Yea being downstairs at the comp means stuffing my face. BAd bad bad.... should have fled upstairs after Star Trek cuz i was doing good til then. Once Mom went to bed out came the candy.
The ONLY good thing I can say is that I haven't bought any new candy in a while.
But I lost track of how much easter candy I'd bought back then... even found some coconut M&Ms buried under it all. Hershey bunnies and Russel Stover coconut nests and Snickers eggs and the bigger Russel STover bunnies, 3 of them are white chocolate which I can rarely find when it's not Easter.
Sigh.
So in an attempt to stop myself from turning a superbinge into a epicfuckingbinge, I have been bouncing round People of Walmart. I found a few general ones then noticed the tags and went to the Ohio-tagged list. Heh... wonder if I'll ever recognize anyone?
I don't think I'll ever see myself on there cuz PoW isn't just about fatties.. it seems to focus on fatties who show off their fat rolls.
I keep my fat securely inside my baggy clothes thanks. You can see forearms and my collarbones (fat as I am I still have clavicles. They may be barely there, but they are there!)
So I look like a skinny girl in way-too-big clothes.
Ha! Actually I might show up on PoW for wearing "too-big" clothes! I haven't seen any pics like that yet tho.
Anyway here's some links:
Big butt, teeny shorts
Where are her pants? or shorts? or whatever???
Hospital gown chic? - seriously... look at that darker strip tie, like she added another tie to keep that false front shirt on!
Halter top = side fatboob - what's funny is I think I saw this one, or someone dressed like her, when R pointed her out and asked me if I'd heard of PoW and i said "yes" and he said "always wear clothes you won't be ashamed of if someone snaps your picture out in public."
Good lesson, no?
so much for no shirt=no service - yay for working out (if that's what she was doing) but does no one have a no shirt = no service code anymore? I don't need to see her belly hanging out like that!!!
More shorts don't fit! - and I'm really hoping that's her undies peeking out and not some strange rash or something even more gross.
Too-short shorts again - seems to be a common problem... fatties wearing shorts that get eaten by their butts. Shorts that are spray-painted on. Or shorts that are both sprayed on and are being eaten by the butt. As this lady demonstrates.
I haven't worn a pair of shorts in public for 5 or 6 years now because I'm kind enough to NOT subject others to the horror of my fleshy ass!
And it's 5am and i do have to work later today. I have been very bad and must perform proper acts of penance.
It's time to dig out the Go Greens again. i think at minimum I should have, every day, at least 1 Go Greens mix, and 1 protein shake. And add a joint drink mix in there on working days. That's 3 drink mixes, each is dissolved in 20oz water.. so 60oz of water a day. Surely that will help keep me full.
And it's a lot healthier than the chocolate shit and the tv dinners I've been pigging out on lately.
I mean... my fatass pic is on my phone.. and everytime I just look at the time i see it and I'm like "damn, am I really that bad?"
Well DUH cuz i took that pic of me! But there's still a mental disconnect.
It's like I still think I look as I did when i was full-blown ana-teen. Rail thin. How the hell did my brain skip ahead to assuming my starving was already done?
Moronic brain. This stops NOW. Fuck! i should be smaller than the half-sister. My wrists, fat as i am, are still smaller in circumference than hers. She's 140 she says. She's 2 inches taller than me.
R was right. i was once 120 or hell, even 117.
Problem.. skinny can be aging.. either the face goes or the ass goes. i can hide my ass.
Goal:130.
Now: 165.4
36 lbs to drop.
(With the option of going lower ^_^)
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