food and medicine is deliberately thrown away.
they also repeatedly throw plastic & shit into the baler, in spite of the "paper and cardboard only" sign... and guess I'm the only one who ever noticed the "paper" part of that sign. It's possible to recycle the old ads... put them in a cardboard box and put that in the baler. Wtf is so hard about that?!
Ugh. I stayed up all damn night again. I need sleep. Then I need to either start my 4th comic or start writing out a Samantha song. My bro has offered to convert anything I need so I can put it into Movie Maker. Although with my phone crashing so often, especially when recording..... well maybe I can make that old keychain camera work. I can't tell when it's on but it did record with decent quality sound. Just that inability to tell when it's recording kinda sucks.....

oops, I did it again! (long, with pics too!)

Ha! Sorry for the obvious Britney Spears reference. I kinda grew up with her. i remember when she first became big.... before the evil of Lufti! I wasn't a big fan of that damn k-fed either. But moving on.

Yep, i slept all damn day AGAIN. So here I am at 5am and Mom's gonna be madddd... but i'm on computer! Found my flash drive and transfered my various pics.. now i'm digging up my comic hosting site info.

Also found a fellow lez on here.. who's seriously too young for me (I'm getting used to that.. back to crushing on Ronson) and this babydyke is also a muslim.. which means my fledgling pro-gay theology will be totally useless for her.
Someone find me some pro-gay Muslims i can send little babydykes too.
I also need some pro-gay resources for Jewish babydykes, though since Jews and Christians share the Old Testament (ok so technically my people STOLE the Old Testament and rewrote it but nevermind!) I might be able to figure out something. Maybe.

Still want to meet a Jewish person. Probably because i've seen way too much Big Bang Theory. Bwahahah i wanna see if Howard's mom has any real-life equivalents. Cuz the whole gayboy queen thing does have some basis in reality. Some stereotypes begin with people who fit those behavior patterns.

This is not doing my comic!
Ok.. still have no idea how to set up my comic's mailbox. Wow i suck at computer stuff. Waaa i want a Sheldon! Except he'd drive me crazy and his special brand of crazy is not worth the small help he'd be. My needs are simple. He might lock me out just to prove his superiority!

Oh hell, I've forgotten how to do this. No wonder.. my last update was... JUNE?!?!?!?!? Feck!

oh dear.. and this is comic 3.. so for the first time i will have a middle comic.. so i gotta figure out how to make two links on the same line.. but on opposite sides of that line..
Gah! it's been too long!
And I forgot about getting a paypal tipjar.. me be DUMB.

ok I'm not dumb.. but i'm definitely feeling my newb-ness. i got both links up but um... how come they're not on the same line? Why is one higher? Uh.... what i do wrong here? Feck.
Have a distraction while i whump my  head on my keyboard..

Oh my, those eyes....

She's got to be the absolute smallest girl I've ever had a crush on. My other crushes are Adele, Kate Winslet, Queen Latifah, Catherine Zeta-Jones... but Samantha just has some dreamboat eyes. I've always been the smaller girl in my relationships. But for her.. I'd be the bigger girl. No problem. I want to be strong enough to pick her tiny self up and carry her away.

And there's a chance that she's attracted to different sized women, not just super tiny girls. (lilrednyc is Samantha, it's an olddddd nickname she's had for YEARS)

I would never call Christina fat. Not remotely fat! But she's not bony skinny, is she? Girl is hot! A bit girly for me.. but I can't deny she has a lovely figure.

 

A ha.. each new div counts as its own line no matter what.. well feck now what?

I'll put another row in! Rather than have the links share the comic's cell!

YES! Got it to look right! Happy me!

Wow this is simple coding. i checked out the source code for EGS and derrrrr... i have no clue what is going on there. Maybe someday i'll understand php. Probably not.

like my comic's Tip Jar? i thought it was funny...... :p

Here's that cute embarassed pic i mentioned...

 Awwwww..... so cute!
I probably shouldn't use the cartoons tag here but since I do mention my comic... it kind of applies. Also.. I ended up not changing Trixie's shoes.
Oh hey.. the girlfriend!

Bwahahaha when this pic was posted.. on Annabelle's twitter I think (Annabelle is on far right)... there were soo many "wtf?!?" comments from Samantha's friends! Heeehehehehe!!!!
More cuteness!

Awwww

She's a very pale-skinned girl, like me, and pale skin reflects camera flashes waaayyy too easily. Kinda hard to see how cute she is in this pic. i think that's Jessica Alba on the far right. Lauren is Jessica's friends & makeup artist.

That one's a bit better. She's really quite cute, but most pics of her have Alba in them and well... i'm biased and while Alba is very pretty, i prefer the slightly tomboyish types. So excuse me for only posting pics with Samantha ^_^
Oh!

Here's a pic that Charlotte Ronson posted... she playfully complained about finding Samantha crashing on her office's couch. Ha! Samantha and her socks!

This is a pic that Lauren herself posted. She titled it "Sprinkles!" and wow talk about bed hair! Just what were you and Samantha doing before you took this picture, Lauren? ;)
Hee! Samantha is actually lactose-intolerant. Girl should buy stock in Lactaid the way she loves her ice cream. I also found some cute pics of Samantha in girly clothes! She took them before her Live with Kelly performance I think.

I do love it when she decides to surprise everyone. That tiny waist.... i wanna wrap my arms around that tiny waist!
*slaps self* ok Ok.. Samantha might well be taken now. Must behave..... who am i kidding?
That's Annabelle in the upper pic w Samantha, btw.

And posting these adorable pics keeps me distracted from my total diet fail today. Ack! mom brought home pizza again! And i had beef & cheese stick duos, and I got into the cookie dough again!

Oh hai, Diabetes! How are you today? What's that? You wanna kill me? yea.. I need to run away from you! But i'm not doing that by eating crap, am i? *sigh* Bad Honor! Need more healthy noms! Ugh.. stupid pizza. Stupid cookie dough! Good thing i shoved my chocolate stash in an out of the way drawer. I'm gonna try like hell to drink up my bigger bottle of Chocolate Protein Plus when the womanlies hit... and i'm due for that early next week. Ugh... I can haz menopause?
 Wow I'm starting to feel tired.... ugh still haven't looked into getting adsense started. or paypal. But i have a headache from staring at coding!Waaaaa! Can i please do tomorrow? or next week? or something? i'm still working out the coding.. not even sure how to place the ads yet....
And yes.. I'm making excuses.. but i seriously do have a headache after staring at the code and racking my brain until i got it mostly looking how i want.
So i bedtime. But by comic number 4 i should have enough of a grip to at least try to play ads. And definitely by number 5. Number 5 is alive!
Ok.. I go now.

i swear technology hates me

My phone is being a dick.
Crashes randomly and claims its battery is dead.
How the hell can it go from 73% battery left to none in five seconds?
So about the only time I can do much on it is when it's plugged in.
Guess I need a new battery. Cuz I don't want to buy a new phone.

Sims is. Also being a dick.
I've deleted and remade families so many times. The problem is no longer tied to one lot or family. I deleted the fam & house both and still had the problem. I think the term is rendering problem? I don't see what I should see on the screen. The graphics are fecked. I think I managed to get a pic last time..before my phone crashed as well.
And my phone browser just crashed. Yay for blogger's autosave. Only lost like a sentence.

Frustration is being vented via the usual... I'm at about 610cals for the day and I may stay there... depends if Mom brings food home.
I had 2 candy bars yesterday but everything else was healthy noms. And over 1000cals worth too. Finished the butternut squash soup and the chocolate almondmilk and a BF green goodness smoothie and fiber one brownies. Oh and jack links beef & cheese snack stick duos. And a chobani yogurt. I wanted to have a campbells soup at hand but the damn thing blew up & spilled all over after only 20seconds in microwave. The directions said to heat for a full minute. Grrrrr.
Today was a BF berry boost smoothie and a buzz bite for caffeine. Seems caffeine alone doesn't do much for me. I added a b12 lozenge before I woke up much. Think I won't get the buzzbites anymore. The foosh mints worked better... probably because strong mint also wakes me up. By making me sneeze. Plus I can get 12 mints or 6 bites for the same price, and the mints are only 5cal vs 25cal. Anyway...
Then I messed up by trying the cookie dough Mom brought home yesterday. And I wasn't the first one to try it either ^_^
Poor Mom. She has even less willpower than I do.
I still have 3 yogurts, a 15ish oz C-Boost smoothie(this flavor is only in this size), a bigger bottle of the Chocolate Protein Plus, a bigger jug of Green Goodness, and a small 15ish oz bottle of Chocolate Protein Plus.
Plus half a brick of colby cheese and tomato juice that technically hasn't expired but the bottle says use within 10 days of opening. Umm..... guess I need to find smaller bottles. I love tomato juice but it makes my stomach acidic so I can't take much more than a cup a day. Oops. I opened it a good 20 or 25 days ago.
All that food was about $40... ok the tomato juice & 2 other things had been bought on another trip but minus the tomato juice and fiber one brownies and the colby cheese.... $40 for the healthy noms. So I figure if I spend more than $40 a week for food then I'm probably eating something I shouldn't.
Actually... I still have lots of cup a soup boxes... so I should be ok with shopping $40 every other week for awhile.

Ok I'm back. It's now 11pm and Mom brought Rotary food and I stuffed myself with meatballs & egg noodles and then a bit of what she called waldorf salad. Is salad really salad when there's no lettuce, or veggies of any kind? It was diced apples, grapes, dried cranberries & marshmallows in a sweet syrup. I'm not a marshmallow fan but I picked out apples & some grapes. Good dessert. Wow my tummy is sooo full. Back. In my room now with my water bottle. Once I can move again I'll do my teeth.
I'm quite sure I hit the 2000cal mark. Ugh.
I dug out the 2 magnesium citrate bottles I have, basically a store bought saltwater flush, because I felt uncomfortably stopped up. That feeling of a rock in the backend.... but I think I'll wait. Perhaps tonight's feast will push things through.
The last time I used these things I was a child and only took like 1/3 the bottle or something. Directions on it say for children 12yrs & over & adults... 1/2 to full bottle. Drink 8oz water with each dose. But is my dose half the bottle or the full bottle? And if it's the full bottle is 8oz water really enough? The cool thing is bottle says dose can be divided throughout the day. No gulping a quart in 30 mins. It also only needs like an 8 to 12 hr fast beforehand. So I guess if tonight's total pigout doesn't fix things... yea. I don't fully remember how the flush felt. I don't think I was ever in pain, and I'm pretty sure the red cherry one was the one I was given back then. I was forever having issues like that as a kid. My bro was too. We were two small children constantly under stress and it was just a side effect I guess..... we were holding our emotions in so hard we held everything else in too. Wow is that tmi or what? Moving on...

I put a sign by my computer. It says "what have you done today to make Presumptions R Us unnecessary?" and it seems to help a bit. After like a month...or more... the 3rd comic is awaiting transfer. I might make a quick change to Trixie's shoes but that's it. Granted I'm still not 100% happy with it but my drawing skills suck so I think 80% happy is the best I can hope for. Now if only I could find my flash drive....
And oooo once I'm on the computer I also need to post some cute pics of Samantha that I've had for a bit. Especially that really cute one where she's all embarassed at the bikini girls behind her! And the supercute pics of her with a possible girlfriend! So adorable! The girl's name is Lauren and she's Jessica Alba's friend & makeup artist. She has such a cute smile!
I also need to check out my adsense account. I think I read that adsense can use my blog to generate content-based ads until I have enough comic content. I think? It'd be cool to start playing with the layout now.
Ok I think I'm gonna go cuddle my cat. Night all ^_^