Here I am again, blogging on phone while running swagbcks vids. This time it's Style Etc channel and I do watch most of them. Clothes clothes clothes! And watching the catwalk show repeats is very thinspirational.
I was very lazy today...took the bus both to and from class. The right arch feels weird and I wanted to go easy on that foot.
I am without a car for who knows how long. Spent like 15mins in work parking lot the other night trying to get my car to start. So my car is in the shop atm. Class was cancelled for thurs tho so that's a yay. I'm sad about not being able to go to the park tomorrow though.
Mom brought my cane home so I'm trying to go very easy on that right foot.
Overslept and took antkins bar to school. When I got home I didn't feel well. Like acid reflex or something, and an upset stomach. Some milk calmed it down then I had a milky way bar and 2 single serve peanut butter m&ms. Oops.
So then I made up my maxwell house french vanilla latte. Two cups actually. It made me sleepy. Then tall glass of cold water and now here I am.
Took out my beloved Pacific Chai vanilla chai latte LOVE IT but thinkgeek doesn't carry it anymore. Amazon does tho. So gonna earn a 5$ credit for amazon I guess.
And again I'm having issues of wanting to go thru all the vids in this section.
I also feel ready to fall asleep.
Good news is Style Etc string won't take all fuckin night.like 5 or 6 pages left.
Gotta pee then thing I'll take some chai with milk....well another glass of water and then my chai with milk.
It's so calming. I know it's got caffeine but somehow caffeine makes me sleepy.
Mom's got Enterprise playing. Damn T'Pol is hot. Only got season 1 right now. See I read an overview of what she went through and I don't like seeing women suffer. But maybe I could take a closer look at this season and watch the funny ones.
Blah now I've eaten a tv dinner. Damn hunger. But I was watched too, so yay for further avoiding susppicion. Paranoia sucks.
Ok let's finish this section and go to bed.
And I need milk. Wtf w the acid reflux??
Guess my vanilla chai can be saved a bit longer. Good, cuz it's getting harder to find and buy :/

this novel put the brakes on a binge

Well I did not go anywhere today. The foot hurt so I sat on my fat ass.
The good thing is this means I did not buy more candy.
The bad thing is I also don't have my blenderbottle, and that protein shake was barely half gone. Here's hoping work let if alone. If it's been in the fridge this whole time then I'll even be able to drink it tomorrow. It'll just taste a bit iceboxy. But I won't waste it :)
If they took it out and dumped it..... :'(
Better take refills just in case.

.it's 3am so I will probably sleep thru church again. Very bad of me but less likely to be late for work. Ugh I haven't had a Sunday off in like 2 months. And soon I won't have saturdays off either. Somethings going on and looks like delivery day will soon be on Saturday so the new girl who got imported from another store and promoted above me...she's taking all the weekdays. Which means not only do I work all weekend but I'll also get an hours cut. Just how the scheduling worked out...she didn't get more hours but when delivery day is a weekday she works then in addition to me. And soon it'll be different.

So.... I need to get this in my head: less eating = saving money.

I also need to find the old printer and get it hooked up so I can start using the swagbks coupons. Cuz you have to install some sort of coupon-tracker program and I can't install stuff at school.
Ugh...

I mentioned before that walgreens bought drugstore.com and nowhere is it more obvious than in the price hikes on the rite aid brand products. My rite aid saltwater flush was $2 when I bought it from drugstore.com and now it's $6.
Oh sorry...currently on sale for $5.
Wow.
Oh more wow....I just checked riteaidonlinestore.com (which is somehow different from riteaid.com) and guess what?
Rite aid's online store is powered by drugstore.com what the flying fuck!!!
Monopoly much?
But walmart doesn't have Aria and I'm really spoiled now about mixing it in.
Oh well I still have many cans letf. Like 3 or 4 Aria cans still unopened.

Think I'll set up a walmart.com account then. And they are on the Allure Rewards list, tho they only give back 2% of your total, and shipping and tax is probably not included in that.
Oh!! Thinkgeek is on the list! When did that happen?? YES I do order from there way too much. They only give 4% but hey, whatever. The real question is how does that work with geekpoints?
Dunno...next thinkgeek order I make I'll check it out.
Sephora's on here too. Excellent! I'll try to order Charlotte's new makeup line online.

Ok stop this Honor...back to racking up swgbucks vids. Is it weird that i'd rather use the sb acct for drugstorecom shopping? I'll use allure rewards for other stuff but I'm freaked that walgreens owns so much now. The possibility of them getting ahold of my allure rewards account too makes me nervous. They basically own their competitor's online shop! I find that freaky!
Still running vids....
3:33 am
I was nominated for a Dear You letter...and I'm torn between two peeps, one whom I don't think I've ever mentioned before. Is it naughty to do it more than once if I only got 1 nom?

And this is a novel... but I have now stopped at getting into the chocolate stash. 4 russel stover coconut nests... I figure I better eat them before they start tasting stale.
The bunnies are already gone, both the lil hershey bunnies and the big russel stover ones.
Zomg urge to stuff face.
Had pizza for dinner. Mom gets them in pairs cuz Lil Caesar has this deal where one everything pizza one 1topping pizza are like $5 or something on certain days. So she gets the everything and I get a pepperoni. And I ate half my pizza. Plus the chocolate.
That pizza pringles can I have left is still upstairs. It needs to come down here! Augh! Watch me be weak and stupid and eat it tomorrow. Damn monthly on the way too. My tiny boobs are sore.
3:50am why am I stil upppppp?
For some reason I have this weird challenge to myself to go thru all the swagvids in one section. I chose a celebrity one and I don't watch stuff about jersey shore (hate em) any kartrashian (ditto) or about cheating assholes or about the evil chrs brown. Still pissed he beat rhi up tho I'm not her fan at all. He beat her up. And she's still kinda friendly with the asshole?! Don't watch her stuff either.
I also skipp anything about blohan or her leech family.
I also am gonna skip this vid about Samantha's mug shot and dui. She's been vilified enough and she was just barely illegal anyway.
Samantha's not a citizen, you know. She's super law abiding because she could get deported if she screws up too badly. I do think her mug shot is funny though. I have it saved. I'll have to post it sometime. Better to show it here than give some asshat gossip site hits.
She sure does have Death Stares down. She also looks very annoyed, which I get. Barely illegal would be really annoying.
Lol one of the febreze ads appears to use a lesbian couple, which makes me very happy.
4am
Oooo Miranda Kerr so lovely.
I wanna be thinner!
Eat less = save money!
Gahhh! Fuck casey anthony! I skip her shit too! Murdering bitch! Where are the hellhounds when you need then???
415am. Ugh how many more vids before I have at least glanced at this whole section?
Whoa whoa... what's this about some poor Australian schoolgirl had a bomb put around her neck? What insufferable dickwad did that??!
430am and I'm actually starting to get tired. I start work at 1pm so I should probably be up by 1130 at the latest. Maybe I can swing noon. I close so I'll be driving even tho it's close. Feels weird to even think about asking for rides now I got license.
Bored now. But there is an end to this section like 8 pages away. And I'm up to 515sb now. Tho I was at like 447 when I started this crazy streak.
Meh... thing I'll skip all the glee stuff too. It was cute at first but I think it's outlived itself. Jane Lynch is funny tho.

Awwwww Emma Watson being held and kissing a boy, and he holds her so gently.
So glad she's happy. I feel guilty for watching though.

4:45am now. Bored bored bored. These commercials suck. I wanna see the cute lez couple more! I don't give a damn about this other shit!
Zappos ad...zappos doesnts seem to be on sb shop list and clearly isn't on allure rewards anymore. Too bad...I saw some shoes there I liked long ago. Still can't afford them tho. But the allure giveback would have helped!
Gahhhhh 5am and still 4 pages to go. And why do I feel the need to do this?? I'm an idiot? Or I have a slight case of ocd? Do not know...but gotta watch most the vids left or I'll go bonkers.
And now I got that old Bonkers cartoon in my head.
Blah I'll skip the aniston-pitt-jolie triangle stuff. Seriously? Angelina is a goodwill ambassador or something and the tabloids still harp on this old shit? If aniston is still pining...it's old news and kinda pathetic. It's been YEARS. Even useeless loser me can move on after 2 years.
Cmon cmon 2 pages left... pick 8 vids from 2 pages, that's only half each page and I can let go of my insanity for a bit. Ok now 5:15 need 4 more vids and on last page almost there
Skipping the lohan shit. Blah blah blah.

Wow can you imagine how much chocolate I would have eaten if I hadn't been blogging on my phone instead? Yikes! Anyway.... did it! Went thru all the pages of Spalsh News in celebrity section even if I didn't watch them all.... now at 524sb and it's 5:25am.
Bedtime.

Diet fail once I got off work. 2 chalupas and a whole pizza pringles can.
Note to Self: pringles never satisfy as well as you thought they would.
I should have stopped with the chalupas. 2 is a bit much but if I had stopped then those 2 chalupas would have been the only food I had all day today (technically yesterday now)
But in the days before that....piggy mcbingey. Total. I've polished off 2 and 1/2 boxes of Cheez-its in 4 days. And a box of Count Chocula. And half the tin of smores mix. Yay for someone else eating the rest!
And I left my protein shake at work, in my blenderbottle.
Sigh.
No surprise...I've gained again. Not back to starting weight but too close for comfort.

Candy corn has arrived at work. Since candy corn is one item I cannot binge on (I start feeling sick after like 8 single corns) I'm thinking of getting a small $1 bag when I go get my bottle tomorrow. I'll walk to and from work, then maybe take my car to the park and wander those soft trails.
Or maybe stay home with my foot wrapped and propped up. Depends on how that foot feels.

Oh... Peri asked a question... no my uni is an ass and there is no special parking for shared cars... and there is no way to get credit for shared cars. If you got a friend and you choose to help friend pay for parking pass then go you, but you better trust your friend cuz you have no recognized uni right to get rides.
This semester they're not even using the rearview mirror tags cuz peeps would share the tag ofc, switching the tag between diff cars. So uni is now taking your license plate # and make etc and recording it as a permitted vehicle. Nice racket, huh?

Minecraft-wise I am also about the log cabin and hobbit hole. I have 3 worlds now since I keep making new worlds cuz I'm impatient and dumb. And 2 of then I have a doggie, and only the 3rd world do I have a house the dog can get into. So doggie tends to stay there cuz i'd be too sad if he got hurt while I mine.

Read thru Ana Regzig again. I need routine. I'm no model and I do want muscle so our goals are different. But she was so good about planning and routine. And I suck at it.
At least I remembered to have a water bottle, just water, beside my bed tonight. Let's try to make that routine. Always sleep with water near.
Then I'll be able to drink water before even getting up.
Damn I'm tired. Think I'll slap some vapo-rub on that bad foot and go to sleep.

Yesterday was more diet fail.
Today *thus far* I'm doing good.
But that's probably because I haven't been home.
Class then work. I took bus to class cuz I overslept, then I walked home.
I'm thinking walking home on working days is not a good idea.
=sm in so much pain right now. The right foot, mostly the right ankle, is just THROBBING ow ow ow that bone is sticking out too far still and it's starting to look freaky. It certainly doesn't look normal.
Meanwhile Mom's trying to arrange so I can drive and park near campus without parking on campus. My school charges $125 for a parking pass, per semester.
I don't have that kind of money!
I'm torn here, walking helps weight loss but I could really be messing up this ankle.
And break is over. Yep still at work. Sigh. 3hrs til home 3hrs til home. Then back for 8hr shift tomorrow *cries*

Home now....diet fail again. And crashing from the carbs too. Tv dinner and a "smores mix" I bought, a big tub that we all share...and I got into the last bok of Cheez-its. Clearly I should not buy those things anymore. Addicting.
Blogging on phone while the swagbcks tv is running on comp. Sadly my sb acct is attached to irl email. And I've discovered swgstaks, like gambling only without using real money. I have yet to win anything.
But I'm running the vids cuz it's a better way to earn than playing the games. Sound is down but sometimes I do listen, especially on anything about my Ronson twings ^_^
They have a fashion and beauty channel so I can drool over clothes and get swagbucks all at once. Winning!
Stick with the fashion and glamour vids tho. The "how to" ones (how to do smokey eye etc) are fuckin LONG and it takes 10 vids to get 3sb. I also bop around in the celebrity section, but only sometimes.
Wow tired. Think is bedtime.
Xoxoxoxo

How to create Diet Fail:
1. Don't plan ahead.
Don't do smart things like mixing your kickass protein shake the night before so it's all ready when you wake up hungry. Just skip that and stuff your face with whatever carby sugar stuff happens to be around.

2. Don't stop after you start pigging out. Just keep going.
Even if you already feel full. Fatties don't get that full feeling so quickly, because they've ignored it for so long.

3. Eat when you're really just bored.
Especially on stale chocolate. You don't want to throw that easter chocolate away when there's starving kids in africa.

Repeat steps 1-3 until you have to weigh yourself at those truck-weighing stations.

As you may have guessed, yesterday at today (meaning Monday as I still haven't gone to bed, so is Mon to me) were total disasters. I ate sugar shit. Sooo hard to resist. My childhood fave Count Chocula is back for Halloween! Yes the halloween stuff is arriving at stores already, most of it is just in the back.

I did not go to school today either. And I feel apathetic about it. Just as I feel apathetic over the bingey days. I'm aware that this isn't good, but I'm apathetic about that too.
One of those times when you have to pull yourself out by sheer willpower but you don't really care enough to do the work.
Uh.
Earlier I was thinking about ways I could find a scanner. I like doing my mspaint pics but simply drawing would be faster. But I have no scanner. I'd still be doing cartoons as I can't draw worth shit, but I could do them faster.
I also vaguely remember peeps mentioning these tablet things where you draw directly into the computer.eh...I'm poor so finding a public scanner somewhere would be cheaper in the short term.
Suggestions? All I want is to create jpg cartoons. Mspaint starts as bmp but does have a convert to jpg option even if it does make the colors go wonky sometimes. I currently have an old comp, the internet-connected one runs windows xp and has microsoft office.

This next bit of thought could probably get me committed to a mental institution so shhhhhh.
Anyone heard of Crazerasers? I picked up several a few days ago and opened them tonight. They are cute and I enjoy playing with them. I got fake makeup amd perfumes and money and a sewing set, and a chinese food set. I can pretend the perfumes work. To where I almost feel the ghost of a spray on my neck. And when I mimed eating with the tiny rice bowl, I even felt less food craving. I don't know if miming would help actual hunger pangs but can't hurt to try.
I read Peter Pan as a kid and I still remember the scenes of the make-believe dinners
And how Peter really seemed full on those elaborate dinners of air. They were so detailed when they described the imaginary food.
I always did love those toy foods. Especially those floppy toy fried eggs. So cute.
They always belonged to other people. And now I don't think they're made anymore. Last time I saw toy toast it was permantly attached inside the toy toaster.
I don't really want the big toy kitchen or the toy appliances. Just the toy food. Maybe some toy pans and plates or forks etc. But little things that I can shove all into a drawer before normal people come over and think I'm insane.
Maybe I'll just mock up some simple stuff from cardboard and paper.
I miss playing. Just now realized that. I miss playing with toys. Even more than I miss video games. The tactile experience of feeling the toy in my hand, even making the silly noises and voices. I still have my barbies and Rainbow Brite dolls. The first sewing project I ever did was to make a sleeping bag (pillow attached) for a doll that Mom later gave away without my permission!
Maybe a part of me feels like my childhood was stolen.
She often gave away my stuff without my permission. Including all my My Little Pony stuff. I had one pony who came with a stable and an orange cat, and the stable held her and all her sstuff, a saddle and bridle and reins and a basket the cat could ride in and a strap so she could wear the basket, and the stable folded closed and looked like a real stable. She had pink hair and hearts on her rump. I had a knockoff pony with rainbow hair that kept falling out anytime I tried to brush it, so I stopped.
Mom also gave away this reusable sticker playset thing, a My Little Pony sticker playset... and under the sticker board I had hidden my life's savings. It was about $200 give or take a 20. That's where I put my birthday money and babysitting money etc etc, cuz already I worried about how my change kept dissappearing. Well Mom gave away that playset without getting my money out. And I still feel hurt about it, and hoping that it at least went to a poor child and not some swindler. Or an employee of whatever secondhand store got it.
She did feel guilty for awhile and stopped giving my stuff away, but I still don't like it when she comes in my room.
I still get sad and feel violated when I think about it.

Wow this turned into a novel. My hands are cramping.
So yea, I miss playing with toys and I think I should.
Peter Pan Forever!

Was good til near end of shift. Coworker offered some m&ms and since I have a chocoholic rep at work (it's deserved btw) I said sure!
And then at home it all fell apart.
Grrrrr....
Protein shake in fridge for later.
Somehow I fucked up my right shoulder while reading gossip sites on computer.
Got a menstrual thermacare wrapped on it. And a shirt. Still ow.
And bought lots fresh chocolate today.
At least when I got home I was alone so 90% was quickly packed away. Still ate the other 10% but could have been worse.
Like I toled Ayden on her blog, I fuck up too. We all do. Just gotta get up and back on traack.
Willpower is a finite resource.
Good news is I have a working shower again yay! And I fully intend to use it once I'm not stuck on my back cuz of this damn shoulder.
And getting my personal shower back means I'm totally doing my regular masks again. Oh how I've missed those! Beauty treatments are also good distractions from food.
And it totally smells like that bad kitten just took a shit outside my door again >:(
Anyone remember the old Super Soaker guns? I need one. Soak that damn cat everytime he does this!
Ok aspirins now.

Avoided solid food til 10pm today (technically yesterday since I stayed up all night again)
Followed by stuffing my face with cookies and brownies that Mom brought home from a funeral she played for.
So....yea....
Got a protein shake all set for breakfast and a refill to go w me to work.
Let's see if I can last til 10pm again.

I actually reached ketosis today. I can tell now by how I feel...a low but steady energy, and I run kinda hot. Like I have a small temperature.
After the loopyness passed I was quite comfy, tho I did have hunger pangs come and go. Not enough protein I guess. 1 shake instead of 2.
Need to get back on my vitamins. I paid for the damn things so I need to take them.
Ok I'll still get 4 hrs sleep if I go lay down now.
Off I gooooo!

I am Fail.

Flunked the online class as expected...still haven't logged in to see prof's response or my grade, just assuming I failed cuz why wouldn't I?
And I'm stuck lying about it to everyone. That really sucks.
Haven't run any of my errands. Am late paying the tuition.
Class starts next week. Am hoping I can switch classes from the one I'm enrolled in (the islam one) and go to the Greek class instead.
Wish me luck?

Ate very little today and am all loopy. The loopyness is nice distraction from feeling like such fail. Also slept a lot..another thing I do when feeling fail.
Brain awake kinda..looooopyyyy... also tired tho. It's interesting.
Went thru drawers some today..I have some cute tops but all are too small.
Fat fat fat.
Think I'll pop a melatonin and snuggle back into my nest here.
Gotta work later today and all day tomorrow.
Will try to get back on the track. Fit my cute shirts.
Potbelly bad, thin pretty.

Oh Willpower, where art thou?
I'm gonna swing back into calorie cycling.. the bingey that happened when i got home after work today can be balanced out by restricting after 8pm tomorrow. I got a few days coming where I work every other day so this should work out for a bit. Yay for easing back into the swing. Cuz i went up grrrr... And I'm getting very annoyed.

Ok... since I'm on comp for a hot second... peeps know I'm not a blohan fan, but she does have fans (stans?) who yell and whine about she had a rough deal being a young star (and none of that $ went to therapy so really?? anyway..) and so I'm gonna stick with a topic where every person out there can be FAIRLY criticized.

Fashion. ^_^

Whatever you think of her  possible drug deal in plain sight... what she wears in public will always be fair game.

Ok then.. to be fair i actually think this dress is pretty. It's a pure white lacey number that has lovely lace all the way up the sleeves. It's a white slip with a fancy lace overlay to be honest. It's far too lowcut for someone like me but if the neckline were adjusted.. i would totally wear this.
I even kinda like the purse. Vibrant without being in-your-face and the swingy trim is fun.

But what the flying FUCK is up with the leopard print loafers? Seriously? I think my Grandpa wore those as slippers back when I was in diapers.

And the bug-eye sunglasses? Only reason I ever wear those is because my prescription eyeglasses are under then. What's her excuse?

Also I'd love to get an upclose look at her scalp. She's maintained that Playboy-white-blonde thing for awhile now, meaning she's been having her roots touched up at least every 10 days. Add in the extensions and I'm wondering where her real hair begins.
I've never had extensions but I'm told they can pull hair right out if worn for too long. Anyone have experience there?

in other news, Samantha continues to develop her stage legs by performing in small but well-connected venues with objective reviewers mixed in with her friends and support network. (also.. please note her dark roots here. Blonde hair takes a LOT of maintenance. Also.. I think I want that haircut.)  I'm happy to hear that her voice is getting stronger and her stage presence is becoming solid. Sad that I can definitely hear smoking damage, which affects her ability to nail her notes right out of the gate. her control is still a little slippery but she has a damn good ear and can hear when she's off, and she's back in tune often by the next note. You can see her looking back to her crew a few times, especially when she sounds off.
It's a good sign, really. I've sung live on stage too and it can be damn hard to hear your accompaniment when they're behind you. She's open to being conducted.
I hope she continues to improve, and I REALLY hope that Erin can get her to ninja-kick the fucking Marlboros!

Samantha at the Viper Room Aug 2011 (I'm sooo glad someone there recorded this... Viper Room did not livestream it!)

Also.... I want that belt. And possible the shirt and that red scarf thing. Pretty much everything she has on... except the shoes. i'd hurt myself in those.
(aond ofc i want the girl wearing the clothes but Erin has quite the Death Stare and i don't wanna cross her!)

So I'm gonna be a good girl and go to bed and NOT think about hot DJs who belong to someone else.

And it's 5am again.. gee i think there's a connection between my late nights and my climbing weight. Hmm...
*slaps self hard*

The Littlest Ronson often jokes about her body breaking down, and will jokingly blame things on arthritis.
Turns out her jokes are based in fact.
The old-timer fans tell me she has rheumatoind arthritis. Got it sometime in mid-twenties. Poor little dear.
Fuck.

No wonder she covers up. She has to stay very warm. She moved to LA from NYC cuz NY winter were seriously painful. She wasn't joking about the cold she was aactually hurting.and it must have been hell....even I find winters physically painful. My back muscles lock up.
Can't imagine the pain of every joint locking up :(
Her fingerless gloves aren't just for fashion.
:(
She loves DJing so much...if her hands go.... ok I can't think about that.

It's a damn good reason to stay so skinny tho.
Smaller weight = less stress on her joints.

Poor girl....and lately at her live gigs she's had someone else play guitar even tho she can play herself.
Using her hands as little as possible?

I really hope her album does well enough to make her happy. She's not aiming for the billboard charts or anything but I'm sure she'd like some recognition.
I gotta get that letter off. Both of them.
Charlotte seems so much healthier. Samantha really did get the short end of the stick.
And ofc Charlotte has healthier habits too. She doesn't smoke and she keeps regular hours.
=sm glad the twins are so close. Samantha will have people to take care of her.
But I've worked in nursing homes and being trapped in a severely disabled body when you used to run around....doesn't seem nice.
I want Samantha to enjoy more of her life first.

Waaaaahh! I want to hold her and rock her to sleep now.

Foodwise major fail today. Mom went shopping= mom got reeses chips ahoy= reeses chips ahoy entire package now gone.
I'm gonna have to ask her not to get them anymore. They're addicting and I can never have just a normal serving of 2 or 3. It's always the entire fucking package.
Sigh.

contains some TMI after the pic

The womanlies started in earnest around the 7th.. and when I wasn't working (fueled by sugar and Buzz Bites ofc) then i was basically passed out in my still-fairly-hot room.
I'm kinda recovered now... still eating chocolate and downing painkillers but the constant fatigue (which sometimes causes the sugar binges if I'm in a situation where sleep is not an option) is slowly passing.
Ofc this means my sleep schedule is officially fucked up again. It's 5am where i am and I'm even on the damn computer.

Anyway... this is the shirt I'm talking about.. the shirt on Sam that I want. I found the dress Charlotte has on and it is her JCPenney line... and I'm pretty sure Sam said on Twitter that her blue shirt was also JCPenney... but it's not even on the website. WTF?

Here comes the TMI...

I'm wearing the good ol "period pants" the ladies know what I mean. I go beyond just undies tho. I got actual pants too... they were stained years ago when I was stuck on a train. I hate hate hate heavy months. Well between my "period clothes" and that kickass Bio-Kleen I'm happy that the collection has not been added too. Well.. not pants-wise anyway. Undies still have mishaps. So long as their the plain granny panty briefs i don't care. The cute colored boyshorts get put aside for the duration ofc.

Not sure what else to say. Obviously my eating has SUCKED for the past fucking week. Which may or may not be causing the upswing in backaches.
Gee let's pile a potbelly on a twisted spine... makes perfect sense!

Wanna laugh? Here's Samantha's latest entry for Sophia's HelloGiggles site. As the name implies the site is meant to make people smile. And I think Samantha's humor is at a high point in this entry:
http://hellogiggles.com/no-thank-you

I'll be putting that one on my Cool Sh!t list on that tab up there... below the Honor's-phone-browser-friendly line ^_^

And yea as i said before, Samantha has dated guys. She's openly admitted that many songs from her old old album Red were inspired by her pain over Happy dumping her. They're friends now tho. Samantha took the time to heal and now they're buds. i like having that ending too. After all this time I could probably even be friends towards the first girl i ever dated, and she could have been nicer to me, but she's got mental issues and looking back, i think she did the best she could.

Ain't i magnanimous? ^_^

Gimme a P
Gimme an M
Gimme an S

What does that spell?

FAT FAT FAT!

Ugh.... 3 hours yesterday I fought chocolate cravings...before finnaly crashing into 6 oz of old easter chocolate. Still got easter chocolate left....it's starting to taste a bit stale.
Then today I bought fresh chocolate. Yea I'm bad. Only thing I did right was using cash so I had a forced spending limit.

Guess I'll do crunches or something.

Looks like The Littlest Ronson is back on twitter a small tiny bit. Poor dear thing. Seeing the hatred aimed at her finally got me off my ass and working on that fanletter.
I actually found an older typed one that I made last year or maybe even the year before. Her songs still affect me the same way so I'm handwriting (carefully) another page and hers will be ready. Then I'll write Charlotte's (also carefully since my handwriting is not the best) and send them off together :)
I do adore the twins. I think their best pictures are when they're together. And both are my fashion muses, because I prefer to dress kind of between them. I do wear dresses more often than Samantha does, but nowhere near as often as Charlotte does. And Samantha does make casual loose clothes look good. I went to JCPenney looking for a blue patchwork shirt Sam said was from there, and I can't find it! I did find the dress Charlotte wore tho. But I can only afford one thing, and I'll get more wear out of the shirt.

Ok if I'm gonna play hooky with the class I'm flunking, best do something with my time.

Grrr some idiot ran into a powerline and some 11 thousand customers are without power, that's what the electric guy said when I used my cell to call in the outage (I put the outage # in my cell long ago)
Before power went out I was making a picture of me holding samantha ronson. Poor girl got pulled over for speeding (naughty, I grant you) but cop suspected her of drunkenness and she refused the portable breathalyzer probly cuz their accuracy sucks, so she was tested at the station.
0.08 exact. Right on the fucking legal/illegal line.
Bad bad luck.
To be honest I'm betting she was perfectly functional and was only suspected cuz of internet rumors. Cuz this is her first offense ever as far as I know, and she openly drinks. She uses drivers a lot, and is 33 and has probably been drinking since 16 or younger.
But what she can handle and what the cops call legal probably aren't the same.

Here's what really sucks.

The damn tabloids found out and gossipers are having a fucking field day. Tmz is even claiming that lilo has withdrawn from sam's life because Samantha is a bad influence.
Riiiiight... cuz one dui at 0.08 is sooo much worse than 5 failed rehabs, speeding with guys in a carjacked car and high on cocaine. And jail terms that were way too short and easy.

Samantha fucked up a bit, but it'll be a one-off and she would never purposefully do this. She probably thought she'd slept it off. Oops.

I'm just sad so many peeps are gloating over Samantha's first offense.

So I was making a pic of me holding her. And then the power went out.
I've got my lil mp3 player hooked up to my keychain speaker from thinkgeek. Love it! Should try to get a few more! That site doesn load well from phone tho..and typing in all my info? I'm nervous about sending my credit card # over wireless for some reason.

Hey power's back! 2 hours ahead of what guy said. Cool. Am all in bed tho but it's nice that I can charge my phone now :D